(Levar Point of View)
I hear Asaka coming up to me. I look over at her, needing to prepare myself for this. I take a deep breath and I look up at her. I can do this. I just need to tell her what I know now.
"What happened darling?" I am kind of glad that she spoke first, I don't know if I could really start this.
"Abaddon told me somethings and I don't know how to feel about it so now we need to talk about it." This is the best start I have.
"Of course. How about we go inside to talk?" Yes, inside might be better. It is kind of hot outside, so that would be better.
"Okay, we can do that."
I head inside first before sitting down on the couch. I need to get my thoughts straight before anything else. I just need to stay calm for this. Panicking won't help me in this. Maybe I should ask him about what Abaddon told me about Asaka loving me more than anything and would do anything for me. Maybe I could use that. I should confirm it first. I shouldn't just tell her to tell me. I should ask. It might go better if I do. I am mainly scared of what she is going to do when I tell her that I know. Like what if she kills me or makes me join her. I don't want to break the law more than I already have and I don't want to die. I'm not a teenager that wants to rip out of my own skin because I know it's not who I am. I am more of who I am and when I get bottom surgery there won't be any doubt about it. Even though now it's more of if I get bottom surgery.
I hear Asaka sitting down in front of me and speaking, which snaps me out of my thoughts. "So, what is it that you want to talk about?"
Oh, this is my chance to tell her. I should ask her what she would do for me first. That should be a good start. "The first thing is, what would you do for me?"
"Whatever you ask of me. Why is there something you want?"
Okay. That's a good start so far. "I don't want anything, Abaddon just pointed out what he sees with you at work, which brings up my second question, why were you lying?"
I see Asaka start to panic, so she knows what I am talking about and Abaddon was telling the truth. She calms down a bit. "Well, I didn't want to scare you. I want you to know me before anything else. I knew where you worked and I found everything about you fast. I did stalk you for a bit when I didn't know what I was feeling. Also, when I found you because of the kidnapping, it was because my men kidnapped you. I didn't mean for that to be the way it went. I told them to get the females and for some reason they grabbed you. I punished them because of course they weren't thinking and just went down the list without looking. I am a police officer, not for the right reasons but I am one. Plus, I didn't want you to hate me or fear me right off of the bat so I didn't tell you. It's also kind of the reason we have Lev. One of the other bosses has a pet lion that gave birth but he was getting rid of the runts. I don't really know how he ended up here but I'm sure there is some reason for that." Okay. That's a lot. She does keep eye contact with me the entire time, which wasn't expected. How can she just say that so easily? I guess it might not be easy for her but she seems to be. "How about I go make us some dinner?"
I nod my head slightly, not really thinking. I just can't believe everything that she told me. I understand her not wanting to scare me. If she did, I might have stayed away. Well then again, I was scared when we first met so I did just what she asked from fear. I did get to know her while being here but I feel like it is really creepy that she researched me and stalked me. Also what does she mean when she said that didn't know how she felt? Did she just stalk me for fun? Was she going to kill me at first? Am I only alive because she fell in love with me? And why was she kidnapping females? If she didn't see me first, would I be dead? Could I have died in so many different ways but didn't? What could she have done for the punishments? Will she punish me in the same way if I disobey? I know she said that she didn't want to scare me but that doesn't mean that is still true now. I guess Lev is a good thing that came out of all of this. It's still scary to think how many times I could have died.