Haah!! They way this little kiddo is trying to lift up my mood....!!!
I know she is not saying but I know her better than her....!!
My little sweetaaa is sooo kind and generous.... She doesn't know but she is my therapist.... My only therapist.... To be with her takes away all my stress....
Because when am with her all I can think of his her sweet smile and innocent talks....!!!
But all I am afraid of is ufff mera mood theek karte karte Shivu laga na le....!!!
I can't see her working like this..... And that onion have audacity to bring tears in my kiddo's eyes.....!!! I chopped it with extra force like it's hurting it... But but.... Only thing I can't bear is Tear in her eyes.... I don't know for what reason they are.....!!!
Take me as mad.... Take me as freak..... Yes I AM... But in my Shivi's love.... Am so in love with her.....!!! Ufffff...!!!
The excitement on her face when she was serving me food.....!! Ahhh my silly is so happy and excited just to see my reaction for the food she made.... But little did she know..... That even if she serve me poison... I'll have it like the tastiest thing I ever had....!!! Anything from her little hands is like heaven to me..... No matter what it is.....!!!
And I hugged her tightly while she was sitting on my lap....!!!
Meri pyaari si jaaan!!!
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"Kartik..... " She said when I was taking the plates back to kitchen....
"Hmmm" I replied
"I.... I have.... Test tomorrow.... So can I go..... To my..... Room.... To study??? " She said playing with her fingers....
I looked at her and replied...
"Of course baby you can.... Do you even need to ask this??? But.... "
She hummed in questioning tone..... " But??? "
"But.... Can you sit in my room and study??? " I asked her
Ugh!!! I don't want her to be away from me.... Yes I know am acting clingy but it is what it is....
"Kartik..... I need to concentrate" She said stretching her words.....
"I'll not disturb you" I replied in sad voice....
"Nahh nahh.... I need to study hard to be billionaire like you" She replied teasing....
I looked at her raising my eyebrow " All my money is already yours.... So in that case you already a billionaire "
She placed both her hands on my shoulder " But I want to be successful " She said with seriousness
I looked at her with proud in my eyes.... Like That's My GIRL!!!
I smiled and cupped her face and pecked her forehead
"And I am more than sure that you will be one day"
And she replied "And for that I need to study byyy byee" And runned away towards her room
"Shiviii thatssss not fair..... " I said loudly behind her
"Byeee byeee KARTIKKK JI" She replied over her shoulder and locked her room leaving me there.....!!! Ahhh!!!
I need her....!!!! So badlyyy...!!!
Wait wait...Behave Kartik..... Don't be like a teenager in love..... !!! Behave....!! You are mature enough..... Why you are behaving so clingy???
Butt how can anyone resist if one in front of you is this addicting???? Am not at fault this time.....!!!!
But I can't do anything.... Madam ka order aaya hai nibhana toh padhega!!!
Chale Kartik... Aapko akele hi guzarne padhege aage ke kuch lamhe...!!!
I sighed and went towards my room... I looked at my phone which was on silent and noticed.... Raj had called for 15 times with so many text messages....!!! Ugh I know what he wanted to talk... Am in no mood to discuss that...!! I threw my phone on couch near by and settled on my bed resting my back on headboard..... !!!
Okay Back to work Kartik...
And I grabbed my macbook which was on side table and checked for mails....!!!
A mail form what.....!!! Are you serious.... Amaira Oberoy was there.... Is this girl have self respect???? I deleted the male without opening it.... !!!
And checked my next meetings and schedules.....
In two days I have other big presentation... Ufff it's gonna be a busy week....!!!
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After working for I think half an hour I kept on constantly looking at door may be Shivi would change her mind of studying alone!!! But why the hell is she not coming??? Just 10 more minutes and am going to her room and bringing her here!!!
But after 2 minutes I heard a soft voice " Kartikk???"
I looked at the door where she was standing leaning to it with books in her hand....
I again get back to my work (acting obviously).... And replied
"Yeahhh??? "
"Are you busy??? " She asked slowly....
I kept on typing and making presentation.... Now I have right to get angry...!!!
"I thought someone wanted to do serious study All alone??? "
"Yeahh but.... Can you... Can you explain me one topic.... Am not able to understand" She said in pleading tone....
I looked at her and she was gazing down playing with her fingers... I suppressed my urge to smile....
