Wednesday, February 25, 2024

Lae's P.O.V.

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I walk through the corridor going towards my sister, Laura's wedding room. She got married just an hour before and went back to change for the reception, the day was way too long, I didn't imagine the day would take this long before coming to an end.

Laura is my two-year-old twin sister. Our height is the same, our bodies, fingers, and even our eyes colors are the same. And at the venue people couldn't find us apart, they kept addressing me as a bride, because my dear sister thought to buy the same dress. Breathing out I smile as she at least bought different colors. And other differences in our hair and way of living. Laura has short hair and she has very cheerful and cute personally when I'm opposite to her with long hair and a cold rude personality. . . .

But I was shocked when even our mother and father couldn't find us apart, Laura intelligence, was invalidated by asking us to get the same hairstyles, I wondered why she made us look alike when she wants herself to feel special and loveable, I sigh, knowing that it can be her deferent way of adoring herself.

I breathe in, knocking on her door. We went together to get ready but she still hadn't come back... "Laura, let's go it's getting late." I didn't hear her voice, but I heard something break. I don't know what... but the voice was loud enough to make me rush inside "Laura? I opened the door, walking in to see her lightning a fire, side of the room into the stele dustbin."What is it, Laura?" I asked, angrily yet in a calm voice." She turned, looking at me and her small chuckle as soon as she looked at me.

Finally you are here Lae. She said as she walked back to sitting on her dressing table, Close the door and help me to wear it. I looked at the side fire and back to Laura as she picked a necklace in her hand, ignoring that fire I walked to her grabbed it, and made her wear it. How does it look Lae? She asked as I looked in the mirror nodding my head and smiling a little. Nice? But the earrings? She looked at me pouting Lae could you please look for something matching for me? Please? I nod my head before I walk near the mirror box looking for one

She's acting weird today, what's the reason for that rude or whatever act she's doing, and that fire? Do I ask? .. It's none of my business. Right? I picked an earring I liked the most in the box, and before I could turn and show her, I noticed something falling out of her eyes, is she sad? or is she crying? I turned to ask before she tightened her fist looking back at me smiling, I looked back into the box avoiding her act and behavior when she spoke.

Do you remember the time when we were children Lae? I look at her side my eyes as she is acting all different from before. I do, and why do I not, they were so pleasant memories, weren't they? I answered sarcastically It will look good on you. I turned to hold the same earrings I was looking at before, turning I gave them to her as she sat on the hair-dressing chair looking at her wedding ring, she was probably asking me to make her wear them. You are lucky that today your, a special day girl I thought in my mind

Then you even remember when you were once crying to take my place. She said as I smile remembering the time when we were children and once, I was pissed at her, as she always orders me and forced me to obey her in games because she was older

Yeah, but that time I was a child and now you want to be like me, I said as she smiled too, I remember her words whenever we talked on the phone and how she always adored the way I lived freely, not minding the difference between living with family or alone, she said that she envied my life and that how I'm living alone far from them, makes her wonder how it would feel experiencing.

How did you recognize, was my acting this good? But I can do even better. She said as I looked at her realizing why she was acting all cold and weird. Does that mean I'm weird? HA HA HA nice joke, I'm not that weird Laura, I said smiling

I'm not joking Lae. I look at her confused as she looks down and there is silence for a moment as I laugh slowly walking towards the door

Take my place, become me, Lae. I looked at her confused as she turned grabbing my hands. Take my place Lae and become me for a day Lae. I smile seeing her act as always stupidly. When I tried pushing her hands she held them tightly. Do you remember when last I called you? How badly I was hurt and, you might remember what I asked from you. I was blank and could not understand what she was trying to say but her voice and the way she was looking at me made me scared and worried.

No, I do----

I asked, if you knew, that I was not our parent's real daughter. She yells angrily cutting my words in between as she holds me by my shoulders tightly When I finally look into her red and swollen eyes. Was she crying before I came? I thought in my mind but this does not matter now. Cause she is now taking it way too far, and it is not time for this kind of discussion.

And I answered I have nothing to tell you, didn't I? I said jerking her hand's side as I scoff smiling. What's wrong with you? I asked looking away at my fragile wrist which became red by her tight hold. You said nothing. Yeah, I remember you said nothing she said nothing. She said nothing. Right? She looked at me again, holding her head, as I just looked at her when she turned grabbing her hair in frustration. Then why did you lie to me Lae why??? She yelled repeating my words and laughing as she threw all the stuff on the floor breaking them, I tightened my fist holding my anger so as not to hurt her, she acted all manic today, but before I could say anything, I saw some broken glass pieces near her feet and, she was about to step on them.

