I didn't even need to work to fill my death note with all the names of the disgraceful mundane humans my girl ever got involved with. I only had to pass by her room and overhear her girl talk with Abigail and Daniel, and that was it. I've never felt so consumed by anger and jealousy.
1. Grégory LeBeau Hayami
2. Haruto Kitabayashi
3. Corrado Campedelli
4. Desdemona Nerine Kontogouri
5. Drago Srećković
6. Edgar Noir
7. Lia Lambrechts
8. Stela Chinezu
9. Yoshiyuki Iijima
10. Hideki Yoshizawa
11. Zinovy Slutsky
12. Emilia Gamberini
13. Kanetsugu Nabatame
14. Ramsy Cunningham
15. Jahaan Kirmani
16. Daisy Thomas
17. Konomi Hayashida
18. Amane Kurosawa
19. Marcos Paulo Serrano
20. Mie Van der Velden
21. Isabella Walker
22. Matthias Hauet
23. Kazuma Domori
24. Shantia Ghaznavi
25. Dalila Morano
26. Xiaosheng Mo
27. Saya Gushiken
28. Vicente Eizaguirre
29. Milan Šoškić
30. Elijah Farrell
31. Francis De Ridder
32. Camille Carpentier
33. Silvija Crankier
At first I thought I would only need to deal with four people, her exes which I already knew the name off, but now? Now that I heard her, Yeji herself, talking about how she fucked those mundane pieces of shit? I won't be able to let any of those scumbags live, definitely not the man she claimed to have been a God in bed, when he wasn't even bigger than her small forearm, or the teacher, that pedophile fucker who spent weeks with my girl, dirtying her body with his disgusting cock, when she was a minor.
Most of them are pedophiles, to be with a minor when they were all so much older than her, I'll never let that pass.
It's understandable for a girl who grew up without a father and with a problematic mother, to be attracted to older people, but it's disgusting that those people were attracted to a girl much younger than them.
I'm a feminist, I believe in equality of gender, I'll kill them all the same, be it females or males or whatever they consider themselves.
If they touched my girl, they can consider themselves dead. I don't give a shit if I wasn't on her life before, if she was just enjoying herself and manipulating them to believe she was older and someone else entirely, I can understand her, and I even feel glad that she can manipulate people like that, but the fact that they touched her makes me want to go ballistic.
I warned her, that I am fine with violence, with killing, and I am. I am a killer, I've killed before, and I'll kill again. Never innocents, but none of those pedophiles are innocents, and the less than few ones who were almost her age will die just because I cannot stand the thought of them being alive after fucking her. After touching her before I did.
And I don't care if she gets mad, because I'm madder.
I didn't even stay listening after she mentioned all the people she has ever been with, I got so fucking blindly enraged that left the penthouse and ran down the stairs until I got to the magical training grounds, where I released an explosion of lightning so strong the walls shook a bit, though they remained intact given the strong barrier magic around it. But it was strong enough for zio Silas to and otou-san to feel it because they came straight to the training ground to find me.
"What happened, Dai?" They gasped at the same time, finding me still shaking with anger and bloodlust, my shirt reaped to pieces with the explosion of my power.
They quickly closed the door and used their power to isolate even more the floor, as if scared another outburst from me would tear it all down, which wouldn't be surprising. "What made you so angry?" Otou-san asked.
Clenching my jaw, I closed my eyes, trying to control myself not to explode on them, "I think this is what you call jealousy," I said bitterly, angered, my voice a raspy ghost of what it normally sounds like.
Zio's body relaxed, "What did Aleena say to get you like this?"
"I thought she was with Abby and her uncle, I saw them going in her bedroom briefly," otou-san folded his arms.
"I… I overhead her talking with them," I clenched my fists, "about all the people she has even been with. Abby asked the names and age, and she mention all of them, mostly with a huge age gap, and when she was still a bloody fucking minor," using my ability, I controlled the sand bag at the corner to float to me, only to destroy it with a hard punch that exploded the bag and made a the sand spread down.
"What does… what does that make you feel?" Zio asked carefully.
"I want to kill them, to kill of them, painfully, slowly," I hissed, not able to hold my anger from my voice. "I want to make them suffer." My elemental power travelled through my entire body, trying to break free one more time, begging to destroy something, to toast someone, to kill them. "It's consuming me, and I don't think I'll able to hold my desire to kill all of them. I don't want to hold back."
"And the crone was right once again," otou-san chanted amused and there was no not glaring at him. "I mean, your state proves it, Dai. The crone said that-"
"I remember what that baba said, otou-san," my voice was a low hiss. "I knew she was right the second my eyes met Yeji's before she almost drowned to fucking death in that pool. That freak baba haunts my dreams until this day," though she's the least of my nightmares. "Her being zio's oldest daughter only proves it, but it only makes it worse. What am I to did with this…" I struggled to even gesture about it, "gut-wrenching jealousy that's been consuming me, that's been making my magic crave for blood?"
