Elicia POV:

To most people, they don't believe in reincarnation or being born in a new life after death. They usually believe in hell or heaven, it's what keep them sane, perhaps.

But to me, I know for a fact I can't trust in beings like god, after all, if those creatures really existed, I wouldn't be reborn 5 times.

I Elicia Westford Ospherus had lived 5 lives. And in all 5 lives I had experienced painful death all from men. Truly creatures that I hate. Not a single one of them were kind to me even in my death.

In my first life I had fallen in love with a neighboring prince who would often come visit us due to the fact that our kingdom had been in an alliance for centuries.

Alzereus Dutch Lostaron. The third prince of Lostavon he usually come over to have tea time with my older brother, he crown prince. One day we bumped into each other and fell in love at first sight.

When I was still dating him, he was kind, sweet, soft and gentle but that all changed when I married him.

I moved into his kingdom as he became the grand duke and I thought my life would be peaceful with the love of my life but I was so wrong.

Alzereus was mental. He was crazy beyond imagination. He killed people who bothered to even glance at me without mercy and he wouldn't even receive any punishment because he was of the royal family.

I lived in fear, breathing slowly and watching my every move in fear of getting beheaded. And all that fear and anxiety only increased when I gave birth to our child.

When he was 4, I decided to run away with him to at least give him a normal childhood but that all lasted for a short while before he found us and took us back.

He broke both my leg and chained me to the bed. Not only that, the bastard took away my son and raised him far away from me.

All that heartbreak and sadness caused me to break our bedpost and impale myself with the broke wood resulting in my death.

When I just hoped to live in the afterlife either in peace or in pain, I woke up again in my bed when I was 7.

After getting used to being reborn,I decided to avoid Alzereus like he was the plague, only interacting him when needed too.

In my second life, I fell in love with a counts son. Rowen Keith. His family was our personal painter who would paint portrait or any buildings in the royal grounds.

I fell in love with his skill and talent to paint and married him. It was all great for 3 years before he started cheating on me.

Perhaps he thought that marrying a princess meant that he could attract any woman. Little did he know that ladies was only attracted to him because of the benefit he got from marrying me.

Despite that, I still held on and wished that he could return loyal to me but that all failed when I caught him sleeping with my own lady-in-waiting.

Heartbroken. I divorced him but didn't even make him sign the papers before he killed me.

And with that, my second life ended and like usual I woke up and lived my life for the third time.

On that life, I told my father I didn't want to marry anyone and he said it was impossible so he sent me to a far off country close to the east in hopes I could find love there if not at my kingdom.

And I did find myself attracted to a marquis son who served the navy army of the kingdom. And like usual, I married him and started my life with him.

He was great, he had good looks, a good position in the army and a good family.

But what I failed to know is that in that kingdom, he was the most famous womanizer.

In our marriage, he had an affair with so many woman, more woman then Rowen could ever dream off.

I should've divorced him or ran away while I still had the chance but I didn't. At that time I didn't care much about him since I could live with seeing his good face but that all changed when I saw him sleeping with my best friend who I had befriended when I first moved into the kingdom.

And still, I decided to forget about it and continue the marriage for the benefits his position could give me.

I guess the lack of reaction gave him the boost to sleep with more woman and this time, in our house.

The bastard slept with all of our female servants and nearly all of my friends. He even slept with the kingdoms princess despite the kings disapproval.

Even in social events, he would find time to leave and have a quickie with anybody.

And I suck up his behaviors for 2 years before I serve him the divorce papers and surprisingly, he didn't sign it so willingly.

He became even more clingy and stopped his affairs after I served the papers and started being more affectionate for me.

But he was too late as my heart turned cold and I no longer loved him.

His response to it?

He killed every woman he ever slept with and served their head to me. Tears filled his eyes, knees starting to swell from kneeling as he begged me to stay.

I who was shocked and confused, fainted.

So he took that moment to kidnap me and run away with me into the middle of the woods.

Fearing for my life, I was forced to stay with this crazy guy until an accident happened in which I slip and fell down the mountain in one winter morning.

My head hit a log and the last thing I saw was my crazy husband's face that was filled with rage as I felt him drag me before I left that life.

And the cycle repeated again!!!!!

Fourth life, I was thirsty with revenge so I went after my husband's from my past life. Nobody could say anything about me suddenly wanting to kill people I never met before.

Why?

I am a daddy and mommy's girl. My parents did everything to cover up my mistake as I went into a blood lust for revenge to people I never met in that life.

