Is life worth living?
Is there any meaning to this?
Why am I even here?
Am I living life, or just existing?
"Next station is Moral's Garden"
I spend most of my time here asking myself these questions.
I've been here for two decades, and I still don't know the answer.
"What's up with his face? He looks like he's dead ahah!" - Said some girl on the train, looking at me.
"Be quiet, he might hear us ahah". - Said her friend.
" He is kinda cute though. "
" A little bit, ahah. "
Sighs
My name is Hill. I'm a normal man, I live Alone in an apartment near my City's School.
I don't have friends or any of that, just a normal person who wakes up, goes to work, and comes back home.
I didn't to college since my parents died when I was young, so I had no way of affording it, I had to get a job, and it isn't that great.
I work at an office, I just send emails and check them. It's a pretty boring job, also the people there are not that friendly, I think it is because I'm new and I don't do that much.
"Did you see Hill today?"
"Huh, hill? He's probably at his desk just sending emails ahah"
My time at school was also pretty boring, I was alone most of the time, it isn't that I'm ugly or anything, I'm just not a social person.
But it's not like I'm complaining, at least I have a place to sleep and my job pays me well.
"Next station is Moral's school"
After work, instead of going home, I like to sit a bit outside, looking at the sky and thinking about life.
I suppose it's better than... playing video games for example.
Fun fact, I'm doing that at this exact moment, just drinking some beer and enjoying the sights.
"Ah... I wish I had someone by my side, it's just that... being lonely, it's... not that good. " - I thought to myself, while I was sitting, in the middle of the street.
"But I guess it's... better to be alo... alone than with bad... bad... bad people..."
"'I'm feeling... dizzy... maybe it's the beer... I think... I'm just going to lay down... for a bit.."
And I fell asleep right there, after a couple of hours, some girl approached me.
"Hm? That can't be what I think it is... " - Said her, all excited.
"It's exactly what I thought, he's just standing here? Is it really him? His hair is black like his, he also looks young." - said the girl looking at me.
"I can feel it, its not him... Its his twin? I guess you are mine now, don't worry, I'll take care of you"
After a couple more hours, I finally woke up, I opened my eyes and saw a ceilling that I didn't recognize.
I looked around, and it didn't take long to realize that it wasn't my bedroom.
Someone had opened the door, it was a woman, She was older than me, maybe in her 30's? But She looked good, She was red haired, and was with sleeping clothes.
"Oh, look who decided to wake up" - Said the woman I didn't know.
Huh? Who is this woman? Why is She here? Why am I here? - I thought to myself.
"Uhm, excuse me..." - Said I, trying to figure out what was happening.
As I talked, She slowly got closer to me and started looking at my lips while smiling.
"Who are..." - Said I, but my heart started beating too fast for me to end the sentence.
She just kept going for me, slowly, like she was seducing me.
I was getting red, I haven't been this close with a woman for god knows how long.
She then whispered in my ear.
" Did you sleep well, darling? "
I didn't know what to do, my heart felt like it was going to explode, that was my end, I was completely obsessed with this woman, by a simple whisper.
"Y-yes... Yes I did, And you?" - I replied, without knowing what to say or what to do.
"Of course I did, I slept with you after all, how could I haven't?" - Said her, with a smile on her face.
"What? She's lying, isn't She? Did I sleep with her? Impossible." - I thought to myself.
"We... Slept together?" - said I not understanding a single thing of what was going on.
"Don't you remember? It was the best night I've ever had... ah, makes me sad that you don't remember." - Said She, with her smile fading away, looking down.
Now that I think of it, I don't remember anything that happened, I just remember falling asleep in the middle of the street, how did that happen?
At least a beautiful girl saved me.
"Sorry, it's just that, I don't remember anything that happened ahah..." - Said I, not wanting the girl to be sad.
"Really? How unfortunate, don't worry, I was just doing my late-night walk when I found you... So I thought I would bring you home, for your safety, of course."
