POV
Millie
I'm under the covers letting the salty tears stream down my face when there's a light knock on the door and it opens.
"Mills? It's Steph."
Thank god.
I remove the comforter away from the mess of a face I'm rocking right now and see Steph standing there.
"Steph? What are you doing here?" I ask through a sob.
"X called me," she says quietly.
I lay flat on the bed and looked to the ceiling "I'm mortified Steph." I say.
She walks over to the bed and sits down "Oh Mills, don't be, he caught you completely off guard and he feels horrible." she says gently running her fingers through my hair.
She lays beside me and says "Come here"
We lay together and both just cry.
"I wish you could just forgive yourself, Millie, your mom would never want this for you," Steph says through tears.
"I know Steph, I just can't help it," I say wiping tears off my ears that gravity has filled them with.
Steph holds my hand "One day at a time baby girl, one day at a time."
I'm exhausted from the crying that I've been doing all night and fall asleep in Steph's arms.
…
I wake up to sunshine flooding the room. I slept like a rock last night not even waking up once. I have no idea when Steph left. I am so grateful for her, she's just what I needed last night and I'm thankful for X calling her, even though I'm so embarrassed about my breakdown.
I grab my phone, friday 8:18 am, 24 days left and now I don't know how I feel about leaving.
What happens when I do leave? Will X and I still talk in any way? The thought alone makes my stomach hurt.
I climb out of bed, making it before I walk out of the room.
I go down the hallway and see X sitting on the couch looking as handsome as ever with his head tilted back on the couch and arms folded over his stomach, he's sleeping.
I go to turn back to the room not wanting to wake him and hear X's voice say "Where are you goin?"
I turn back around to face him and he's still in the same position but with open eyes looking at me.
"Oh..I didn't want to wake you." I say.
"Nah, I've been up," he says nonchalantly.
"Okay, umm, I'm sorry about last night," I say embarrassed.
He shakes his head lightly and says "Don't be, I'm the one who needs to apologize."
"No, it's okay," I say sincerely.
He lazily stands up and walks over to me embracing me in a long hug.
"I've got to get ready for work babe, I have a pretty big meeting in a couple of hours. I probably won't be back until later tonight," he says and it already makes me miss him.
I nod and walk over to the kitchen finding some much-needed coffee and breakfast.
I wonder to myself what this meeting is about.