The private informative journal of Garrett Queen talked little of how Jess Queen had thought at all, but could show interactions between the brothers, and apart from that, was precious because it was written by Queen's brother.
The first entry in the notebook—which Angel noted was written in ink and woven onto the page at the same time, a feat difficult to do by even the best of spellweavers; Jess wasn't the only spellweaver in the Queen family of the generation, merely that his seemingly impossible actions out-shadowed those of his brother—started with no date, nor any words, but rather a tally of ten. It could not be viewed further, and lay completely flat on the page
Informative Self-Assessment Page I : To a summons, Garrett Queen frater Jess Queen, the first entry of the ___ book.
I am writing this because it went wrong, and to prove ___. The All-Seer said that I am precious—alas, for how long? If not for the worth of Jess, and the worth of me, also, I doubt that I would remain ___. I truly wish to find the answer, and Pray to Justice that I find it.
Otherwise, we shall all be ___, which I truly do not want. After all, do prophets have no right? No saying nor opinion on what it is that they were born for; their sole purpose in life to deliver and die, none the wiser as to their life?
It is impossible to defy your fate, nor what cannot be changed. You could try, of course you could try, and I believe you really would—only ___!
Some most ignorant, even in the Church, tell me that we are all born equal, and that one's fate and destiny in life and death are decided by the actions one takes, rather than being decided. They are right, of course, in that your actions are decided by you; you are no puppet of anyone else. However, that is not the same as to defy your fate.
The Great Three give you a role, wind up you like a toy, then set you free. The steps you take are yours, ___ they are, ___ you didn't decide to take them. You made the choice to do the action, of course ___ did, but you made no choice as to wether you would do the action. Essentially, the Three, or rather, the Second, decided that you would take an action, and you made the choice to do the action.
However, you are no puppet. Puppets have to be controlled—without ___ action, they are useless and do nothing. Wonder at that. No, you are something set in Stone. Your destiny, your fate, all your decisions were not made by you.
I am tired now. I ___ I shall rest.
Then the first entry went blank.
Angel was a bit startled at what he had read, although not exactly believing. After all, from Garrett Queen's way of writing, he sounded quite eccentric, although convincing. Much of Garrett Queen's later part of the entry was talking of fate, something Hou'yi had similarly mentioned during his conversation with Vinculorum.
Parts of Garrett's first entry had the words torn out, and many parts seemingly insignificant, making Angel wonder as to why anyone would tear them out.
Although weaving the Thread of Eternity into the inked words was a difficult feat, tearing the words out would not be difficult at all, and since the ink and naturally molded together with the thread, tearing off the entire page was not needed to make the information on it disappear.
However, since the entry had been woven several hundred years ago, it would be harder to locate the thread, which could explain how, accidentally, the person who wished to destroy certain parts of the text destroyed meaningless words like 'but' or 'any'.
Angel took up his own pen and started to write on his own notebook, also briefly mentioning the tally marks he had seen.
And then he turned to the next entry and started to read.
Informative Self-Assessment Page II : To ___ summons, Garrett Queen frater Jess Queen, the second entry of the third book
Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, ___, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen, Garrett Queen…
The rest of the entry was consisted of solely the name Garrett Queen, with some spaces where the text had been torn out.
Angel flipped through the pages, confirming that destroyed wording was spread through the entire journal, before going back to the second entry—which started with no tally marks—and starting to write on his own notebook.
While destroying threads woven centuries ago was a simple but extremely destructive task, causing the destroyer to possible destroy multiple woven words across an area, it was not to the degree of possibly causing plentiful amounts of threads across a wide span of pages to also become destroyed as a result, since the spellweaver wove the letters in each entry separate to one another. Threads across a page or entry could be destroyed along with the desired selection of letters, since they all shared a common factor: the page on which they were written, which was the foundation for the spellweaver to weave letters onto, or the entry—a select time period of which all words were connected together, since their compatibility with each other were high, causing one destroyed thread to cause to the loosening of another.
Because of this newfound fact, whom Angel had previously thought wished to destroy a certain part of the writing, did in fact wish to destroy a large part of the writing, and not specifically that of the entry of the first page.
If Angel's hypothesis was correct, then the destroyer actually wished to destroy the entire thread-work of the journal of the brother of Jess Queen, and not just certain parts of it. After all, mass destruction would surely not be applied to an entire documenting and informative piece of writing such as the journal of Garrett Queen.
Unless, of course, the destroyer was masking the thread they wished to make disappear by destroying a large part of the rest of the journal, making meaningless and useful words disappear along with it.
This was also possible since the spellweaver could simply try and destroy the journal as a whole, a feat far more difficult to achieve than merely destroying certain threads of particular pages or entries, since while attempting to destroy the threads of the journal as a whole, one could easily accidentally pick up on the weave-work of the journal itself, rendering the attempt useless, but certain words and threads destroyed as a result.
Angel noted this, writing this down, with a short question wondering where the first two books were, as well as a brief note wondering if Garrett Queen was entirely sane, since from what he new from textbooks and readings upon the life of Jess Queen, repeatedly writing one's name over and over on a page was not something Stone-Dwellers did everyday or, even once in a while as a form of exercise.