"Then, I will give you that 'another chance'…"
I heard those words of God and I did not trust my ears. I thought I made a mistake in listening. Even though what God said might be ambiguous, only one idea struck my mind, which was If I could get another chance, then I would do anything to get it.
Without wasting a second to guess, I sprinted to god, fell at his feet, and started beseeching him. I prostrated and rubbed my nose against the floor. I asked him-
"God, if you can give me just one chance to correct my mistakes, then I will risk anything to attain that chance, I don't want to regret the way I lived for eternity. Please, please, please…(I screamed while sobbing)"
God held me by my shoulders and lifted me up and then I knelt looking up at his radiant face. God caught my tears with his three tender fingers and rubbed them on my forehead with a pure smile. He then chanted a shloka-
"|| Tayata Om, Bekandze Bekandze, Maha Bekandze, Radza Samudgate Soha ||"
And suddenly a flow of positive energy ran throughout my body. I felt as if someone had lifted tons of weight off my soul. I found that my tears stopped coming down and the regret which was devouring my soul was satisfied. I was feeling only one thing, and that was the fire to achieve my dream of making as many people as I could happy.
"Forgive my insolence, my lord. I jumped on your feet without your permission and brushed you with these two vicious hands. I will gladly accept your 'Divine Judgment' of the retrial." I asserted as soon as I regained my senses and calmed down by God's blessing. Also, I backed up to maintain a distance between me and god and knelt. It's another thing that I got to feel the radiance of god and even god blessed me by touching me. I couldn't be more elated.
"You're correct. I should pass the 'Divine Judgment' that I thought of after hearing your three responses. You said you would risk anything to attain that another chance and also from your perspective, reincarnating one's soul in the human world is also a kind of punishment right?"
"I'm afraid that those are my words indeed, and I am up for any punishment for that."
"Well then, I pass the 'Divine Judgment' you,the Soul of Amit, will be reincarnated in the human world once again as a punishment."( God began to chuckle again)
"How is that a punishment for me, my lord? For me, it's a blessing in disguise." I argued humbly.
"Well, if I were to use your words, then I would say that it's a matter of perspective, right? For me, I'm reincarnating you as a punishment, but for you, I'm bestowing upon you that precious 'another chance' you longed for, isn't it? Hahaha, who said that 'Divine judgment' always means a punishment? 'Divine judgment' means giving a soul something it deserves. And I know that you deserve this 'another chance', so you will get what you deserve."
"As your will, my lord." I am currently responding calmly because of that blessing god gave me.
"Then I shall explain something regarding your next life, first of all, you will forget everything about your past life and even our encounter here.
Second, the world in which you will be reincarnated will not be equivalent to your previous globe."
"Dear god, I apologize for being presumptuous, but I must ask you to do something so that I can retain my memory of past life because my memories are the essence of my soul. Without them, I would be a completely different person. I wanted to forsake this memory of when I was alive. But I currently apprehend that without my experiences of the past, I won't be able to be my true self in my next life. And I don't want that. I want to atone for everything and achieve what I want retaining my true self. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes. The memories I have will guide me on how to avoid walking the path again. So, please accept my plea."
"I understand what you are trying to convey. There is a point in what you are saying. 'You won't be able to atone if you never acknowledge your sins, and for that, you will have to remember your sins'. Then I shall give you the privilege of retaining your memories of your past experiences but for that, you will have to sacrifice something. You know very well, that 'To achieve something you will have to give up on something', don't you?"
"I do agree with that, my lord. I am ready to sacrifice anything to retain my true self. But what should I give up on?" I asked in confusion.
"You will have to think of something very peculiar and rare thing you always longed for in your past life. It may be an abstract or material thing. Only that way the trade will be fair."
So my child, prove to me that what I did adumbrate was correct. Prove me that you can be that… Don't let my hopes down. I trust you and you will have to live up to my hope.[These are god's inner thoughts]
"In my past life, there was something that I always asked and longed for. It was something powerful enough to change my life. But I never was blessed with it. I lived every day of my life thinking that, one day, someday I would get it. Due to this belief, I never worked hard. But after I got blessed by your radiance, I realized that what I always wanted, was something that I could have achieved by sheer hard work. So I would like to give up on the so-called 'goodluck' because I am convinced now that if I work hard, then even god itself wouldn't have the right to deprive me of something that I deserve."
I wasn't wrong about you, my child. I'm glad that I chose and believed you. Now, even I'm convinced that you are capable of being that…
"Are you sure about giving up on your good luck? You won't regret your decision again? If you are fine with it I am willing to allow you to retain your memory."
"I'm more sure than I ever was. I won't ever regret my decision, since regret will make me doubt my true self."
"Then you will have to promise me three things. And you are not obligated to accept these promises. It is something that I'm asking of you. It would be fine even if you deny it."
"I'm willing to do anything for you, God. Even if I gave you my everything I won't be able to return your favour. So it's the least I can do for you, my lord."
"Then promise me that, you will never blame anyone for your circumstances even god. Second, no matter how hard you suffer or anything, you will never suicide again. Third, you will not try hard to remember this experience. You will try to forget as much as you can and will never imitate the 'mantras' and 'mudras' that I will use."
"My lord, I can apprehend your first two conditions but I'm not sure about the third one. I mean, what are 'mantras' and 'mudras'? And why I should try to forget about this as much as I can?"
