He was looking bit angry when I asked him about his girlfriend.... I don't know what would be the reason... Maybe he doesn't have one or he don't wanted to tell me..... My heart started aching at that thought.... I shouldn't have asked him about this at the first place.... Ahhh shivi you are just a friend to him.... And suddenly tears started falling from my eyes..... Because he's is all I have.... I don't know what this feeling is but it's very different.....
I don't wanted to cry but..... These tears... Why God... Why you made me like this.... I don't want to look like an attention seeker... A cry baby....
And he noticed me crying.... He apologized me.... made me stop crying very softly and lovingly... Why?? Why he acts like this if he already have someone... Stop it shivi... Don't think like this..... I don't know but I was feeling emotions mixed of rage and jealousy...
He was trying to make me smile.... And when he do this... I can feel butterflies... No no whole zoo in my stomach... Krishna jii!!! Am I driving crazy??? Do I have a disease or something..... I don't want to die too soon yes I know I have no one for whom I have to live but.... But still Krishna jii am just 20....
And suddenly someone shaked me.... "SHIVI....!!! What are you thinking....???? Where have you been lost??? Hmm??? "
I realised he had parked the car at side and was looking at me with concern... Oh shit!!! What would I tell him now.....
"What happened tell me??? " He asked again....
"N... Nothing.... I was just... Just" I started playing with my fingers looking down.....
"Tell me come on... What were you thinking so long...??? " He asked again with authoritative voice....
"I was.... I was.... Feeling.... Ummmm hungry..... " I said.... Finally a good excuse... Will he take it?? Please help me Krishna ji... Not now please.....
And he chuckled... "Seriously??? Ohhh my little kiddo" He cupped my face... " Why didn't you told me before hmmm??? " He asked thinning her eye brows....
"Come let's feed something to your tummy" He unfasten my seatbelt and opened the door....
Thanku thanku Krishna ji... And I sighed in relief....
He opened the door of my side and gave me his hand.... I took it slowly.... Ufff how short my hand is looking into his hands.... And I followed him slowly....
"So what you wanna have babygirl??? " He asked me
And I pouted looking at him... He smiled....
And there was panipuri wala standing near us....
I looked at Kartik with smile at my face.... And he suddenly said.... "No... No.. No not this anything but not this butterfly...."
And I said softly... "Pleeeese Kartik.... "
"No Shivi.... It's not even hygienic.... " He said but I didn't listened....
"Please please please Kartik..." And I held his hand with both my hands and looked at him with puppy eyes... I know this would work definitely..... But my bad luck...
He firmly said.... "No means no Shivanya Zidd mat karo"
And I gazed down sadly.....
He sighed and bend to my hight.... I was still looking down... "Oyee Dramebaaz dekhna zara meri taraf... "
And I turned around folding my arms..... He too turned towards and said... "Acha baba okay you can have some but not much and not everyday.... Okk?? "
Have I listened right??? Krishna ji had he really said this... And I jumped excitedly... "Thanku Thanku Thanku so much..... " And hugged him.... Woww.... My luck is not too bad today.....
And he chuckled... Hitting my forehead... "Ufff this kiddo... " He said under his breathe but I listened and giggled in victory...
I took his hand and dragged him towards pani puri....
He firstly scanned everything there..... Made that bhaiya wash his hands... He by himself chosen the cleanest looking bowl.... I was staring at him.... Hey Krishna jii.... And I shaked my head...
"Can I have now??? " I asked him and he nodded after thinking something.... Oh Thank God... Finally....
I ate one.... And he was looking at me with smile.... Giving me butterflies... "Don't look at me like this" I said in feeling timid....
"Like what babygirl... "
And I hit his foot with my foot... And I don't know whether he felt something or not.... But instead my foot started paining Uffff..... And he chuckled....
"I hate you... " I said in frustration....
He started laughing and said... "Love you too... " Hnn hnn??? What what have he just said.....??? I looked at him with big eyes.... He came closer to me.... Took the pani puri in my bowl and made me eat that....
"As friend kiddo!! Don't worry..."
And he smiled weakly...
I looked down and shaked the thought in my head off.. And took other pani puri towards his mouth and said... " Aaaaaa... "
And he held my hand and had it.... With smile..... Like this we had so many of them.... And he finally said... "Enough for today.... " And I nodded... I can't push my luck further.... And ge paid the money.... He washed mine as well as his hands with water bottle.... And took my we walked towards the car...
While going there..... Colourful bangles hanging in front of the shop catched my attention.... He looked at me and followed my gaze and suddenly asked me.... "Want some little bird??? "
And I looked at him with hesitation.....
He smiled and dragged me towards the shop... "Come baby girl you can have as many as you want... " I always wanted colour ful things like this but Bhai never bought me..... I looked at him softly
And he patted my head... "What are you thinking baby?? Go on try this one.... " He took the green some bangles and put them slowly in my hand like am his doll and he's afraid to hurt me.... I was looking at him the whole time... And he suddenly said... "Beautiful"... I came back from my thoughts and looked at my hands... I smiled and looked at him... He too smiled looking at me and creased his hand in my head....
He took some more and made me try them one by one....and he also make me wear some jhumka.....
And he said to shopkeeper
"Pack everything she tried.... " I looked at him with surprise??? Everything???
"No.. No.. No I can't take them all.... One would be enough... " I said quickly I don't want him to spend too much on me....
He replied "Shhh baby you never ask for anything from me... But I would love if you ask me to buy things for you..... I would really love that...." He said softly.....
"But kartik... "
"No buts.... " And felt like..... I don't know but.... No one ever thought like this for me.... I was feeling so overwhelmed..... God...!!! Control Shivi...
And he took all the bags in one hand and took my hand in other hand... Like I would lost somewhere.... He always took my hand... Whenever he is with me..... And I deep down love that.... Yes I am not a baby... But still I love when he treats me like this.....
And he put all those bags in backseat and opened the door for me.... I sat inside and he too settled instead....
And suddenly I remembered and I said loudly...
" Ohh shitt...!!!"
"What what happened" He asked me in worried tone...
"How would I take them at home... Bhai would kill me if he gets to know" I said with tense....
He sighed looking at me... " You almost gave me a heart attack...."
"Am sorry but.... " I said looking down...
"Don't worry... Stuff these things in your bad he'll not get to know...." He said calmly....
"But if he??? "
"Princess.... Don't get afraid of him this much... This is the only reason he tries to dominate you.... Be brave... " He said firmly...
And I looked down...
He cupped my face... And said softly... " I know my baby have an innocent and pure heart that could never hurt anyone... But always remember you too have your self respect... You to have your rights... Never let anyone use you dominate you.... Hurt you... "
And I nodded slowly...
" And if anyone still do just tell me I'll make sure to book a best bed in hospital for him... Okk kiddo" He said jokingly
And I smiled....
He too smiled looking at me
"Let's go then baby... I'll drop you home and tell me if you want anything else... Never hesitate with me okk... " He said driving the car and my heart sinked.... I realized it's already time to go back to that home... No no just a house.... Because somehow I feel like home only with him...
Can't I stay longer.... I thought in my head but I hadn't have courage to give it words..... Ahh...