"What about your Mission Study alone??? " I asked raising my eyebrow
And she walked towards me saying "Sorry na kartik samja do please" And sat in front of me closing my macbook and giving me her books...
"Array" I replied
"Please please please am sorry" She said with her innocent face and holding her ears...
How can anyone on earth be angry with this cutiee???
But I still managed to supress my smile and replied keeping her books aside
"First say Kartik I'll never leave you alone again??? "
She replied like an obedient student in the most innocent way "Kartik .... Am sorry.... I'll never never never... Leave you alone... Again.... If ever you'll push me away then also I'll stick by you..... Promise"
Ahhhhh!!! My heart!!! Kartik how long you gonna act??? You know you can't resist....!!! Butterflies in your stomach would come out if this kitten behave such way....!!!
"Pakka promise" I asked controlling the zoo in my stomach
"Pakka promise sacha promise" She replied while sitting into my lap and hugging my neck and she softly placed a kiss on my cheek
Ahhhhh okkk this is it!!!! And I caged her into my arms and squeezed lovingly... Pecking her nose....!!!
"Myyy sweetaaaaa I loveee youuu!!!! "
"Loveeeeee youuuu ussse bhi bahooot zadaaa" She replied stretching her words sprinkling her with chocolates....!!!
And I kissed her soft lips pulling her closed to me.....!!!
I smiled and pulled back the kiss..... While her eyes we're closed and her cheeks were cherry red...." Uffff her baat par aese blush karoge toh hamare dil ka kya hoga??? " I said in my deep voice....and she blushed even more hiding her face in my chest..... Ufff mera bachaaa!!! And I chuckled.....
"Bass bass meri jaan bass.... Now tell what you want to understand or else you'll say Kartik ki vajh se nahi padha" I teased her
She looked at me and pouted....
Then she grabbed her books while still sitting in my laps and opened the topic she want to understand....!!!
"Ummm this is so easy baby girl only we need is to understand this thing instead of cramming" I said ruffling her hair...
She looked at me and replied
"Mujhse toh dono nahi ho raha"
"Koi baat ni... Why to fear when Kartik is here" I replied and she looked at me thinning her eyebrows
I chuckled and started explaining her and in between I noticed she was looking at me only instead of her book.....
When I looked at her she turned her gaze towards the book....
"Shivu I know am so handsome but am all yours baby girl... Adore me after wards as much as you can..... For now focus here" I said in flirty voice and as a result she hid her face into her hands...
Uffff uffff uffff!!!! Are we supposed to study???? Of course I can't teach if my student is this adorable....!!!
And suddenly Shivi's phone rang....
Raj Bhai💌
Shit!!! Why is he ringing to her.... !!!
I was on the way to take her phone but she grabbed it before me and picked up the call....
"Yes bhai" She said
*pause*
"Yeahhh Khad.... *clears her throat* I mean Kartik... Kartik is her only wait" She replied and stretched her hand towards me...
"Kartik... Bhai wants to talk to you!! " She said
I looked at her but okay I can't excuse now....
I took the phone and replied
"Hmm"
"Be away from Shivi for a while" He said in deadly voice...
Ahhh!!! Not now God... I had already enough for today....
I looked at shivi.... And said...
"Baby... Revise what I taught you and I'll be back soon okay"
She nodded and got off my lap and sat on bed.....
I creased her cheek and walked outside the room....
"Hmmm" I said
"What the HELL DO YOU think of YOURSELF??? How CAN you CANCEL THAT FUCKING DEAL just like that??? ARE YOU GONE NUTS??? " Raj said with rage
"They were not worthy of being our partners" I replied in flat tone
"You know how important that was??? " He replied in questioning tone
"Raj.... Not more important our principles" I replied
"Yeahhh of course... I know you are never going to agree what you did was wrong..... You are always right hmm..... Anyways just wanted to tell you Your father and his wife are coming to see you in some days" He said
Waitt... What???? Ha ha!! Nice
I chuckled and replied " So they know they have son too??? "
"Kartik.... They are your parents" He replied
"Yeah parents right right... Anyways tell them I don't have time am busy" I said and hanged up.... Without waiting for him to reply.....
I don't want to even see them!!! They can be anything but my parents...!!!
