"Right Mac?", Gwen says and I can think of just one thing
"I am going to kill Zac"
I realize I said that out loud based on the snort Gwen lets out. She looks amused and disappointed at the same time.
"Zac didn't tell me", she says and I don't trust her one bit.
She stares at me for a few seconds before she sighs and looks away, "Carter told me."
And that doesn't sound like a lie.
"Are you here to stop me?" I ask.
The last thing I need is another person trying to stop me, and tell me this is a fruitless crusade. I already know the truth, I know this won't give me peace, won't bring my love back but I must do something to stop this pain in my chest, a distraction is all I ask.
She glances at me and the boys once before she walks, "I should but I am not going to."
I look at her surprised but she never gets to see it, she walks on ahead, never turning back once.
Arthur runs past me trying to catch up with Gwen.
"I am sorry miss but you are?" he asks
"Gwen", she says.
"Griffen", Merlin adds.
A flash of recognition passes through Arthur's eyes so fast that I almost miss it, I would have If I had known Nyx Hunter for years. Every moment I spend more time with Arthur, the more and more similarities I find between him and my love.
As if like she heard my thoughts, she stops floating around to stare at me with a disgusted face, like being compared to her brother is the most heinous crime I could commit.
"Lovely to meet you Ms. Griffen", Arthur says as he holds out a hand to shake.
Gwen glances at his hand with open disdain, "Just Gwen will do."
And she was off again, moving along the place like she had done this many times before, we walked right behind her, always just a step behind.
when she finally stops, it's in front of a computer, she pulls out a pendrive that was previously attached to it.
She finally faces us, "I am guessing you have questions?" she asks as she pockets the pendrive.
I just stare, a million questions in my head, Arthur is the one to answer, "Yes, a lot."
I continue to stare.
Gwen stares at me right back, "Quit staring and close your mouth. The last thing you need is to add flies to your diet."
I look at her with an expression that can only be explained with multiple Question marks.
She just smirks, "You and Zac aren't the only ones with a rebellious streak."
And that's that.
Gwen glides through Arthur's questions never once answering in a way only a person with the name Griffen can do.
Gwen looks as disinterested as she always does, but a slimmer of smugness breaks through.
"Well it's been a lovely time, but I think it's about time to leave, don't you think?", She says and before any of us can object, she drags me away with her leaving Arthur and Merlin in our dust.
Before I know it I am trapped in her car and we are driving away.
She says nothing, I say nothing. If only my love would do the same.
She complains and sulks in the backseat calling us both cowards and idiots.
Gwen breaks the silence finally and doesn't that just prove that she has and always be better than me.
"Of all the people you could have teamed up with it had to be a Woods."
"Nyx's is a Woods," I snap.
"Former Woods," she corrects.
"She's a Hunter," she adds. And I am so tempted to snap back but I know that's the truth, Nyx had forsaken the Woods name long before Bella Hunter had taken her in.
My love glares at me and dares me to tell her that she's not a Hunter, she's met with silence.
I look out the window, and the silence drags,
till it breaks.
"Nyx met with me before she died," she says.
and I stare at her.
Because what else am I supposed to do but that?
Gwen doesn't take her eyes off the road, her hand trembles where she has held on to the steering wheel.
I can't take my eyes off her. I couldn't tell you what expression I had on my face, but I know it must have been an ugly one. Hatred and despair swirl inside me but one emotion is greater than all the rest that it even shocks me, betrayal.
Gwen continues not knowing my internal turmoil.
"Just before the explosion, she asked me to meet her at our usual cafe, I had hoped it was something stupid but when I saw her face in the cafe I knew, I just knew she was going to do something stupid, that this was her way of saying goodbye and that no matter what I did I won't be able to stop her."
"She didn't want you to know, and I couldn't tell her no..."
"You knew!" I accuse, my anger exploding all over.
"YOU KNEW SHE WAS GOING TO KILL HERSELF AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME!" I yell.
everything blurs in the background, I don't notice that the car stopped moving long ago.
"BECAUSE I KNEW IF I HAD TOLD YOU I WOULD HAVE LOST TWO FRIENDS INSTEAD OF ONE!" she yells back.
She finally looks at me but that isn't right Gwen shouldn't be crying, Gwen shouldn't look so hurt, Gwen's strong and brave, She isn't- she isn't whoever this person in front of her is.
I backed into the car door. I look at her, truly look at her and I am scared at what looks back at me.
I run.
Away from Gwen, away from my friend wondering if she's why I am running or something else.
I am haunted by Gwen's tears that night.