Unfortunately I soon realized I am a magnet for crazy guys because soon I caught the attention of a mafia lord.

He kidnapped me while I was out on my walk and forced me to marry him.

Personally, he was better the my other three husband. He didn't cheat, he didn't break my bone but he was manipulative and toxic.

He impregnate me and I gave birth to his 5 children's. Unlike those three bastards, my husband in my fourth life was someone who spoiled me and lusted over my approval.

If I pointed at someone and said "kill them" he wouldn't hesitate to take out his sword and slice them.

He spoiled me and loved me truly. But the unbearing affection was suffocating and the guy was dangerous so enemy were something I should expect.

He had many enemies that would come occasionally to try and kill me or my children. Luckily, none of my children died and I got to see them live in my old age.

My fourth life was rather chill unlike the life before but I stilled hated it.

I lived in a cage, not allowed to leave and only allowed to look at the outside world through windows.

Sure I had a hot obsessive husband, but that still couldn't cover for his toxic side.

In conclusion, would not try it again.

And thus I died of old age by my husband side and only allowed to see his face as I inhaled and exhaled my last breath.

Now back to the present.

Here I am. My 7 year old self. Three days before the matching event in which I am forced to choose a fiance from the noble families.

In my past life I had never joined the event but this time I decided to give it a try. In fact, I already have a suitor in mind.

"Princess, what color of clothes would you like?" A voice asked from behind me, snapping me back from my daze.

I looked at the maid from the mirror. Anna Ruth. My nanny in all my previous and current life. She is a kind and generous woman who took care of me whenever my parents was busy.

Truly a woman who I hold close to my heart.

"Any color would be fine." I responded with a smile.

Anna just gave me a small nod before walking towards my open wardrobe to pick a dress for today.

"Princess, are you excited for the matching event?" An enthusiastic voice asked from behind.

I glance to my right and saw Maria Ross. Daughter of Marquis Ross. She was one of my most loyal lady-in-waiting in all my past lives.

Although she does get on my nerves sometimes, she is still very loyal and trust worthy.

"There's nothing to be excited about." I spoke sullenly with a small frown.

Perhaps she understood my reason of gloominess since she made her ways towards me and leaned down to my level.

I could see her hesitating either to put her hands on my shoulder or not through the mirror.

She chose not to before looking at me through the mirror.

"I'm sure there will be some presentable or worthy boys there who is worthy enough to stand beside our princess." She spoke before standing up straight and continued.

"If everything goes down, princess can marry my younger brother, he's a good boy trust me." Maria boosted with a large smile on her face, feeling proud of her younger brother.

Of course I am well aware of Maria's younger brother, he was part of an event that could not be avoidable in all 4 lives.

Arnold Ross who was more known as the fourth princess lover, my younger sister. Diana Jeanne Ospherus.

They ran away together when they were 16 and Maria came to me to beg for my help to spare her family since my father the king was outraged that a marquise son dared to run away with a princess.

I of course helped since Maria is someone I hold dear to. But that didn't mean they were free of punishment. The Ross family were stripped of from they nobility and had to move out of the kingdom.

That was the last time I saw Maria.

Thinking about that memory I couldn't help but smile.

"It ok Maria, I don't want to force you brother on anything yet, after all he's only a child."

I would've accepted the offer but Arnold and Diana suit each other more plus he's only 1 years old now and I would feel harsh to put a chain on a child that has just been born.

"Darn girl, why did you offer something like that to the princess." An angry voice asked Maria before hitting her at the back of her head.

"Ouch Madam..." Maria whimpered as she rubbed her head, trying to ease the pain resulting in her smooth brown hair to be a mess.

"Princess, do not mind her, she is just playing with you." Anna said as I stood up from the chair, ready to wear my dress.

"Now let's get you ready." Anna glanced at the row of maid from behind and gave a slight nod.

They all made their way to me and started dressing me.

"Since today is hot, I choose something light so you don't sweat too much dear princess." Anna explained.

After dressing me up, all of the maid step back so I could admire myself in the mirror.

A simple black skirt that reached my ankle with a red blouse that has many flower pattern, tucked into the skirt with red Mary Jane shoe.

My long black hair was put to the front and with that I was done.

"Alright princess, let's make our way to the dining room." Anna said as she opened the door.

I walked out of my bedroom with my lady-in-waiting and accompanied by the two knights that was guarding my bedroom.

We are finally making our way to the dining room where I will meet my family once again.

Had this been my second or third life, I would've been nervous but since it's already the fifth, there is nothing to be worried about.

After all, they all lived a happy and fulfilling life.