Ever since I've been transmigrated to this body, even though it has only been three days, I have had mixed feelings.
Well, the deceptive and emotionless traits were compatible or sometimes did have a conflict with each other.
Nevertheless, it couldn't stop me from having emotions or thoughts regarding my previous world.
Sure, I didn't have anyone close to… probably, my old friends there that I hadn't met for the past years, but I was too attached to the world already.
I missed my dog… without feeling sad.
I missed watching anime… without feeling happiness.
I missed my old shanty room… without feeling lonely.
I missed reading novels… without feeling excited.
It's just so funny that I was missing something, yet I couldn't even have an original emotion about them.
That's where I received the idea about the Shadow Embrace.
Shadow is intangible and seems to possess no emotion, performing nothing but following the original.
In short, the shadow is just a fake.
The shadow doesn't have the right to be as emotional and intelligent as the original.
The shadow could be larger than the original or smaller.
But the shadow could never be the original.
Hence, one could assume that the shadow could never have emotions or even intelligence, right?
That's the main idea of my piece.
I wanted others to feel what I felt in this body.
If they got embraced by the shadow that my piece brings, would they finally understand?
Will it reach them?
I want to find out!
I grabbed the sheet music and looked at it for a while.
Then, I frowned.
There seemed to be some flaws in some notes.
There were some instances that the notes were a bit high or even overly high.
While some were too low, possibly could push the audience from the world that the piece brings.
It couldn't be helped since I wrote it yesterday when I hadn't read the piano yet.
I was reading the music backgrounds and even began studying the violin.
Nevertheless, this sheet music was acceptable, at least.
Or should I just make some adjustments first before trying it out?
I glanced at the piano not far from me, placed beside – a meter apart – from the wardrobe.
There was a grand piano standing extravagantly and imposingly.
No doubt it was super expensive.
I would not even be surprised that some famous classical composers haven't owned that yet, for they should only be renting some in the Music Association.
After all, that grand piano costs equal to a middle-grade Tier 2 artifact.
Only the nobility could afford to buy such expensive artifacts.
Even they were the ones who created it.
The grand piano was covered by a plain black cover.
So, I didn't even hesitate before deciding to change the notes on the music sheets first before playing the piano.
This time, I'll be playing in E flat major.
I'll be using a lot of inspiration from great composers.
I had chosen E flat major because it could convey a sense of melancholy, especially when used in slower and more introspective compositions.
It's just a perfect key to playing the Shadow Embrace.
My face remained indifferent as I was altering the notes, but I knew deep down how happy I felt – I should be.
It won't be long before I complete this piece.
The piece that would complete me.
The piece that would comfort me.
The piece that would be with me, who knew everything about me, until I finally accepted living in this harsh world.
If… If there would ever be a chance to come back… if that time appeared, would I still wish for it?
Even if I didn't have a lot of friends there, except my doggy, would I still wish to return to my world?
If I didn't even have that wish, then I must do whatever it takes to live in this world.
Even if I have to become the villain.
After all, I already knew that I couldn't escape this fate.
To massacre all the people.
But I only wished that I would meet a lot of people.
Who would follow me, be with me, and, this time, who would not abandon me?
I hope this piece, Shadow Embrace, will not be the last.
I hope I will produce a piece that it's not about sorrow anymore.
It should be about fulfillment and completeness.
I hope so…
***
When I was done, after writing the altered piece to a neat sheet of music, I pushed my wheelchair towards the grand piano.
I moved forward on the right side, where there was a push button, and pressed on it.
The black cover quivered suddenly and was sucked into the back of the button, and soon vanished.
My face was unimpressed as I moved my wheelchair forward, stopping in front of the keyboard.
I placed the music sheet on the music desk and focused on the keyboard afterward.
The grand piano needed no chair, for my wheelchair already has features for adjusting my seat.
Anyway, I didn't need to check the soundboard or anything because the grand piano was checked daily by Sophie.
I'm always grateful to her because of that.
I pressed one key, and a low and clear noise resonated.
This time, I pressed the black key, and it resonated with different notes.
I kept pressing for a while and frowned.
I slapped my face.
I forgot to tune the piano into an E-flat major.
That explained why the notes that resonated after pressing numerous keys weren't what was described by the book.
Should I call Sophie?
Well, she should be outside.
"Sophie," I said in a soft but loud voice.
"Yes, Young Highness?" She responded from the other side from the other side of the door as she gently opened it.
She didn't need permission to enter, for once her Young Highness called for her, she should be on his side as soon as possible.
Of course, she must avoid panicking.
Once Sophie entered, without even glancing at her, I absentmindedly gazed at the keyboard and opened my mouth.
"Can you tune this grand piano into an E-flat major?"
"I will," said Sophie as she bowed three meters away from me, then proceeded towards the back of the grand piano.
She made some tuning, and I waited.