Stop it, Laura!!! I yell at her as she's now gating on my nerves. This is the reason I never told you anything. Cause you are way too weak to bear them." I said looking into her her red yet teary eyes, as she looked at me with her hurt and blank face. The makeup she was wearing in her joyful movement, now making her face all black... And making me realize that the decision I took at that moment was right. "However does it do matter.? I asked as she turned to look at me I looked at her with an expressionless face

I can't believe, you showing all these tantrums over a hollow gone past. live what you have Laura Because this is how the world works people live what they have or what they have left with, you aren't an exception. I said as I turned to breathe, I never raised my voice at her, this is the first time, and I feel like it's breaking. Did your parents ever hurt you? I asked turning back and looking at her

Even If they, ever, but just remember, not more than me. Because you do not know everything, you know nothing. Nothing. How they hurt me, how they treated, me how they betrayed, me You know nothing. A drop of tear fell from my eyes but I ignored them trying hard to keep them to myself, my voice was harsh and I tried my best not to let her get over me. I turned not making eye contact with her, anymore.

Remembering the past is more painful, than, just imagining it, Laura, and I have lived them I have gone through everything when you were enjoying your childhood with your family. I have come because you asked. Not to become your family's part. I have no interest in becoming you or your sister anymore. I said gulping my tears down, before I breathed in, the last time I tightened my fist down angrily. ready to leave.

''I'm sorry Lae.'' I turned when her words stopped me. ''I didn't mean to hurt you But I made a huge mistake, and as long as I know this mistake doesn't owe any forgiveness." Her voice was trembling as she back hugged me tightly, I didn't say anything, because remembering the past always makes you remember all bad but good memories too. In my good memories, it was Laura and Victor, when this world had just given me a wound Laura had always become the medicine, and Victor was a painkiller. I want to help her, the way she has always done for me. "What do I do now?" She was shaking I could feel her trembling hands I held her hand to comfort her when her words jerked me...

"I'm pregnant Lae." She said leaving me, I widened my eyes and turned around shocked. "What if he knew about this all?" She started crying hard, and I tightened my fist...

"He?? Isn't it Vaein's child?" I asked as she shook her head I didn't know what to say, ask, or do, I want to help her, but can I help her? I was so messed up with questions. When I remembered about her parents. 'Cause her parents do,' I thought, holding her by the shoulders as she sobbed badly. "I made a huge mistake Lae." She said again, when I slapped her. "No!! it's not." I said angrily, Laura kept standing closing her eyes tightly. I don't know if Laura is a victim or a narcissist. As I hugged her. "And don't tell me this was the mistake you have been talking about? And if it was. Then it is not a mistake. And instead of telling me all of this Veain Davis should be one to know." I said parting away when she held my hand

"Everything is over, Lae if he knew about the child, he would kick me out of his house and if Mom and Dad knew, they would do the same. I can't live without them Lae. I know I'm not their child, but I love them so much even if they love me or not it doesn't matter anyway." She said when I looked at her angrily. "They would never, if it was the last option, even if Veain does."

"Perhaps, but why would they not, Lae? Didn't they leave you already? They left you when you were just a child." My voice stuck in my lungs as it made it hard for me to breathe. I don't know why but it still hurts to remember that time. Did she know about it? Nevertheless, this is the truth. "They left you when you were just a mere child then why would they not leave me when I can leave on my own? I'm not our parent's biological daughter anyway." I tighten my fist turning. "I'm not what Veain Davis and his family think, I'm not Williams's daughter, I'm not their blood, I no one." She said crying and I didn't know what to say. "It's enough!! you said a lot Laura rest won't be forgiven...." I said as she chuckle

"So you do agree, but you were the one who was taking their side now tell me, they still won't leave me?" She asked as I turned to clench my jaw, I remember that no one ever pissed me this much to make me act out of my character but her every word made me realize I was Indeed wrong... But arguing further will be stupidity, she is mature enough to make her own decisions.

"Then you do know what you have to do, after all, you have walked this far alone, I know you must have something... you are smart enough to do what you have to. After all, there is no use telling me all this, you might not know but you can either keep this child or live the way you want to. Without a child.