"But when we reached home, I went to the bedroom to put you there, and well..." Said her, getting close to me again.
" w-what? " - I replied, with my heart beating super fast again.
She placed her hand on my chest and pushed me to the ground.
"You started touching my body." - Said she whispering to my ear.
Oh yes, I was obsessed with this woman, she was above me, like she was dominating everything.
Our breathings were so heavy, I've never felt like this.
She was getting closer, and closer, and and our eyes started to close, i placed my hand on her waist, and then finally, her lips touched mine.
I loved that feeling, it made me feel complete again, and it gave... life meaning.
"Hmm, I never get tired of this..." Said she, biting her lips.
I was too stunned to speak, thoughts started running on my head.
"How is this happening? The Last girlfriend I had was in 8th grade, why does she want me? Am I dreaming?"
Well, I don't know, I guess I'm just going to enjoy the moment.
"Lost your mouth?" She asked looking me in the eyes.
"Oh, I'm sorry, you just left me speechless." - I replied.
She giggled, it was so cute, she looked like a fictional woman, but she didn't look real.
"Well, if you excuse me where is the bathroom? - Said I, as I got up from the ground.
"Wait.. don't go yet..." Said she, pushing me back to the ground.
" What do you mean...? " - I replied, kind of nervous.
"There's still... One more thing." - Said She getting close to my neck, with love in her eyes.
"Oh boy, did you know that you have a beautiful neck?" - Said she, fully in love.
"Thanks..." - I replied, with some kind of fear.
"Hey, what are you doing ahah, I need to go to the bathroom you know..." - I replied, while She was getting closer and closer.
"I'm sorry darling, it's just that... It's so beautiful." - Said She, slowly starting to kiss my neck, I had chills all over my body.
"Oh, you sure know how to make a man obsessed with you" - I told her while getting chills, but still with some kind of fear.
"I know love"- Said She, as she kept kissing it.
"By the way, what's your name? We haven't introduced each other ahah" - Said I, hoping to know her better.
Right at that moment, she wasn't kissing me anymore, I felt her teeth, she had bitten my neck, like a Vampire.
" AHH!" - I shouted.
" WHAT? WHAT DID YOU DO? " - I kept shouting.
" IT... IT HURTS AHHH! " - Said I, trying to take her head out of my neck.
"mhmm, my name...? It's Nora, darling." -Said her, looking at me with my blood all over her face.
I finally could push her away with all my strength.
"Wh- What the... Fuck? I need to get out of here. QUICKLY ! " - I screamed as I went for the balcony.
I don't know why I went to the balcony, we were on the 6th floor, I don't know what I was thinking, I just wanted to get out of there.
I just ran to the balcony, and as I reached it, I thought things couldn't get worse... but they did.
My body started to get hot, really hot... the sunlight was so... strong.
My face started to burn, not only my face but my whole body, just burned.
"AH- WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?" - I shouted as my whole body kept burning.
"IT'S BURNING! AHH- IT HURTS SO BAD!HEL-HELP... HELP ME! SOMEO-SOMEONE PLEASE ! " - I kept shouting.
Even my clothes were burning, everything was burning, and the sun was so strong, it was like it didn't want me there.
"Am... Am I a... Vampire?" - I thought to myself, crying, and the tears, quickly faded away with the heat of the sun.
Without thinking anymore, I got on the top of the balcony and jumped, I thought I was going to have a quick death, but it wasn't anything like that, time got really slow within those seconds.
"Maybe, maybe this will end my suffering, yes... this is the right thing to do, all my life I've been questioning myself why I was here... If all of this, had a meaning. " - I thought to myself.
"Mom... Dad, I wish you two were here, I know for sure, that if I had you two by my side, I would've been way happier."
"When she kissed me, it felt like... life had a meaning... but I get it now, It doesn't have one..."
"Or does it have? I guess it doesn't matter now, because..."
" I will never know " - Said I, reaching the ground, as my last tear came out, and quickly faded away.