"Then how should it be like?"
Zheng Xu fell silent.
Oh, it turns out he also knows. The way I looked at him in the past was filled with unabashed love, it was impossible for him not to notice it.
"We had a very good relationship before. At that time you said you loved me..."
After saying that, he lowered his head, perhaps because he was afraid, he didn't dare to look at me in the eye.
"Love? What's that?"
Love will not make my power increase with each passing day. Love will not make me soar smoothly. Love will only make me feel sad every night because of one person. Love will only become a weakness to me... Wasn't it like how Zheng Xu made use of my love for him?
So what's the use of keeping something useless?
Hearing my words, Zheng Xu understood instantly, "Wen Wen, you completed the practice of ruthlessness?"
I didn't deny it.
Zheng Xu's straight back slumped down in despair. He reached out to hold my hand trembling, but I threw it away.
"Why...do you want to practice this method?"
Blinking, I answered without much thought, "Obviously to improve."
Seeing that he lost his composure, I thought he wanted to practice it too, "If you want to practice, you need to ask the master first."
Then it dawned to me, "Oh sorry, I forgot you can't practice, you already have Chu Jing."
....
There is done wrong with Zheng Xu these days, he started bringing up the past.
He reminisced about the time when we secretly went to play in the mortal world. It was the first time I saw candied haws, which looked very strange. Zheng Xu bought one for me, but I just tasted a small portion and felt it was too sweet that I refused to continue eating it.
He also mentioned how on his birthday, I learned sewing skills to make a sword tassel on my own for him. Although it was a bit crude, he was still thankful.
How boring.
"The past is in the past. No matter how you tried recalling it here, you can't go back to the past."
Zheng Xu forced his smile on his lips, but his voice trembled a little, "I just think we were so good before, we..."
"No matter how good we were, it was only once. Maybe I had loved you before, but now I don't love you anymore. I don't even understand what love is."
The path of ruthlessness causes the person to lose six emotions and seven desires. Physically, it's still a human but their life has already lost colour.
"How can I do? If you don't know what is love, I can teach you. I-"
I interrupted him, " Although I don't know what is love, I don't need others to teach me."
I may not know what's love but I know that it's definitely not a good thing for me.
The Xian Xia competition is coming, I will not allow anyone to hinder my cultivation.
So after Zheng Xu left, I immediately set up an array to ensure that no one especially those with ulterior motives can enter my courtyard until the Xian Xia competition is over.
.....
The night before the competition, I was returning from my mother's place when I bumped into Chu Jing.
Despite that she looks timid, after our past interactions, I can tell that she is not a good person.
She was holding a porcelain bowl in her hand, which seemed to be containing some kind of mortal food.
"Miss Song, I know you are going to attend the Xian Xia competition tomorrow, so I personally made a bowl of soup for you. I know we have had a misunderstanding before and I hope I can take this opportunity to apologize to you."
I frowned, "No need."
Chu Jing still stepped forward and forced me to take the porcelain bowl, "Because of that incident, I have been having trouble sleeping and eating. I feel that I have offended Miss Song. If you don't take it, it means you resent me, I may die with regrets."
I had almost forgotten about that incident. She looked like she was about to cry after she finished speaking. I wondered if I could just take the bowl and she would leave quickly.
So I took it from her, hoping that she would leave as soon as she said she would.
Seeing that I had taken it, her expression loosened and continued with burning anticipation, "Miss song, please drink it. The soup is good for health."
My patience finally ran out, and I threw Chu Jing out of the courtyard with a wave of my hand and then directly poured everything into the grass before returning my room.
.....
It was a rarely good weather.
I successfully overcame all the trials and finally reach the finale, which is competing with Sha Tian sect to become the final winner.
My mother always reminded me of how the people in Sha Tian sect are cunning, they might use hidden weapons and poison, telling me to watch out.
Strangely though, the opponent kept observing my face instead of my actions which resulted him getting cut numerous times by me.
I didn't have time to think deeply, I just wanted to end the fight as soon as possible.
I deliberately exposed my flaw to my opponent. When my opponent tried his best to give me a fatal blow, I quickly turned the tables around and hit my opponent directly on the back. With the sound of the opponent falling onto the ground, I won the victory of the Xian Xia competition.
When I returned, I heard something big had happened.
Zheng Xu and Chu Jing were imprisoned in the underground prison, it was said that they were colluding with outsiders to harm sect members.
Since I have won the Xian Xia competition, I will naturally succeed my mother's position.
To get used to it, my mother send me to handle this matter.
Stepping into the cell, I could not recognise them.