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She hated Song Xiufeng for never coming back, yet she never hated her own child.
No matter what had passed between her and Song Xiufeng, their child was indeed the crystallization of their once-love; his arrival should have been anticipated, not destroyed. If she didn't want him, if she cared about the gossip, she would have aborted the child in the Capital, not returning home pregnant seeking her parents' help.
Who would have known that instead of receiving the help she imagined, she ended up estranged from her parents and siblings, and the child wasn't saved either.
She didn't know whether to be grateful for her mother's care before and after the birth, or to hate her for deciding to separate mother and daughter.
