April 20, Saturday
Like every Saturday, this was a lively one , I woke up at 9 o'clock then had my dinner then , for a change I went outside , the yesterday's suicide was still on my mind , and on the web, I had found a strange website named "unmasking suicide"
At first I thought it was just a normal website, by a weirdo, gen-z, who thought of himself as some anime character unveiling evil and posing as a pillar of justice, the post there were quite normal , but as I scrolled down , and down , suddenly a strange video appeared, It went " wanna see me die" , i didn't even click on the video yet it still opened and started playing, at first I almost closed the video , given the fact that i have an attention span of a goldfish,but suddenly a young highschool girl appeared on the screen and started speaking some unknown language, which seemed Chinese to me,the girl brought a chair inside the frame , then she sat on it quietly then two other men entered the frame and started stabbing the face of the girl ruthlessly, but no screams were heard , a strangle silence echoed throughout the rest of the video,
After stabbing the young girl for probably hundreds of times
And the video ended , with a thanks for watching message
I was stunned , I couldn't believe my eyes , as the girl was being stabbed all over her face , I wanted to close the faking pc but I didn't
Strangely I found myself grinning again
After the video ended I went to sleep
Then here I am walking
As the same video is being played in loop inside my mind while I feel nothing for the girl or myself.
I kept on walking and walking and reached a nearby park, the park was full of people
, as i wade through my way to the nearest bench, I collided with a strange figure"I hurriedly looked at the large person that i collided with,I looked at their facae,she had the same face as the girl i had seen in the video , i lost my breath, my legs numbed , i fell ,
Upon opening my eyes , I was laying on a bench ,I hurriedly glanced all over to find the girl , but I couldn't find her anywhere
She was not there
For a moment I felt relieved but then
I started to feel a grieving sadness
"I wanted to know her" , i exclaimed loud looking at the sky.
After staying at the same bench,for hours, as I kept watching different people pass by , lovers , husband and wife , old people, people with their dogs , people with friends ,
People who were smiling and were happy,
I kept staring at every bypasser, intently, looking at them I wanted to see them dead , I told to myself"I want them dead " or rather I wished they were dead .
Their happiness appaled me , it frightened what is me ,as i kept wishing for their death
The kids ,
The happy old people,
Children who were holding hands with their parents,
The happy couples
Beautiful peoples
Tall Peoples
Every one of them
After being at the park for a while , I returned home , nothing interesting happened on the way ,but I still enjoyed the long walk
Then after having dinner with my family, I went to sleep