Liam's POV:
As expected the alpha is nowhere to be seen in the packhouse.
I haven't seen her since yesterday night.
We served dinner for the alpha's family then Claire and I went downstairs to have ours.
I have been zoning out since I got to know about how my mate spends her ruts.
I don't blame her, I understand that ruts are tough, and really hard to go through them alone without having sex, but I have been spending both my heats and ruts for six years alone just because I want to stay loyal to her so I deeply hoped she would do the same for me.
But I again why would she save herself for me when she does not even know that she actually does have a fated mate?
I'm selfish for expecting her to save herself for me when I'm scared of her knowing I am her mate.
She already refused my touch because she smelt my omega pheromones for a slight second.
I got my answer already without having to ask and let her know who I was.
The moment I got this job in the packhouse, I kept raising my hopes about my mating bond with the head alpha and this wasn't good.
" See you later, buddy," Claire said as she yawned and patted my shoulder before she headed to her room.
I decided to roam around the packhouse because if I'm gonna live here, the least I deserve is to know where I am.
I started with the first floor, this place is huge just in case I haven't said that already.
I think the first floor has the largest number of rooms.
16 rooms with their bathrooms.
As I noticed this is the floor where most of the employees live.
I did not want to hop on the elevator since I have used it before which is why I decided to go to the stairs and find out where they are.
The second floor had guards standing at its entry which is why I concluded that maybe the head alpha's family lives there so I don't think I'm allowed inside.
then there is the third floor which surprisingly was so empty.
I walked inside, only to find empty rooms.
Boring.
I was about to leave to go back to my room when my ear caught the sound of someone moaning.
My body froze because I knew whose voice this was.
It's Anastasia's voice.
I clenched my fist, I was so irate and jealous, that I wanted to rip these betas into pieces.
I had to leave, but I just could not.
I knew that following the sound and seeing what was happening in there would only hurt me, but I did it anyway.
I followed the source of the moaning sound, as I got closer I could hear the wet sound of skin clapping against each other, I could smell her pheromones as well as that beta girl Regina's scent and other betas that I didn't know.
No, I can't do that.
I immediately rushed back to my room even before I could get close enough to that room where my mate was having sex with someone else who wasn't me.
I could not control my tears, they ran down my face like a waterfall and I could not stop them.
I feel so helpless.
I angrily ripped my shirt off my body and took my clothes off before going to the shower, only to let iced cold water run down my muscled body.
The pictures of my mate touching and being touched by other people started to form in my mind which pissed me off.
I threw the shampoo bottles against the wall out of anger before gripping my hair in my fists as if this was going to make my anger go away.
I quietly sat down on my bed after I finished showering and put some pants on.
I zoned out again.
Anastasia will sooner or later have to claim someone as her mate so I should get used to that as soon as possible.
I slowly drifted to sleep, to my dreamland.
My routine the next morning was not anything special, just the same as the past two days.
This is my third day here already.
I made breakfast for the family with Claire's help which is when I remembered that I had not seen my mate eating since that night " Claire how does the alpha eat when she is on her rut and spends all her day there?"
"Caleb, the guy who escorts her everywhere, actually comes every now and then to bring her some food when she asks him to," Claire answered while devouring those chocolate-covered strawberries while I just hummed understandably.
That guy is always with Anastasia, maybe that's why she doesn't kill him when he enters that room.
Alphas when they get their ruts, they get so territorial which is why the presence of another alpha in the room pisses them off to the point that they might actually kill that "intruder".
Well although I'm partially an alpha, she would not get territorial around me.
In another language, she would not want to kill me even when she is on her rut because I'm her territory.
Yeah, the same goes for my rut, she is my territory as well.
The same goes for Elisabeth, Anastasia's mother, and her mate who is also an alpha.
"Has the alpha ever had a lover? Like an actual lover not just play toys." I asked curiously to Claire who looked at me for a second and let out the loudest laugh I have ever heard.
" A lover? A lover and the head alpha?" She started laughing again even louder than before.
What is the joke?
I don't get it.
" I doubt the head alpha has any kind of emotions other than anger, let alone having feelings for someone. She likes the change and does not like having the same thing over and over again.
Her fated mate wherever they are, they are lucky because it would have been hell for them if they got mated to the alpha and have to listen to her fucking other people because she changes her play toys like she changes her cars.
You have seen how many cars are in the garage, right?
I could not even count how many they were in that garage.
I do not know what to feel anymore.
The Moon Goddess is very wise, she would not have paired me with the wrong person.
Maybe I can fix Anastasia… That's if I could even tell her about the fact that I am her fated mate first.