In the end, the one who truly killed Gu Hangshen was herself.
She had always resented Gu Hangshen's reserved silence and lack of romance, but what about herself? Hadn't she given up trying just because she was afraid of getting hurt, even dragging others down with her?
If she had firmly believed in him and stayed by his side no matter how much he pushed her away, would today's situation be different?
At least, she wouldn't have the same regrets as she does now!
But from beginning to end, she had always been suspicious, always wavering...
Ever since Gu Hangshen's death, she felt as if she was going insane. If she were thinking normally, she should continually tell herself it wasn't her fault, that it was Gu Hangshen who didn't trust her, who was unwilling to confront things together.
On the surface, she indeed told everyone exactly that and seemed very strong.
But in reality, she torturously blamed herself for everything, replaying those possibilities over and over.
