given me before we had sex.
For some reason, I keep thinking about how the sex was with Aspen.
How I felt like I was flying. How when I'm around him and Dex and even Raven, I feel safe... protected. Something I haven't felt since my dad died.
They're nothing like any of the boys in my life. But I can't help it. I'm drawn to all three of them.
How crazy is that?
Aspen is gazing at me with those dark blue eyes, and I realize that I'm breathing him in.
"What?" I ask, stepping back to put a little distance between us.
"You okay?"
I nod even though my heart is racing and the feel of him inside me lingers. His kiss, his touch still resonates with me. I cross my arms and heave out a breath.
"What's up with Raven? Is he upset about having to go to witches?" Not too many wolves would be willing to see one witch much less a coven of them.
Dex grins and winks at me. "Nah, he's just pissy about having to hear "you get off without him."
"Oh?" Heat burns my face and my breaths lodge in my throat. Are they both thinking of being with me? I lick my lips, trying to keep my face neutral.
"Yeah, of course," Dex says huskily, giving Aspen a sideways glance before returning his attention back to me. "Totally understand his jealousy cause I'm going crazy that I haven't gotten to taste you except our kiss in the shower."
The heat in my face spreads down my chest. Two sexy wolves are interested in me? I must be dreaming. Or rather, they are only wanting to fuck and would any female in my place.
I have to keep guard my heart. But my pussy... she's purring in my panties simply by their suggestiveness. And damn, but I just had sex with Aspen moments ago and I crave sex again. What's happening to me?
I mean, I can't be going into heat, neither of them are my fated mate.
They both stare at me unashamedly. Dex's gaze is so intense it makes me feel like he wants to take me right here, in front of Aspen. The intensity of having them both look at me like I'm a coveted piece of candy has liquid heat pooling low in my belly and I feel like have to say something.
"Yes? I mean whatever." I wave my hand in the air like I'm not turned on by both of them or I've forgotten the question. I tuck my hair behind my ear, their presence like their expecting me to strip in front of them rattles me into blurting out, "So have either of you found your fated mate?"
"Dex's never had a girl who didn't want to be with him. Never. Women can't resist the bad boy attitude."
Aspen rakes a look over me, lingering on my mouth, then my breast and back up. "Though I'm more of an exhibitionist myself."
"Guess you and Aspen found your own entertainment," Dex says in a husky voice.
My cheeks grow hot, but Aspen wraps his arm around my shoulder and pulls me close for a hug before releasing me.
"Relax, Jessica. We're not hung up on sex or fated mate bullshit."
My stomach clenches and my wolf growls in my chest. "How can you say that?" Not like I truly believed in it either until I nearly shifted because of Michael. Though I don't want to be mated to him now. Not when he dropped me like a hot potato and didn't even give me a chance.
"How can you believe it?" Dex snorts. "I've fucked lots of women and none of them have held my wolf's interest for longer than a night or two."
Do Aspen and Raven feel the same way? I squirm and spare a glance to Aspen. "But you were demanding I belong to you."
"Sex. That's all. We're cursed never to fall in love or have a woman love us."
Dex nods and my heart sinks a little.
"What if you find one who is your forever mate?" I ask, my throat dry.
"If I haven't found her by now, I doubt she exists." Dex flicks a fallen leaf across his fingers. "Maybe all of us are cursed like Raven and his pack. We just haven't turned feral yet."
"Don't say that." I shudder. "The lost ones are horrible. And everyone has a fated mate out in the world. Why do you reject that?" As much as I want to be a wolf, locked in a mindless state like that until I died a second time, no fucking way.
"Because it's a nice idea, but people make mistakes. They fuck up over and over and over again," Dex says, his eyes darkening.
"Ouch. That's harsh," I say, wondering what has happened in his past to leave him so bitter.
"And if our fated mates are now lost ones?" Dex crumbles the dried leaf he's been playing with.
The lost one's eyes dull and empty haunt me. I'd never seen so many before leaving the pack. Their teeth and claws grasping for the living.
"I've had to hunt them down and kill them. Too many were caught alone with their wolf brothers and sisters. They didn't know how to shift back when we were fighting to keep the witches from our lands."
"If we didn't kill them, they would have killed our wounded. Devoured them from the inside out," Aspen added.
I gulp and avert my eyes, thinking about how I would want someone to kill me quickly if I became infected.
Dex turns his gaze to me. "Unless you're a wolf, you can't turn feral.""A-And what if your fated mate isn't a wolf?" I ask, not believing I'm even talking about this with them. Michael had been my fated mate. My wolf thinks there's no one else.
"And what if you're fated mate died years ago? Or what if you have more than one?" Dex glances past me to Aspen before returning my gaze.
Aspen gives me a small smile. "Dex has a point, Juniper. Who knows what you'll do in the future? You could have your own future just like me and Dex."
"Yeah." Dex grunts and stands, Aspen following his lead. "Don't sell yourself short just for a guy."
I bristle. "I'm not." They don't know what it's like to be me. To never shift and be so close to your wolf until someone snatches the chance away.
They both flank me and I inhale the smell of pine and dirt and the sweetest, most delicious smell of man and wolf. Their musky scent and close proximity makes me weak in the knees. I want them. I want them to grab me and kiss me and touch me. I want it so bad I feel drunk.
I stand on wobbly knees.
"We can make you feel good, Jessica Aspen's voice is a deep