But now, he had lost her too...
"I've lost the two women in this world who loved me the most, haven't I?" Chai Xiyang asked again, his eyes also teeming with redness, "Why, why did I push you away? I knew full well that there would be nobody else in this world who would ever love me as much as you did. So why did I push you away?!"
"..."
Chai Xiyang's hand clenched the rail, each knuckle protruding sharply.
"Because I knew you loved me so, I brazenly hurt you! There was hatred in my heart, and I didn't know how to vent it, and nobody cared about my hatred!
But you did care, I knew you did, and my hatred would only hurt you!
I'm an asshole. I wanted to let loose the hatred in my heart so I put it all on you!
Because I knew that you were the only one who cared about my hatred, the only one who would suffer because of it. My life was miserable, and I gruesomely wanted to drag someone down with me...
