I was really just curious.
Then, Yukishiro started showing signs of jealousy towards me. At first, it was just a casual act of pretending to be a fan of Rei, a popular streamer.
But as time went on, I became more and more immersed in the world of streaming and gaming, a world that I was not familiar with.
Honestly, at first, my intention was to seek Yukishiro's jealousy, but gradually, my priorities shifted. I became captivated by the streamer Rei, whom I initially used as a means to provoke Yukishiro's jealousy. I started playing the games that Rei played and made online friends through her community. Over time, Yukishiro's presence in my heart diminished, and my priorities completely reversed.
All I can say is that I was an idiot.
And then, stupid me didn't realize it and the fateful day arrived…
"…king up."
"Huh, what did you say? I couldn't hear you. Speak clearly."
"…We're breaking up."
"…Huh?"
"I'm breaking up with you! Don't mess with me."
"…Huh? Wait a minute. What's gotten into you all of a sudden?"
In hindsight, Yukishiro's anger was understandable.
It was not abrupt or sudden, it was self-inflicted.
"It's not sudden! It's your attitude! I'm fed up. You're selfish, uncute, and you don't think about your boyfriend even for a second! I can't do this anymore! I'm breaking up with you."
"Huh? Are you sure? You're breaking up with such a cute girlfriend?"
"The cuteness was only in the beginning. Ah, forget it. We're definitely breaking up."
"…Really?"
"Yes. Honestly, it was a mistake to date you. Don't ever talk to me again."
"!? Huh? Fine, it's not that big of a deal. Let's break up. That way, I can devote my time to Rei-kun."
"Well, go ahead and do as you please. Goodbye."
Thinking about it now, I wonder if my fate would have been different if I had pursued him at that time.
But I know it's pointless.
And it wasn't long after we broke up that I realized.
All of a sudden, I was checking the notification from my cell phone.
He stopped contacting me altogether. I was stubborn and thought it was okay at first, but once I started worrying about it, I couldn't calm down and before I knew it, I started going through past photos.
All of them looked fun and had me and Yukishiro laughing.
Suddenly, I cried.
And then I realized.
I was doing something terrible.
I immediately unsubscribed from Rei's channel. I cut off all ties with my net friends.
In retrospect, not only did I distance myself from Yukishiro, but I also cut myself off from my friends. Even Yukishiro, who was the last thread connecting me to others, I ended up cutting off by myself.
I didn't want to see reality.
I wrapped myself in the covers and chanted over and over again to go back in time.
I felt helpless, so I tried sending a LINE message to Yukishiro, but it never showed as read.