"Are You Fucking Kidding Me!" Carmella shouted out at me as I nimbly had to dodge her acrobatic kicks and spins.
"Carmen you already knew this was going to happen one way or another, besides that jackass intentionally went out to say he would go after my daughter!" I said only for her to jump at me, wrap her legs around my head, 'Is that Citrus?' I thought for a mere moment her crotch was in my face before she used her bodies weight and Spintrifical Force to launch me at her full strength into a wall head first.
This broke the wall as I sat there, could I have stopped her but letting her vent is best in this situation rather than fighting ba-
*Splish!*
*Hiss!* "Really? I think this is a bit much even for yOU!" I groan out as she dug her angelic steel heels deeper into my gut, it honestly didn't hurt that much but putting on an act is better than not caring for anything she's doing.
"Stop talking, you know how much danger you put our kids in by pulling that stunt of yours? Don't you realize-" She says while I grabbed her ankle and pulled her heel out of my gut.
"You think I did this on a whim? You think waltzing into heaven to break that stupid fucking contract on my soul wasn't something I had desired gone more than anything? To make them pay for what they did to me and every other undeserving sinner sent down here to hell only to be pigs to the slaughter once a year?" I said pushing her back with a grim look on my face.
"I will do everything in my power to keep the ones I love safe from harm, that includes you and our Daughters, with heaven and the exterminations gone then we wouldn't have to ever worry about them ever again and we can just live together in peace for the rest of eternity, I'm not just doing this for myself but for you, for them and for all of the sinners here in hell, am I a good person? Not even remotely, I only care about my family and the world I live in, so long as you and everyone else is safe it doesn't matter what lengths I will go to keep it that way…." I said to her before I sighed as I looked into her eyes and could see she didn't buy everything I said and I know I wasn't being completely honest with her either.
I knew more than anything it was my selfish desire and vengeance, it has consumed me for millions of years, if I just gave it up and forgave them so easily then why did I go out of my way to gain so much strength to avenge them.
'That thing is…. Using you…. Cain…. You must…. See that….' I could faintly hear the voice of that lost soul within my body talking to me once more.
I knew what he was saying but I didn't acknowledge it as my wounds sealed up, "When the day comes I will keep my new family safe, you desire to stay out of this battle and I will make it so…." I say standing before her and holding her hands while rubbing my thumb over the top of them.
"Just please, I won't be able to live with myself if I stop here, not only that but my daughter, hell I guess your step daughter by proxy, will stay behind to fight for her dream and if she really believes in this dream of hers after all of it is said and done along with those at her side desire to see her dream come true then I will let heaven be on the condition I make that bitch pay the ultimate price…." Hearing that she looked conflicted before she pulled her hands away and turned around from me.
"I need to think this over, but make no mistake that my daughters take priority for their safety…. But that does make her my daughter as well I guess…. Leave me be, I need to think about things…." She said before she began to walk away and I could only sigh before I listened to her words and left her manor.
It didn't feel particularly good being kicked out of my wife-to-be's home and if I didn't care I would have stayed and maybe would have even put her in her place.
'That's what…. Makes you…. Human….' The lost soul of Johnny could still be heard in my head as he could quite literally read me like a book.
'You are not….. Pure Evil Cain…..' he said to me as I looked up into the blood red sky with Heaven way up above, shining like a star.
'I know.' Think to myself before sinking into the darkness and reappearing under the dark and rainy sky's of Lust, standing up atop my tower as the rain washed over me.
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"Love…. I hate them so much for what they did to you and our children, sending you all down here to a place where you truly don't belong…." I said as I laid my head upon her lap while we rested within the beauty of the open pastures of Wrath with nothing but long grass surrounding us for miles on end.
"I know my love…. What they did to our children was awful, but I am happy that we could still be a family once more all over again even in this new life of ours." She said while running her fingers through my long shaggy hair.
"... Would you hate me if I said I wished for nothing more than to destroy them for what they did to all of us? And that if I was given the chance to I would do so?" I said and she stopped running her fingers through her hair.
"That is up to you my love, but if you can't ever achieve it I hope one day you can move on from it and live this life for yourself and not for revenge." She said caressing my cheek while I placed my hand over hers.
"And if…. Something were to happen to you and our children I-" But she stopped me by placing her finger to my lips.
"But you know the answer to that question already don't you?" She said with a gentle smile but then something changed, I could smell the scent of blood, my wife now was headless before me, and my children slaughtered.
"KILL THEM ALL! AVENGE US AND MAKE THEM PAY FOR RUINING OUR LIVES!!!" The voices shouted out in my mind as hatred and anger began to consume me.
*Drip* suddenly what appeared to be a golden drop of water fell upon this memory and removed the distortion on it, clearing it of the lies that were burned on it.
"You may never forgive them, you might not be able to forgive yourself for letting such a terrible fate befall us all, but you must know-"
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'You need…. To forgive yourself…. And finally…. Let them go….' He said to me as I reminisced on my past and what she truly wanted back then.
Something I realize now was morphed into something else while I stared up into the sky before I began to sing.
"Lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody for my own
I am so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
Wish I had someone to call on the phone
Now I'm a soldier, a lonely soldier
Away from home through no wish of my own
That's why I'm lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I wish that I could go back home
Letters, never a letter
I get no letters in the mail
I've been forgotten, yes, forgotten
Oh, how I wonder, how is it I failed
Now I'm a soldier, a lonely soldier
Away from home through no wish of my own
That's why I'm lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I wish that I could go back home"
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Hearing me ask that question Awan just cutely laughed at that, "That is for you to decide my love, but know this, I would never wish for you to be consumed by vengeance, me nor our children would want to see that."
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'Live the life you truly wish for yourself and when and if the time comes that one day you can move on and find true happiness.' I could finally hear those words clearly after having time to actually think about it and realize that she inadvertently made a mistake.
'Do not…. Trust it…. Pure Evil…. Will never be an Ally…..' He said to which I chuckled sadly.
"You know, for a half dead soul your pretty smart when it comes to these things…." It almost felt like something of Providence was talking to me through him.
"….. Heh, I get it now, so you are watching me Old Man….." I say while I look in the general direction of heaven in particular as I feel someone looking back at me.
"Trying to make up for all of this lost time and the mistakes of your children? Well I hope for both of our sakes my daughter doesn't give up on heaven like I did, but the fact still stands, your favored daughter will still pay the price." And that wasn't something I was willing to negotiate with him of all people.
The eyes I felt staring at me from such a long distance slowly close with no hostility to them whatsoever, 'What Will Happen, Will Happen and What Won't Happen, Will Never Happen, if she is to pay the price then so be it….' I heard a deep rumbling voice reverberating within my mind as I pulled out a cigar and flicked my fingers like a lighter before inhaling and taking a deep puff as I sighed.
"Looks like I should actually be getting ready for what will happen huh?…."
So a knife in the back is all I can expect by the end of this.
So then, what's the best way to deal with a snake like that?