So are you ready for this, Laura? You simply have two options and either way this life won't be the option you have always imagined and won't be easy enough as the way it used to..." I said she asked.

"What?"

"Tell Vaein, his, and your parents everything and be ready for after the myth, and if this not... Then abort the child and live a life as a killer.''

"I love Jade so much that I can't live or imagine my life without him." I had just finished my word when she spoke... "I want my baby to live I want to tell him everything on my own I want to live my life with him. Live with someone I love. She said cherishing her belly, her face covered with a smile of joy and happiness, as she let the tears fall, weeping badly holding her stomach. "What would you have done, if you were in my shoes?" She asked as she looked up at me, I looked side of me rubbing my red wrist... there was silence for a movement.

I don't know, Laura, I remember my time with someone I love, and without him, there's nothing I can imagine, and as for imagining anything, I can't if I do not live that way. I can't just imagine anything when. I'm not you. We are opposite to each other. You do something and I do something else, you like something and I like something else. It doesn't make me like you, same as I can't feel what you are feeling, I don't know what I have done if I had been at your place. But after listening to everything you said I can simply guess. this marriage is not your choice but a compromise Moreover, I want to ask what caused you to agree to this marriage, the love you were talking about you never had was a lie after all.... Cause love doesn't make us vulnerable.

I don't even know why you married Veain Davis when you were deeply in love with your boyfriend, to even get pregnant. I'm saying this because I would never have agreed to marry other than Victor. I don't know what would I have done or said if I were at her place. But I want to live my life with someone I love, someone I promised to marry when I said goodbye and promised to come back no matter what.

"So even great Lae lies too." She said as she laughed... "But now I know Lae, either I kill my child or tell them everything this is what you want right? Either I live with my child or my family." She said as I looked at her. "I didn't say that Laura," I said as her words made me the wrong person here... "But what if I have one more option." She said as I looked at her when she held my hand making me look in her eyes. "You can read them, Right?" She asked tightening her fist over my arm. Take my place Lae. I looked at her blankly, was she serious about that from the start? And still want me to become like her and forget everything that I have left behind. Then my answer is simple...

"So you won't help me, Lae?" I turned as I opened the door, ignoring her question, her blabbering, her crying, her whine, and her.

"LAE!!!" I heard her shout turning as she was holding a broken glass piece in her hands. My eyes got widened "Laur-

"Please let Mom and Dad know that I chose my baby, I didn't leave my child's hand as they never left mine. You are right Lae this world is way too cruel, and I don't deserve to give my child false hope, I don't want it to see this cruel world where its father and mother live a different life in different places...." I stepped back to call someone hearing her voice, when she groaned in pain. Blood drooping on the floor as I stood there like a statue, everything happened so fast that I couldn't even blink. "It's ok, Lae. I am forgiving you, I won't blame you for my and my unborn child's death. So don't burden yourself with this. you said it's my deed to pay it, then be it. It's my life, I'll pay it with..."

"W-what you did Laura? I asked as my mind went blank, my voice was slow and I looked into her eyes and she smiled. I slowly walked to her, holding her wrist which was bleeding badly. I can't understand what to do as I tighten my hold on her wound preventing blood, but it's no use, as her blood runs between the gap of my fingers my heart beating so fast and tears fall as I am in my dreams helpless I can't do anything...

"What do I do?" I said to myself as I kept looking at her wound bleeding wrist. "Mom!! Dad!!" I scream when she covers my mouth. Don't call them, Lae. She said as she held my hand Why are you doing this Laura WHY!!! I yell angrily as she weeps slowly holding my hand tightly.

"C-Cause I want to live Lae...'' My heart sank hearing her words, it's the first thing we remember when we are arge of death, I remember the time I was begging for the same thing, and that time, no one could help me... "Save my c-child, Lae. I never wanted to die like this, take my place become Laura, please, Lae I beg of you. Not me, but you still can save our parents.... V-Vaein, he won't let things go t-this easily." She said with her half-closed eyes as I closed my burning eyes and tears fell.

If this is what you want then, 'Ill do Laura, I said as I let my tears fall, I remembered the moment I came here, Leaving Victor, I remember his eyes and the smile when I promised to get married as soon as I got back. I opened my eyes when I regretted my decision instantly.

But was it too late?

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Prologue

Wednesday, February 25, 2024

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