I want everyone to know that this novel is based on my complicated life. 2022 was harsh and hard and a challenging year overall. Among the hurdles I faced, the constant confrontations with my parents cast a shadow over my spirit, triggering a descent into the depths of depression and a gradual erosion of my once-optimistic outlook on life. The crux of our discord lies in the stark disparity between their aspirations for me and the fervent desires that stir within my soul. While my parents advocate for a life rooted in the familiarity of India, my heart yearns for the allure of enchanting, dreamlike destinations such as London and Paris. I want them to take my aspirations seriously and support me – that's the least they can do. But it seems their interest is minimal. It's challenging for me to accept that they fail to recognize what I perceive as the most crucial aspect of my life.
The monotony and dullness of each passing day weigh heavily upon me, a suffocating blanket of conformity that threatens to stifle my dreams and aspirations. For more than three years now, I have harbored the fervent ambition of pursuing my education in the United Kingdom, a dream that burns bright within me, undimmed by the passage of time or the obstacles in my path. Yet, with each passing day, each fleeting moment, that dream feels increasingly elusive, slipping through my fingers like grains of sand. The chasm between our perspectives is vast, and bridging it seems an insurmountable task. I yearn for their understanding, their acceptance, their support – the very pillars upon which a parent-child relationship should rest. Yet, their response is one of indifference, their interest in my dreams fleeting at best. It is a bitter pill to swallow, this realization that they fail to grasp the gravity of what I hold dear, what I perceive as the most crucial aspect of my existence.
Despite the challenges that lie ahead, I refuse to relinquish hope, for it is hope that sustains me, that fuels the fire within my soul. I refuse to allow the naysayers, the doubters, to dictate the course of my destiny. And so, as I stand on the precipice of uncertainty, I steel myself for the challenges that lie ahead, drawing strength from the depths of my being. For though the road may be long and arduous, I know that with perseverance and courage, I have to emerge victorious, my dreams within reach, my spirit unbroken. For this is not merely a novel, but an autobiography, a remainder of the power of hope, the resilience of the human spirit, and the unwavering pursuit of a life lived on one's own terms.