My heart was beating so fast, a knife in my hands, blood on the floor, what had I done I thought. I woke up, oh it was a nightmare I quickly got up and felt unbearable pains all over my body. Oh, I remembered I am still in this shit hole of a home.

Every day my life feels like a mess, a mother who doesin't care about me and a very abusive stepfather who makes my life a living hell, when will all this misery end as I thought?

Samuel, I could hear my name down the hallway it was my mom of course probably going to get another beating for something I didn't do

"Hey you brat she quickly grabbed my head and threw me on the floor, what have I told you about waking up early and cleaning the whole house she scolded, she grabbed a mob stick and began to hit me aggressively I felt so much pain like the pain in my body multiplied after the last beating she gave me then suddenly she stopped to my surprise my younger brother James covered me and he said "mom hit me instead, leave my brother alone, he is in so much pain.

James was just 15 years old and I was 17 but I felt like he was the eldest because of how overprotective he was, he was quite a moody type and has a fierce face even at his young age, I wanted to be a better elder brother to him but sometimes I just felt like I am too weak and I can't protect him enough.

"Monday morning on our way to school"

"Hey James if anyone bullies you at school run to your elder brother here I will beat them up, I said so confidently,

Then he started laughing so loudly like as if I had made a joke, oh brother as he put his hands across my shoulder you know what brother you could study comedy in school, fight really! don't make me laugh as he left and entered his class.

Well, of course, I felt belittled like I couldn't do anything.

"James with his friends"

James, do you wanna smoke? Alex said, why would you ask just pass me a cigarette already as James quickly stretched his hands to grab a cigarette and light it. Hey isn't that your annoying stepfather back Max said

well the bastard isn't back yet I am sure when he comes back my brother will surely receive some beating because of his failed business, well I am ready for him, I am not going to let him harm my brother" James said with a fierce look on his face

James is my 15-year-old stepbrother, my mom got pregnant twice by different men before getting married to my current dad,  James usually hangs out with guys way above his age, he was way different than me, he was troublesome and sometimes scary, one thing for sure he was going to do anything to protect his loved ones

"One Night"

It was so late that day that I slept so late, my legs were heavy I had to push my way to my room and as i laid down on it, I closed my eyes and was about to sleep next thing I heard my door open and footsteps towards my bed I stoop up in fright and then I was pushed back to the bed surprisingly it was James. James, what are you doing on my bed? I said, sorry did I wake you up, I just couldn't sleep so I came to sleep with you hope you don't mind he said, of course, I said. As we lay down he put his arms around me and his chin too close to my face, I was so aroused by his sweet scent that I felt an ejaculation"

He quickly got up and ran to the bathroom