Nicholas POV
I didn't know how else to describe my confusion. Avana confused me, and it wasn't a minor confusion, it was seriously bothersome, and that was why I couldn't stand still when I heard her soft whimper from my sleep. Although she was outside, I could hear the pain in her heart, just like a joined soul. I could feel her pain at that moment, something felt strange that moment and I had lost it when I saw she had been dumped in the dark room.
Looking at her sore eyes, I knew she was hurt and devastated, but she must've thought of me as shirking. I mean, as an Alpha, I should be protecting my people, but instead I have basically collided with my mum to use her. I couldn't justify myself. If it were to be anyone else before Avana, I can be sure I wouldn't give a damn, but there was something about her. I can't just figure it out yet.
"When did you start to care about that girl? Did you go after her? How can you stand so low, Nicholas", my mother said,
"I don't care about her mother", I refused and forced myself to stop midway. It definitely feels like a lie, but no, I couldn't possibly care about her. I have never cared about anyone else like that, not even Jenny, who uses half of her existence to satisfy all my needs.
"She was mine to protect. The pack elders are a witness to our mating vow. I don't want my reputation tampered with when they see scars and bruises on my mate. You definitely don't want to be tagged the bullying pack, right mother" I said. It sounded more like a defense, but I didn't have it in me to give in to the weird feeling spreading across my chest, it wasn't something serious, and it would surely pass, I assured myself, or could it be because of that damn mark on Avana's neck. I thought, even though I knew it was a harmless birthmark, I further defended my confused mind, trying so hard to stop figuring out the real reason I really care about her.
"You can be with Jenny as much as you want, but make use of Avana before she gets the real idea. Claim her, that way she would live worshiping you" Mother said confidently. I was angry at myself. I understood I shouldn't be angry because I agreed to the plan from the beginning, but now something changed.
"She gets the idea already. She walked up on us discussing about using her. Just leave this to me. Wait until the full moon. Mother, and please, I know what to do" I stated, a blunt cover up. I had no idea what else to do, only hoping Avana spark would come on shining again. That time, I could get everything done with,and this messy confusion building up could stop.
One time I felt like I was doing the right thing and the next day I felt it was totally wrong. It bewildered me, because I was never a man to care about people's thoughts or feelings.I have always done things my way, but Avana got me going against my legacy.
More reason I have to be done with her soon after the full moon.
I waited patiently in my room, hoping Avana would come in, to peep at me as she always does. I have always been aware of her immense strength and ability, and it never occurred to me that I would one day helplessly wait for her to come look for me. I called on Jenny because I needed a distraction, and she always did a good job.
After a while, Jenny walked in, her eyes captivating as usual, she had a light make-up on and the artificial eyelashes she used seemed obvious. I watched as she forcefully swung her hips, a displeasing sight for me.
On the other hand, I was baffled. I have never in years really seen Jenny as fake. I might have been blinded by the satisfaction she gave me.
"What troubles you, my love," She whispered softly, getting closer, I moved a bit back and gently took off my shirt, my muscles flexed, and her reaction gave me a clue to what might have attracted me to her in the first place. She was a lusty goddess, and I helplessly lusted after her.
"Help me take my mind off things" I said. My hardened part quivered a bit, my self-control seemed to be slipping away every day, and it all began after the talks I had with Avana. I have been soaking wet all day and the kiss we shared only worsened it. I felt ashamed to face Avana about the kiss. She tended to my wolf sickness, and it made me vulnerable. I have intentionally fake sleepy to escape having to face her right on, I feel like it's right to keep her to her thought.
Jenny moved closer to me, stripped off her dress, she got down on her knees and rubbed my hardened part, she stood up and wrapped her legs around me, gently slipped on my cock, her moans filled the air and I lost it too, hitting her hard upward from my seating position, this time noone takes control, we both fight for it.
Near to ejaculating, I rushed to the bathroom and worked myself faster, getting off into the bathroom. The thought of anyone else having my children suddenly displeased me.
I walked out of the bathroom and put on a
shirt and trousers before a knock sounded on the door. I was greatly disturbed and the distraction I had wanted to be gone, came down in folds, sending panic over me. I was known to be fearless, but I think I have stopped being the Alpha of the people because I think I have lost my wits.
"Nicholas, you got to come out now" I breathed a sign of relief as I heard my mother's voice. I couldn't bear for Avana to see me this way, with another person. I must've lost it, but I definitely hate the thought.
I unlocked the door and my mother came in, blocking Jenny's existence. " Avana left the mansion. The guards chased after her, but she was faster and already gone far into the forest". My heart rate stopped for a bit and, without listening to anyone, I rushed out. The forests around Yani's are known to be dangerous, especially at night, and it was midnight. I don't want her to be hurt and I must go in search of her.
"How can a leader of this kingdom go in search of a lowly maid," mother shouted, and I stopped. I looked back, seeing her shocked expression and Jenny's confused sight. " You forgot to mention our vow mother, what about the witnesses? I am doing this for all of you" I said, and her shoulders dropped, her annoyance dimmed away, replaced by a fulfilling stare.
"Go then, that lowly girl mustn't put us in trouble" she muttered, and I walked out of the mansion, and some guards followed.
I screamed Avana's name. I couldn't smell her and that only proves how far she had gone. I speeded off deep into the forest. A cheetah came at me, but I wasn't even in the mood for it. With a fierce jump, I attacked the cheetah, and it finally ran off with scars. I pray to heaven, hoping the cheetah hasn't hurt Avana in anyway, I ran further, calling her name but still no response.
I panicked, hoping nothing bad had happened to her.I looked around the forest with my eyesight, and saw nothing until I heard her shriek. I ran faster to the direction it came from, forgetting how much I had denied her existence and worth.
I got there thanks to my wolf's speed. Avana's eyes reluctantly adjusted to my figure. It seemed like she never expected to see me, and truly I myself have never thought I could go out looking for anyone.
"Someone is here" she said panting, her dress torn from her shoulder, the terrified look in her eyes sent me raging, that terrified me. The funny creatures that had done that to her came out, mocking my presence and continued molesting her.
"She's my mate, touch her again and bear the consequences" I said, meaning the threat. I would kill them all if they dared. One of them moved closer to me, challenging. His eyes were red, like an outcast wizard, his stares were intense and, after a long stare, he walked towards the others. Their daring stares stopped, and they started leaving with a failed look.
Avana stared at me, her eyes now solemn. I walked to her and positioned her dress. Without any ego, I hugged her. She seemed completely shocked, but I never let go. She finally relaxed in my embrace, her body smelled like fragrant ice. I suddenly groaned, feeling my energy slip away as I fell on the ground.
"Hell with you, Yani's prince" one of the creatures that had stayed behind shouted before running off into the forest.
Avana took a look at my body and cast out a sharp cry, reaching for whatever was thrown at my back. I felt it pierce through my backbone.
"Take the Alpha to the mansion, and get the doctor" one of the guards ordered. I heard Avana cries, and it weakened me more than the physical pain at my back.
I helplessly fell into the darkness that enveloped me.