Taeyang's POV
A year had passed, my life has been a living hell.. yeah I really missed Kim... I missed him like fuck... I tried moving on with my life, but I failed... I was now that playboy that changes boyfriends like an underwear... But the funniest thing is that whenever I want to kiss them, I just feel like throwing up... So we break up... I became an exchange student in the Bangkok... I wanted Kim to be happy.. to talk about Kim,my brother kept me updated.. he only came to school, and went back home.. he's more fragile than before.. I really wanted to go to him, but I was scared of triggering his disease..
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Bangkok school
I came into the class, there was no place to sit.. so I sat beside our nerd... He was just like Kim with blue hair,but it was short... He wore his hoodie and sweatpants, with his glasses... I just kept on glancing at him.. "hi" I said to him.. his cheeks flushed. And he looked down before mumbling "hi" I smile, then dig my fingers into his hair.. just like Kim... And then he looked at me smiling.. wait it's Kim.. "I've been looking through hell to find you.. where did you disappear to?" Kim asked me.. I was smiling like an idiot.. "baby I'm sorry.. but now that I've seen you, I'll not let you go" I said.. I lean in closer to kiss him, "what are ... What are you doing?" The nerd stuttered.. I recoil.. fuck... Was I just seeing things? Am.. am I loosing my mind... "I'm.. I'm sorry" I said then left the class...
Later after school, I was sitting under a tree then I saw a familiar hand.. I looked up and saw his smiling face.. no.. was I hallucinating again... But then the voice "here" Kim said giving me chocolate.. I took it, still spellbound looking at him.. then he ran off with a blush.. I looked at my hand, and yes the chocolate was with me so I was not imagining things... Kim.. he's here... I need to find him.. I ran after him, then I saw him.. he turned and waved at me.. I hugged him.. "I thought I lost you" I said then kissed him.. but then I felt off.. I looked at him and fuck it was that nerd... "I.. I'm.. I'm sorry" I said stepping back and holding my head.. I was going insane.. how could I see things just like that... "Are you ok?" The nerd asked.. helping me keep my balance.. I looked At him tears welling up in my eyes.. he takes me to a corner and hugs me.. I let it all out.. I cried.. just like a baby.. "I'm sorry about what happened in class, and I'm sorry for what I just did.. and I'm sorry for letting you see me cry" I said sniffling. He smiled "it's ok.. but if I'm not prying much, can I at least know what's wrong with our h..hot kid" he asked.. I scoff.. hot kid my foot.. "I'm going crazy" I said
. He gasps.. not fully understanding.. "I see him everywhere I go" I said, covering my face with my palms.. he rubs my back.. "I don't really know what you are going through, but I'm sorry" he said.. I hold his hand, making him to face me.. I was so close to him, he gulps... As his face both his ears were red.. he was blushing... "Kim was, and is still my first love.. we.. we love each other alot.. but.."I told him what happened... But then I stopped when I heard him crying.." hey are you alright?" I asked.. he nods.. "I'm.. I'm sorry.. I'm so emotional.. I only see this kind of things in movies or novels, but I'm actually here with a living example.. and I'm sorry you had to go through all this" he says wiping his face.. I smile.. "but I really love him.. I.. I can give my heart for him, but I know.. I know he'll reject it" I said.. "you both need an award for the best couple" he joked trying to lift the mood.. I chuckle.
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The next day in my apartment
I took a shower and decided to chat my brother up..
Babe:
Hello
Shinwoo:
Hi babe
Babe:
How's my boyfriend
Shinwoo:
As always..
But I became
his friend
Babe:
Ok. Thanks..
Just make sure not
TO FALL IN LOVE
WITH HIM
Shinwoo:
I can't promise
you that,
but I'll try
Babe:
Bye.. I just got
Jealous
I went offline.... I sigh.. his birthday is tomorrow I have to go back to Korea.. we had break at school for 2 weeks,so I'll just go and watch him from afar... Yes.. from afar.. nothing else.. I was repeating it in my head to convince myself.... But I'll have to buy him gifts and ask Shinwoo to give him.. I went shopping... Yes I worked part-time, and I was earning more than I needed.. so at least let me spoil my boyfriend from afar.. I bought him a hair pin, his favorite perfumes and some makeup kits.. yes.. when we were alone, he used to love crossdressing.. so I bought him some girls clothes and shoes... I smile at myself... I booked an online flight.. I'll leave today.. yes.. today so I'll have time to make a plan with Shinwoo.. but I'll have to go and see.. him.. I began to pack.. I packed my clothes, took a leave for a week, and went to the airport.. after waiting for an hour, my I board the plane and..KOREA HERE I COME.. And also..KIM BABY HERE I COME.. I was over joyed.. I'll be seeing my Kim for the first time in a year.. then now I begin to think.. how will I react when I see him.. will I be able to stop myself from running to him?.. I should just have given Shinwoo the gifts to give him.. how selfish I can get sometimes..
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