"You will understand what does 'mantras' and 'mudras' mean, in your next life. So don't ponder hard. Just promise me, won't you?"
"Pardon my impertinence, for doubting you. And I accept all of your conditions."
"No, not like this. You will have to swear on the name of 'Prakrutik Pustaka' or the 'Natural Book'.
After saying that, god closed one of his eyes and put forward his left hand as he was chanting the following 'shloka'-
"|| Vidyāṃ cāvidyāṃ ca yastadvedobhya Saha | Avidyayā mṛtyuṃ tīrtvā'mṛtamaśnute ||"
After he finished chanting the above shloka, a book appeared or rather I should say 'A Divine Book' appeared in that hand he put forward. He sent the book to me and then said,
"This is the 'Prakrutik Pustak', and you don't need to know any much more than this now. So just put your hand on it and swear that you will abide by my conditions."
I hope that 'Prakrutik Pustak' accepts his soul and proves that he is eligible to be that…
The "Prakrutik Pustak" was glowing when it appeared in the hand of god. But now when it is in front of me, that golden glow that made it look like the most valuable treasure in the universe was gone. It now was looking akin to an old dusted book.
I thought it was because of the god's brilliance. But just after I completed reciting my oath by placing my hand on it, it regained the glow it had. I looked at god and asked him" What is this, my lord?"
"No need to worry, it just accepted your oath and confirmed with your soul that you will abide by the conditions. I'm glad."
Yes, I'm truly glad.
As soon as I removed my hand from the book, it disappeared again. I wonder why.
"Now since you have taken the oath, the only thing that remains before reincarnating you is the depletion of the good luck within you on which we agreed, didn't we?"
"Yes, we did. And I'm prepared for that."
Once again god started doing something. This time he closed both of his eyes and placed his right hand on his heart. And recited,
|| "Avirti, Avirtimukh, Avurtimukham" ||
Once he unlocked his eyes, a mythological creature appeared out of nowhere. His physical structure was intimidating, one can say that it looked like a body-less face, and its face was grotesque and fierce. Its mouth was wide open and it had sharp teeth which were akin to large menacing fangs. The bulging eyes were emitting prominent and intense gaze. His face was colored red and black.
However, despite that, I was able to sense a pure aura from him, which assured me that he was not a monster, but more like a 'Divine Creature'.
God introduced it to me, "This being here is not a monster, so don't be afraid. It is something you don't need to know about yet. Just think of it as a part of me. So I will only tell you that this is 'Avirtimukh' and I summoned it here to drain whatever good luck you will be having in your next life."
God told Avirtimukh to drain my good luck and upon hearing his demand, Avurtimukh diverted its gaze toward me and closed its wide-open jaws, and after some time he opened them again.
God said," Your job is done, now you may leave." And 'Avirtimukh' disappeared.
I didn't feel any change in my body, so I asked god "Has the operation been accomplished?"
He answered, "Yes it's completed and now I will reincarnate you in a new world."
As soon as he said that, he reduced the distance between us and positioned his left hand on my head and his right one on my heart, and again he vocalized another shloka which was-
|| "Tvameva mam punarjanmani jivanti" ||
And before Amit could realize it, his soul was sent to the material world once again, by certain 'mantra' and 'mudra' used by the God-like being.
The God-like being said, "You are still here, 'Avirtimukh', I think I told you to leave."
Avirtimukh suddenly reappears in front of the God-like being and asks him "Are you sure, Vishva? Do you really think that this child has the potential to become that? And if you do, then why did you decide to take such a harsh decision? You made me drain his all good luck and now his good luck percentage is 0, how he could survive in a world where good luck percentage is considered as a god, with 0% of the percentage of good luck? The people down there, after some years, will consider him as the reincarnation of a devil. The most important thing is, what if he tells others about this place? What if he tries to imitate your 'mantras' and 'mudras'?You know, what can happen if he does, very well, right?"
"Are you done talking, Avirtimukha? I have a strong belief that he, who doesn't have an ounce of 'dark emotions' in his heart, will be able to become that…
I even made him take an oath not to disclose what he had experienced here and also I told him to try to forget about this place as much as I could. I strictly warned him not to imitate the 'mantras' and 'mudras' I used.
You know what, even the 'Prakrutik Pustak' accepted his soul and his oath. And as for the struggles he will face, I'm sure that he will face them bravely. He has promised me. And if broke his promise, then I would acknowledge I was wrong about him. But, currently, I believe that he is one of the very people, who can become that…,
I want to believe that he will become that.., The 'Tathya Sadhu' and show the world the 'Satya Marga of Sadhu'. Vishva answered 'Avirtimukh' by turning his back on 'Avirtimukh'.
After finishing his response, Vishva leaves, and Avirtimukh also disappears. As for Amit's soul, it has already been reincarnated in the world and era of 'Sadhus' where people are divided based on the percentage of Good luck they have. Since Amit sacrificed all his good luck to retain his memories and to be his true self, he has now been born with 0 percentage of good luck. People will consider him as the reincarnation of the devil.
How will he survive in such a cruel and heartless world? In which way his 100% bad luck will affect him and the others around him? Will he be able to overcome his fate through sheer hard work and resolve? Will he find people whom he can love and people who will love him? Will he succeed in finding the 'Lakshya' or 'Aim' of his life? And will he live up to the expectations of his God, Vishva?