I know I was wrong for taking her life
But she ruined my dream, her, being my wife.
In the end, life is still unfair to me
Olivia broke me but now she is free.
The day I met her, was the day I met joy
But for her it's the day she met her toy
We should've been five years together now
If you didn't broke our promises and vow.
Yes, I can just kill the guy and not you
But I know there are others waiting for you.
You said you're sorry and I forgave you
But you did it again without a cue.
I should've not looked at you back then
So I won't fall for you like all the men
For the smile you're showing was just a trap
Saying you love me when you're on someone's lap.
How fool was I to believe all your words,
When you've done it before with records?
Maybe that's why they say that love is blind,
But it's not, I saw it yet I didn't mind.
Love is love when both of you are sharing
Love is not love if only one is loving.
I did everything to keep us intact
But behind my back, I was being attacked.
If I only enjoyed my alone time
Then I won't be a victim of this love's crime.
But I was too vulnerable with her
Even if I try, I can't resist her.
There's something in her I can't comprehend
From the moment I saw her 'til the end.
Or maybe it's the fact that she's a cheater,
Enchanted by the smile, the eyes that glitter.
I changed her clothes into a white dress
She's still beautiful and I'm still impressed.
She's like sleeping beauty waiting for a kiss,
I pressed my lips to hers so I won't miss.
If you're just faithful to me like I'm to you,
We both won't experience this kind of blue.
You took my heart with you—the other piece
But we ended up tragically like this.
Hurting you was not my real intention
I was just fired up due to the situation
And I know you understand why I'm mad,
You played my heart though I loved you so bad.
If in case we meet in the afterlife,
Would you choose me knowing I end your life?
'Cause for me, I will keep on choosing you,
Even if you broke my heart in two.
And I regret everything I've done,
I shouldn't have done that, but now you're gone.
If I ask for forgiveness, will you give it?
Or will you pretend that you didn't hear it?
I know you don't deserve what happened,
But this isn't what I want for our end
This is what leads to the path you chose,
You threw the chance and sealed your heart—closed.
A tear roll down my face and I didn't know
Is this a tear of triumph or sorrow?
Yes, I want to get revenge but not this,
Planned to scare her but was forced to use my fist.
I know I can't undo what I have done,
And for this crime, I know I cannot run.
But I was also a victim like her,
It's just that at first, I didn't bother
Believe it or not, I loved her truly
And we all have the right to love freely
But who gave her the right to play my heart,
When all I want is for us not to part.
I am neither gullible nor naive
I was just vulnerable that eve
For I thought she was sincere then,
Looked in my eyes and said, "I won't do it again".
If you love someone, you should trust them,
And I did, gave her again my gem
Without thinking what will be the outcome,
And not sure if I will overcome.
I can't still believe she's already gone,
I lost my moon as well as my sun.
She died in the hands of her lover,
A lover who only wants to be loved by her.
"Too much love will kill you, if you can't make up your mind."
I killed my lover, anger made me blind.
Gave her chances, was willing to accept her,
She refused, which led to this murder.
But I wish I could turn back the time
To improve my self and to avoid this crime
Maybe I lack something she's looking for,
So she met someone for she wants more.
But she should've told me so I'll know,
Instead of walking away and just go.
But the love she showed me, was it true?
Or it's all part of her strategic hue?
I don't know what to believe anymore
The pain is getting deeper down my core
I can't breathe and my head starts aching,
Tell me, is my life still worth living?
I guess not, so I get the knife beside me,
Pointed on my chest, prick it as I see
The blood comes out making my shirt wet
The next thing I know, in darkness I was set.