"I almost busted inside the penthouse," I gasped. "It's hard enough to control my powers when I lock my emotions in the confines of my mind, now that I'm unable to do that regarding Yeji because…. of that, what I am I supposed to do? I'm supposed to be the chill senior who has all of his abilities in check, grades on top, and does what he wants like a troublemaker as everyone already take me for. I'll have to be able to help her handle her destructive abilities, when I'm struggling to do that with my own. We'll be catastrophic together."
"Exactly what we need to destroy the MPF," otou-san pointed. "I am sure you will sort that out, you are the only one we can count on to do this, to help and tutor her, to watch over her, because she won't be able to harm you even if she explodes everything around. You are the only one who will be able to take her blasts of power when she starts training after we get her awaken, Dai."
"For that, I'll need to chill out, but I am having quite strong feelings for her, and I don't think I'll be able to chill the fuck out even if I try," I yelled exasperated. "This is consuming my fucking soul, I'm not used to feeling… anything this strong, for anyone, how am I supposed to deal with this with a chill mind? Jesus, I might loose my fucking shit if I see her even close to flirting to anybody in Valhalla. If she doesn't end up destroying the training camp when she awakens, I fear I'll end up doing that, if I have to run to it every time I feel this jealous."
"Do the same to her," otou-san grinned. "This is two-sided, Dai. You may be feeling all of this alone now, because you know what is it, but she will come to feel the same. When she makes you feel jealous, go and make her feel the same."
"Let's just hope my daughter won't go arsonist mode on whoever he makes her feel jealous with," zio chuckled. "Though she'll probably only act so openly on her jealousy when she accept what she feels. And I think that will take a while, not just because she might still be hurt by her ex, but because if she definitely looks like someone prideful."
"Hah, I confess it would feel good to see her jealous because of me, to see her angry because I close to someone other than her," and I feel like taking her when we're both angry will be the best thing that I'll ever feel in a physical level, I might get addicted, but only if I make her be as addicted to me as I know in my bones I'll be to her. "The tower leaders better level up the strength of the barrier magic around Valhalla," I warned them, "that is, if you expect the school to hold both me and your daughter inside it."
Side-eying the walls of the training room, they shared a worried gaze and then back to me, "I think we should do that ourselves," zio sighed. "My shadows with your telekinesis will make it stronger, and we are both stronger than the tower wardens alone, together even more. Let's not let our children accidentally kill all the kids in there."
Otou-san nodded, "Alright, we'll drop by the Academy on Friday."
"Now, you go up, take a cold bath to call down your stress, and go get ready," zio told me. "Go back to the academy before you kill all of us."
Clenching my jaw, I nodded and left them there. Still angry but now feeling considerably better, enough to hold back my bloodlust.
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Everything was going perfect until ahjussi fucked my mood up. I thought he was on my side when I heard him whispering to her, for to take me to bed, but then he had to come and remind me of the men she slept with. Those pedophiles who preyed on her.
What the hell was he thinking? Trying to make me jealous? Well, I am jealous, but I'm angrier.
Not at her at all, or at him, but at the dudes like the resigned MIT professor, who was older than twice her age and preyed on her when she fifteen, which makes it even worse. It reminded me that the pedophiles in question are still alive, probably preying on other young girls with daddy issues. Had she been her current age, it would be different, I would still kill them, but for different reasons this time.
I stayed silent because had I opened my mouth, bitter words would come out, and I don't to throw that on her. She would probably get annoyed and yell at me that I have no reason to be angry, bitter, or jealous, that she's a grown woman who can be with whoever she wants and owns me no ounce of explanations. All because she hasn't felt it yet, she hasn't realize how entangled we actually are, and that's okay, she's new to our world, to all of this, and hasn't awakened yet.
Sure, I'm normally a brute asshole, but I don't want to be that with her, because that's not how I truly am, it's just how I make people believe I am because it's easier than letting them in. And I want to let her in.
Do I know how to do that? Uh… no. But I'll learn it. I'll try.
Yeah, the fact that she has been with other people like that, and that they were all stupid mundanes does sting, a lot, and even hurt, because had it not been for her mother falling those damn stairs and losing her damn memories, she would have been here, she would have grown up with me, she would know she's mine and be with me instead of them.
Maybe… maybe if she had been here the whole time, I wouldn't have gone through what I did as a kid. Maybe I wouldn't have broken like I did, I wouldn't have been… through that. Had I not been through that, I wouldn't have to hide half of what I'm able to go, I wouldn't have to fake being put together. Maybe, if she had come into my life earlier, none of us would have been so fucked up, because we would have had each other.
But those thoughts are useless, they won't change anything, I can't change the future, I don't have time magic. I can only deal with the present, with how things turned out to be, with how broken and traumatized we both are, and try to find away that we could try healing each other. But for that to work, she needs to realize what she is for me, and for that, she needs to know connections like this exist, and accept it.
Now, that, will definitely take time, but I'll be patient for her.
Besides, if I were to yell at her for being with other people, like my body wants me to do because jealousy is corrosively trying to take the best of me, I would be a hypocrite, since I too have been with other people. All neathers though, all casual, because like her, I do like sex a lot, and worse than her case, while I won't have to see those fuckers who touched her, the girls I've been with are all in Valhalla.
That will certainly be annoying.