The world doesn't end after Tanaka's fall. It just shifts, reforming into a new, equally brutal shape. Smaller gangs rise, squabbling over territory. Rumors swirl of new players emerging – older, smarter, less susceptible to my hastily laid traps. Each bit of news gnaws at me. My control, once so intoxicating, starts to feel more like sand slipping through my fingers.
At school, things are a minefield of whispers and stares. My classmates glance at me with wary curiosity – whispered rumors painting me as an unlikely hero, a criminal mastermind, or just plain weird. It turns out the anonymity I used to crave is far less comforting when replaced with the unsettling weight of being seen but not understood.
Megumi watches me with those cool, appraising eyes. Once, I thrived under her calculating gaze; now, it only makes me shift uncomfortably. Sakura, however, treats me with a hesitant admiration that's almost more painful to endure. Her quiet smiles, filled with a gratitude I don't deserve, are a constant reminder of how far I've strayed from any path that could be considered good.
"You should be proud," she tells me one afternoon as we sit in our usual hidden library corner. The school day has ended, leaving the space bathed in the soft glow of the setting sun.
"I haven't achieved anything," I mutter, staring at a half-finished chessboard diagram in an abandoned textbook. "This isn't... what I wanted."
Sakura looks startled, like I've said something in a foreign language. "But...you saved the school, didn't you? And Pops's store..."
"It wasn't about saving anyone," I confess, the words bitter on my tongue, "It was about...power. Controlling things."
Her soft gasp is the only reply. We sit in silence, the dust motes dancing in the fading light making the ache in my chest all the more real.
Then, she does something surprising - she reaches out and places her hand over mine. It's small, slightly calloused from the part-time job I know she has, and surprisingly warm.
"You're...different," she says, a hint of her familiar stutter returning, "From all the others. Maybe that power...maybe you could use it for good."
The sheer naivete of the idea makes me want to laugh and recoil in equal measure. Good? After everything I've done, the manipulations, the lies? But looking at Sakura, the unwavering faith in her eyes…it sparks something I thought I'd long ago extinguished.
"I'm not a hero, Sakura," I say, my voice harsh, even to my own ears.
I expect her to withdraw, to look at me with wounded disappointment. Instead, she squeezes my hand slightly, and the determined set of her chin is almost familiar.
"Then become one."
It hangs in the air between us, a challenge and an impossible promise.
It's Megumi who shatters the moment. She appears in the doorway, immaculate as ever, surveying the scene with a glint of amusement in her calculating eyes.
"Touching moment," she drawls, "But we have more pressing matters."
I pull my hand away from Sakura's like I've been burned. There's a flicker of hurt in Sakura's eyes before it's carefully masked. Megumi, it seems, is immune to displays of emotional vulnerability.
"There's talk of Kenji's old crew reforming," Megumi continues, her tone all business, "They're looking to retaliate, think we were behind his downfall." She narrows her eyes at me, an unspoken accusation.
Before I can process this, she turns towards Sakura. "You have contacts, don't you? With some of the more… neutral players?"
Sakura, startled at being addressed so directly, nods. "A-a few. My cousin works at an internet cafe popular with..." she hesitates, "that crowd."
"Get us information," Megumi orders, her gaze pinning Sakura in place, "Anything on their movements, their leaders, weaknesses we can exploit." Her eyes flick back to me, "Time to get back in the game, Ryu."