As soon as I closed the door I collapsed on it and sat on the floor.
'Why I say that?'
I gripped my hair tightly as she tried to push the thoughts of shame from my mind.
I spent a few minutes sitting on the floor, only to be able to struggle to my feet and get back into bed.
My legs were burning with pain, the sensation was something similar to being burned with hot water and although it is not as painful as being burned directly by fire it was still painful.
Trying to ignore the growing pain I exchanged it for another pain, emotional pain.
The concept of shame is hard to describe when you're referring to yourself, but it was the same damn feeling when I had just thought about the stupid thing I had done.
'Why did I lie like that?'
'I didn't do it for her in the first place, I did it for my dream.'
'Why the hell did I say I did it for her? Now I am no different from the nobles who approached her offering to hunt a great beast in her honor.'
'Damn I'm like Elric now.'
Elric Aldrand is someone that I personally detest unjustifiably, I know it and I keep it in mind, he is the second son of Arthor Aldrand who is the only Sage Auric of the alliance, his father together with Count Vendrick and his first son make up the general strength of the entire alliance. The alliance.
It's because I've never shown my hatred either, maybe I do stupid things sometimes but I'm definitely not an idiot.
I know that although Elric also comes from a barony he has the 3 highest status in the alliance, but I still can't stop hating him.
Since we were little he always followed Carmina wherever she went, only this time was the exception and he was not at the meeting.
Realizing this was a hard blow to my ego, it served to distract me from the pain that was slowly disappearing.
The pain began to be light enough to be able to sleep.
Before I could continue slicing my head with useless thoughts, I began to fall asleep.
Entering the dream world, I suddenly saw myself with a completely bloody sword on my chest.
'what the hell?'
I thought while looking at the handle of the sword that pierced the chest.
'It has to be it, this just hurts a little.'
I looked up from my chest and saw what looked like a generic soldier in mail armor.
As I looked around I realized that he found me in the middle of what appeared to be a full scale war.
I tried to dislodge the embedded sword only for the human soldier to glare at me and continue pushing it hard.
"I hate you."
The soldier spat in my face.
I continued my attempts to remove the sword, but the soldier continued to bear his weight, pushing me further and further towards the ground.
'Why is he so strong?'
The situation continued for a few minutes before I realized that I had a compartment in my armor where I had a dagger.
Without any other option, he took out the hidden dagger and stuck it in the soldier's neck.
Before they could see the soldier's blood escape from his windpipe the world began to turn dark, the war-desolate environment began to disappear.
The soldier in front of me vanished into a pile of particles, without any further force I fell to the ground that had also disappeared, leaving me leaning on an infinite motionless void.
I closed my eyes leaving behind the infinite emptiness.
"Young master, young master wake up"
They listened to my ears before opening my eyes. When I opened them I saw Hans shaking my chest to wake me up.
Hans smiled and offered his hand as support so I could sit on the stretcher.
Hesitating a little, I took his supporting hand and adjusted the pillows so I could sit down.
"Well, what are you doing here?"
"I came to look for you to take the young master Rohan registration exam."
'I forgot it was today'
"I don't think I can, look at my condition, I don't think I can pass the exam in this state"
"Actually I think he can, he just has to show that he is an aura user and he will be able to skip it"
'Wait how do you know I'm already an aura user?'
"My sister told you that I became an aura user?"
I looked questioningly at Hans waiting for some confirmation.
"Actually I found out from Miss Carmina, I arrived about 4 hours ago and I found her leaving with a pale face, she told me her location and how to get here."
'did you wait for me for 4 hours? I'll definitely tell my dad to give you a raise.'
"I understand, but I don't have clothes to wear."
I spoke, trying every option to avoid taking the exam; if I couldn't avoid it somehow and passed, I would be condemned to be an aristocrat for my entire life.
"I don't know, worry, I have some new shoes and clothes for you so you can change."
I stayed silent for a few seconds and grabbed my nose to show my tiredness.
"Please leave your clothes and shoes, I'll be out in a few seconds."
Hans bowed silently, leaving back the new footwear and shoes.
Without wasting much time I slowly got up from the stretcher and took off my robe, which I could have taken off sooner since my bandages covered almost my entire body, practically looking like a mummy.
I grabbed the clothes that I had left on the chair with difficulty due to the lack of depth that my left eye no longer provided because I was still undergoing treatment.
I put on the tight but comfortable black dress pants along with a multi-embroidered silk shirt.
In the end I chose not to wear socks and use the bandages on my feet as socks and put on the elegant black shoes.
Unbutton the first 2 buttons of the shirt to avoid the uncomfortable collar of the shirt.
Without wasting any more time I headed to the exit of the room and opened the door.