I sighed to calm down my anger and turned back... Shivi was standing behind me.... Shit!!!! Why God why??? Why You are doing this....!!!!
I walked inside the room and she followed me.... I know what is coming....!!!!But I don't want to discuss.....!!! I grabbed the jug of water... Poured water into the glass and chugged it down....
When I turned she was standing behind me..... She was going to say something when I cut in between "Shivi please I don't want to discuss"
She looked at me and hugged me and my tensed body got relaxed under her touch
"It's okay Kartik....!!! I can understand... You always tried to heal me... But me stupid never asked you about yourself.... I never knew My strong Kartik have so much inside him but you know what.... Sometimes by sharing our dark secrets we feel light....
I always do this with you... You can trust me too.... I know I can't solve your problems but I can cry with you....!!! I can take a little of burden of your heart to my heart!!! "
Ahhh My Shivi... !!! And I hugged her tightly..... Her words are enough to make me feel that I am not alone... And I can fight anything if she is with me as my support system.... I know no matter what I always have this innocent soul with me....!!! She doesn't even know... But still is volunteer to share my sadness.... And I smiled..... Kissing her head.....
"Meraa bachaaa.... I don't know what good deeds I had did that God gave me My sweeta.... My pure soul" I said softly
She looked at me resting her chin on my chest and pulled back the hug... She made me sit on the couch and kneeled on the floor holding my hand....
"I am always with with you" She said with assurance
I don't know what she is thinking but her words are already lighting the burden I have on my heart..... And I bent towards her hight and pecked her forehead "I know" I replied and picked her up on my lap....
"Shivi you know when I was too young.... I had an angel... I called her maa... She too have this silky hair like you.... " I said creasing her hair....
"This big eyes... This beautiful smile.... " I smiled and replied
"You resemble so much like my mother.... She was my home.... Just like you are" I touched her nose with my finger...
"I used to roam behind her everywhere she go... She was too pure and truest soul I had ever seen... Her voice.... Her voice was like peace to my ear.... You know she calls me " Kittu" and I run behind her calling 'mumma' 'Mumma' Everytime" I chuckled while shivi was listening me with all her ears....
A tear rolled down my eye and I wiped it off with my hand with a smile "She was my everything Shivi... My everything... My father... He was never with us.... He was always busy in his business deals... Trips.... And enjoyments.... My mother was only one I have..... Only one I could call family"
"But you know..... God was from starting very cruel to me.... He can never see me happy....!!! So he took my mother... My mumma from me when I was just a kid... When I needed her the most..... When I needed her embrace.... Her support... Her love... Her care... The most... He took her away from me... Leaving me all alone in this selfish world" And Tears gathered in my eyes....
Shivi hugged me and I hugged her back while my heart ached remembering all those things which I was trying to forget.... Which I never shared.... The secrets which still have power to rip my heart....!!!
"Shivi you know... I was just a 8 year old kid when My father.... Whome I needed that time.... Married another women... He gave my mother's place to other woman!!! Father love....!! Haah!!! I don't even know what that means.... Because I never experienced....
Mr. Yashwardan Singh Rajput... Urf my so called father got so much busy with his so called business and his so called wife that he even forgot he have a son.... "
"I was all by myself since childhood... I decided that day that I'll be too successful that I'll not get time to even think of any relations... I was of the opinion that money is everything... These relationships are just a lie.....!!! These all things are fake..... "
"And I made that too... But you know what Shivi.... I had everything but still I felt emptiness.... That something is missing... And then I saw you...." I creased her head and pecked her
"My innocent baby came into my life and I felt like my life is completed now..... Money and success and everything was never the thing I wanted.....
I wanted you.... I needed you....!!! I needed my little kiddo who takes away all my stress and tension and burden and everything the moment she stepped into my life "
And I smiled at her.... She looked at me and pecked my forehead
"Kartik... I never knew you too were kept from love and care.... I promise you from now on you'll never feel lonely.... Am always there for you..... Forever" And she hugged me tightly holding my neck with tears in her eyes....
"Oyeee shhhh aap royengi aese toh hamara kya hoga hmm.... Shhhh I know my baby is always with me... " And I hugged her back pulling her closer to me.....
"You know shivi... I never felt this light before" And I kissed her neck while she snuggled into my neck wrapping her legs around my torso...