I said him bye and stepped inside my home.... Ahh finally am home after long day.... I feel like missing something or someone I don't know what but something is there twitching inside me.... The whole new feeling....
I was sad about that incident of college but after being with Kartik I forgot everything and felt safe I always do.....
I didn't told him about that as he already take me as a kid..... What would he think I can't even handle some bullies... And beside that I don't wanted to trouble him much... He already helps me a lot without even asking...
In world full of strangers he's the only one with whom I feel safe... When am with him I feel like I am at home after long tiring day..... Really..... He's too caring no one cares for me this much as he do...
I went to kitchen and had a glass of water.... Bhabhi was not there may be she's in her room with suru ... Bhai was still at office... I didn't disturb her and went straight to my room with 2 slices of break and sauce.... (I don't like jam with it) as I hadn't had anything since morning...
If Kartik get to know that I just had two slices of bread for the whole complete day he would definitely get mad at me.... anyways am not gonna tell him either.... But I can't hide things from him He always catches..... Huh!!!
I lied on my bed and closed my eyes.....
As an introvert... Falling in love seems not my type until he came into my life for the first time I was feeling like this..... When our eyes meet I starts looking somewhere else.... Like I wasn't staring at him The whole time..... When he reaches somehow I get to know he's there.... Looking at each other at place full of people...ahhh those things makes my day.....
I suddenly sat on the bed.... Ohhh Shivi No No No what are you thinking... He just take me as a friend....... And thinks am just a kid.... He helps me because he feels pity for me... Not because he loves me.... He's a successful businessman he would have many other preettier girls around Why would he like me.....
And I hugged my kankhajoora (my soft toy - a duck) sadly.... I don't know when I was all asleep.... It's almost 7 pm in evening.... Ohhh shit.....
Bhai would have reached and he would scold me for sleeping too long...
I stood from there and went downstairs..... Bhai was sitting in the living room..... He didn't even see me.... I went to kitchen.... Bhabhi was cutting vegetables..... I helped her....
She asked me about my day....
I smiled and said " It was nice..."
She told me Suru is at his Nani home... Hmm I already miss him...
Bhai called me "Shivi bring a glass of water" he said so loudly that I almost shaked.....
I quickly filled a glass and walked towards him.... He was working on some papers....
A pen came down my foot and I stumbled... Ohhh shit.... Water fell on his papersss and clothes... Bhabhi came running and asked "What happened"
I was terrified and said " S... Sorry Bhai The pen....."
He stood from there and shouted..... "You can't even do a little work properly... useless.... Do you even know how important these papers were...???"
I was shivering..... " S... Sorry Bhai"
"Just sorry..... Yes this is great.... First do mistakes then say sorry and everything is sorted...." He shouted again....
Tears collected in my eyes... " No food for you tonight now Go to your room and don't you dare to show me this filthy face of yours..... Gooo" he said loudly..... And pushed me I almost fell...
"Ayushu don't you dare to give her sympathy U understand"
He said to bhabhi and she nodded.....
I ran to my room and locked the door..... I started crying sitting down near the bed..... "Why Krishna ji......Why I can't be happy just for a day .... Why?????" and I was unable to say anything...
I can't take loud voices.... My heart aches....... And I cried for I don't know how many hours......
And lied on the floor itself... sobbing with red puffy eyes.....
After some time I feel little cold.... I was shivering... I curled up on the floor.....And I heard knock on my door....
"Shivi.... Shivi bachee open the door.... Shiviiii"
Knock*
Knock*
I managed to stand up..... I was feeling so cold and weak.....
I opened the door... And bhabhi came in....
"Are you fine...."
I suddenly remembered how Bhai shouted at me and how boys bullied me at college and many more things...Tears again gathered in my eyes.... And I stated crying.... She hugged me...
She creased my back "Shhh bachaa Shhhhh..." I continue crying...
"Your body is heated up Shivi" she said looking at me and touched my forehead......
"You catch fiver..... Shivi..." She said worried..... "First stop crying and come come with me...." She wiped my tears and made me lie on the bed... "Close your eyes try to rest for some a while... " She covered me with the comforter.... I was not able to think anything my head was aching badly all I wanted to do is cry... And I was starving too.... Still I tried to sleep a little
I continue sobbing and bhabhi went outside..... She had called the Bhai I guess..... (He was not at home)