(Levar Point of View)
When we get to the base, I look over and I see Asaka seems to be getting worse. The base is in the middle of nowhere but I guess that's what I should have expected. We get out of the car and I help Asaka walk. I see people staring at us but soon look away. I keep walking to get to where her doctors are. I help her sit down on one of the beds before I get one of the doctors. The doctor checks up on her as I start pacing.
What if she is dying? I have just found out about all of this and now she is going to be gone. I know about this so what if the new leader forces me to join? I have heard so many stories about people made to join the mafia because of small things but I would never survive here. I would die so fast. I don't want to die. I have avoided death so far but without Asaka, I doubt I could survive. Please don't die. Please.
I suddenly feel arms around me and I look up to Addon. I hug him close as I start to cry. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to be alone. I know I have Addon but I doubt that will be for long. I don't have my apartment anymore as I haven't had a job to pay rent. Its going to be hard to get a job as it's been months and I doubt that my boss wants me back and I will have to explain why there are a few months apart from that job and when I get a job so I will be homeless. There have been so many close calls that soon I will die and so will Asaka, we won't be able to have a happy life together. What if she was poisoned? It would be my fault for not saying anything before. She was Asakas doctor so I didn't think anything about it but I should have. I know the truth now so I should have said something. Anything. Maybe this wouldn't have happened if I said something. It will be my fault if she dies.
I suddenly hear yelling. I look around to see what's going on before I hear my mothers voice. I tense up. Why is she here? How does she know about this place? Is she part of all of this? Why is she yelling? I thought I wouldnt have to see her again. I thought I was free from her. I thought I would never see her again. I thought I was safe from her. Has she been here this entire time? What if she finds me and tells Asaka how to treat me? What if Asaka listens? What if I have to go back to the abuse? What if I can never leave this time? What if I am stuck in the cycle? One I can never leave and will die in. What if I have kids and then I treat them like how I was treated? Or my mom finds out? Or Asaka hits them?
Addon suddenly picks me up, causing me to break out of my thoughts before he starts carrying me out of the room. I hold onto him. I don't want to be dropped or anything. Despite looking older, he is fast and strong. He is kind of hot. I'm not one for older men and I have a girlfriend so I'm not going to think about it but I'm glad he is here to protect me. I relax in his arms as he carries me. There is so much that's going on. I just want to relax. I hear yelling and screaming. I feel myself starting to panic as I try to calm myself down but fail. I don't know what to do. I don't want to get hurt but I have Addon. He is protecting me. It's his job and if something bad happens, I have to trust Asaka. I have to trust that she will be safe and she knows what she is doing. Hopefully she wakes up soon and can deal with all of this.
When we get into the room, Addon sits down on the ground as he holds me close before playing with my hair a bit. He removes his jacket as he puts it over me. It's warm and it's helping with all of the noises. I lay down on his chest. It's like a pillow. I could fall asleep like this, maybe I will. It is comfortable and warm. I feel safe like this, in his arms, able to relax. I should let myself sleep. I close my eyes as I relax on him, letting myself fall asleep on him.