He lifted me out of the bathtub a couple more times to breathe, as I could hold my breath for long in pain.Each time though I felt my body last longer under the water, time passed. I felt myself grow stronger and stronger.
One second I was being pushed underneath the water the next second, I was in a blank void.I looked around feeling an unexpected sense of calmness as if I was suppose to be here. So I just walked and walked on as the land started to transform into a cliff and I peaked over it. My eyes turned into needle slits at what I saw.
"How in the fucking hell..."
Below were the child versions of me and the bastard in a camping ground. I grit my teeth as the memory played. My younger self crying at the bastard, getting all the attention he wanted, while I got beaten for being to much of a wimp.But then he walked into the room...
"Markus.. are ya cryin'?" "N-no!" "Don't lie to me, I can hear your tears flowin'"
I still shivered at his cold voice, as back then he wasn't the Sadistic bastard he was now.. I saw him kneel down beside me as he hugged me, and said..
"Who was it.." " *sniff* What.." "Who hurt you~" I saw my younger self cry on his shoulder, as I answered. "T-the C-camp d-dire-ctor! He beat me, C-cause he said I-I should b-be a man and not c-cry..."
My fists balled in anger seeing my past helpless state. This memory was over a decade old. This FUCKING MEMORY. It was when I went to Matthew for help as I had been beaten by the director of our camp. I cried at being neglected, but I was beaten till I bruised because I was seen as weak.
But this was also the memory when I realized, I could never escape Matthew.. His bat shit craziness, killed for the first time at seven years old.. And I fucking know for a fact, in the depths of his twisted soul he felt free.... Because so did I...
The space around me warped as my anger grew... This was the FUCKING DAY, I learned if I wanted something. I was going to have to 'man up' and take it, but I wanted it all I wanted not to feel helpless. Not to Fucking feel alone in this world...