(Levar Point of View)
I see one of Asaka's doctors carrying Asaka in, on a stretcher. She is asleep and is covered in bandages. I feel myself start to tear up as I see her. What happened? Why is she covered in blood? I can see some blood through the bandages. Her leg seems to be turning purple. What happened to her? Why is her leg turning purple? I follow where the doctor is taking her but when they get into the room where my hysterectomy happened, the other doctor stops me from going in before closing the door in my face. I try to open the door but it is locked. I sit down on the ground as I cry. She is covered in blood and her leg doesn't look right. What could have happened?
After a while, I hear some talking from inside of the room. I look up and realize the door is open. I go inside of the room. I don't see Asaka. I look over at the doctor but there is only one and I can't see their face. I don't know where the doctor went as there are no other doors.
"Where is Asaka?"
"Dead."
"What? Why? What happened?"
"I might as well tell you. She messed with the wrong people and got killed. It's why she has me just in case but now that you are here, I wasn't prepared for something to happen and now she is gone."
I feel myself starting to cry more. "What? What do you mean?"
"I mean she has done a lot for you so I didn't know if she would need me because she was setting things up for you."
"So it's my fault."
"Yes, it is."
"Where is she?"
"Gone." I start crying more. "Now look at you. How can you be a man if you are crying? Men don't cry after all."
"Don't say that. I am a male." I mumble. I am a male. I am. I am. I don't have tits or a uterus. Even my ovaries are gone. I know I am a male. Asaka said I am a male.
"You don't look like one and didn't you rape. Men don't get raped so clearly you are a girl. Plus, it was a male and he was straight. So clearly you are a girl. Plus, you are the reason that he got killed. Why did you do that? You let him die and you did nothing about it. I'm sure she would have listened to you and yet you didn't even try to save him. She has killed people and you have still stayed, what kind of person does that make you? You have heard of so many people's stories and the crimes that have been committed and you do nothing about it. The camera footage has audio and you didn't even try to turn any of them in, you just let him roam free. Doesn't that make you a criminal as well? And you are dating a police officer and you still said nothing about everything you have heard."
I remember what happened. I can feel it and it's like I am back there.
I feel myself wake up. I look around. I still feel it. I hate this. My face is still wet from crying. I must have fallen asleep. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I see the door is still closed. I stand up before trying to open the door and it's unlocked this time. I enter the room. Neither doctor are in the room but seems to be in their office in a corner of the room. The door does blend in with everything else but the window, where I can see them, is open this time so I can tell that they are in there. I see Asaka on the bed. I pull a chair up next to her and I lay down on her. I can hear her heartbeat and she is still warm so she is still alive. I guess it really was a dream but then why do I feel guilty? I doubt there was anything I could have done to stop his death as I was in shock from what happened. I guess the question is if I would have stopped her if I was in the right state of mind. Am I just as bad as then? Am I like my father? Am I like my sister? I guess I am. I know I'm more like my mother, minus the addiction but shouldn't I still be like my father and sister? Maybe me not telling anyone what I know and not trying to run away like a normal person would make me like them. I could run now but I can't. She is injured and has been taking such good care of me, I can't break that trust. I wonder if her leg looks the same. I could check. It definitely didn't look good when I saw it but she has good doctors, I'm sure they saved it. I'm sure her leg will be back to normal in no time.