Her eyes grew wider. "You're... You're together?"
That wasn't what he had meant, but he realized that lying at this point would be a bad idea. "Sometimes."
He stared silently at her, regretting the pain and horror on her face. What the fuck had he done? Why hadn't he realized? Why didn't she stop him? Why the hell hadn't she told him she was a virgin at least?
Swallowing against the bile in her stomach Ashina rolled away from him, she scented her own blood on the air, and looked towards his cock recoiling at the liberal smear of red she saw there.
"Faith, wait... Why? Why the didn't you tell me? I don't sleep with virgins... Fuck. We didn't use protection or anything. I could have... Fuck, Faith!.... Idiot! Why didn't you stop me?! Why didn't you talk to me?"
His mind racing he tried to figure out what to do with Faith, and how to deal with Angela. Ashina made up his mind for him.
Shifting to wolf, she scrambled away towards the house, and around Angela - well downwind. Fang growled again, and then shifted, heading after Faith. He needed to meet Angela before she came into the house looking for him, but he'd take a few minutes to make sure Ashina would be ok, and then head back out.
Hell, it was the absolute least his worthless, unworthy, stupid, drunk, idiot ass could do. Well... That and protect Faith. And he'd do that by getting Angela away from the house. Soon.
Ashina whirled in full panic mode, dropping the wet flannel in her hand as the bathroom door flew open behind her - Fang filled the frame looking impatient.
Fang swallowed audibly as he saw her fear. It was a new experience for him - she'd never been scared of him before. He didn't like the feeling.
"Are you OK?" He asked gently.
She frowned in confusion. She really wasn't sure. Physically she wasn't sure, and mentally she was pretty sure the answer was no.
"May I see?"
Seeing her hesitate and inch further away he decided not to waste anymore time. Angela would be back at any moment, and he needed to get them both out of there before she suspected anything.
He moved unexpectedly quickly, snagging her around the waist, and sitting her up on the edge of the basin bench and forcing her thighs wide. Crouching down he picked up the flannel dabbing away the blood. It didn't look like he'd done too much damage beyond the obvious. The bleeding was almost stopped, and although she would be sore she would heal.
"I have to go Faith. You're going to be sore - probably for a day or two. The bleeding should stop soon though. If it doesn't or if you're still sore, go to the doctor and get checked out. I'm a bit bigger than average, and I was rougher than I should have been. You're not on the pill are you? It might be an idea to go and get Plan B or something similar just in case. It's unlikely that you'll need it, but just in case. It's happened before."
Staying low to the ground he let her close her legs again. "Why didn't you tell me?"
She sniffed and shrugged, trying to stop the way her hands were shaking by tucking them under her armpits. "I didn't know it would be so awful."
"Faith, it's not usually like that. It hurts a bit the first time, but it gets better. I promise. I rushed you, and I was too big, and too rough. It will never be like that again, alright? You were stupid to not tell me, but no one will ever hurt you as much as I did this time. Trust me ok?" He said soothingly, trying to reassure her, while also beating himself up for his own stupidity.
"I don't care. I'm not doing that ever again." She said avoiding looking at him.
He stood and brushed a kiss across her forehead, his heart sinking as she cringed away from him in fear.
"I promise it gets better."
He left, shifting the moment he cleared the back door, and intercepting Angela on her way back. After an impatient Angela had berated him for making them late, she shifted and they headed at a run towards their next assignment.
Ashina sat in the shower until she had stopped shivering, and came to terms with no longer being a virgin. It wasn't had as freeing, or as fun as she'd thought it would be. After a few hours of feeling sorry for herself she had a stern conversation with the mirror, reminding it of all the hard work she'd put in, and how much she believed in Aaron's cause.
Then she put all her pain, and fear, and horror inside a box, and locked it away from her determination to do this job - and to do it damn well. At dawn when her extraction team and her new partner arrived she was ready to take on the entire Shifters Council, and eventually, win.
***
Present day
Sitting in the darkness of her room Ashina groaned at the memories.
She could have done without the reminder of how stupid she'd been. Unfortunately, her brain didn't want to co-operate.
She took another gulp from the bottle of cheap scotch she clutched beside her. It went down like turps.
He had been involved with Angela. She wondered if he still was.
She also wondered what the hell he'd been thinking, trying to convince her 'it got better'. Snorting in derision she took another gulp of scotch. Like she would ever try that again. Ashina was nothing if she wasn't stubborn.
When she had said she wouldn't ever have sex again, she meant it. And she'd stuck to her guns - despite the number of propositions along the way.
Simon - before he'd met Ruby, fallen in love, and died - had wanted to sleep with her. She had threatened to castrate him if he ever touched her.
True, he had been a little shocked that his invitation to join him for dinner and a drink had been met with threats of bodily harm, but he'd wised up in a hurry and refrained from trying again.