I look at him from the back, how he is running as if there wouldn't be a tomorrow.
He looks happy in this moment, he must be relived to finally be free. He already smelled the fresh air from the outside and he has also already seen the sky. He knows what it feels like to touch grass and feel the warm sun tickling your skin. He knows what freedom tastes like, I don't.
For the first time in my life I get to experience all those things. He must have missed the outside world more than I did, since I never got the chance of being outside. You can't miss something if you never experienced it, right?
He sits in the grass now, I sit myself next to him. We don't say much, what would we have to say?
At the end of the day we are just two boys without a goal in the big world.
We are alone, but we have company.
I turn around to say something, but I stop as I see him staring into the night sky, as if it's his first time seeing it. The stars and the bright moon get reflected in his clear eyes, and I think this might be the first time where he just looks genuine. The attitude that he has sometimes is gone and it left a calm facial expression on him.
Right now he doesn't look like the strongest and most dangerous person on this earth.
He just looks like a boy.
"Stop staring at me you weirdo. You like boys now or something?"
He stops looking in the sky and now turns his gaze onto me. He looks slightly annoyed, but not mad.
"It's not like that."
I say slightly confused, because why would he think I like him, only because I was looking at him?
"You looked so different. Is it because you're happy now that you're free?"
I ask but he doesn't respond at first. He ignored me for about 5 minutes and continues staring into the sky.
"I don't want a relationship right now sorry about that. I'm taking a break from trouble, so don't bother even wanting to become friends. You will be gone after we rescued Zyane anyway."
His face looks expressionless. Why do I feel like he is misunderstanding something..?
"I do not fall in love. With no one. Not guys, not girls and nothing else either. I'm not interested in all those things I don't want any trouble."
He laughs a little and claps his hand on my back. I don't understand that gesture.
"Well if you're not interested in me anyway then maybe I wouldn't mind becoming friends either!"
I'm a little confused, but I don't say anything against him. I would have a lot more profit to have him on my side and it's not like I despise him. I don't exactly like him either, but he can be a decent human being if he just wants to be.
We don't talk for a while. We just look at the sky and the surrounding area in silence, while we listen to the sounds of the night.
I'm not scared, even though I used to be scared of everything I didn't know.
Now I'm not scared. It's rather the opposite, I feel incredibly relaxed. I think for the first time in my long life I can just lay back and feel the cool night breeze on my skin, without having to worry about anything.
The professor is dead and so are many other people. I'm glad we made it out. I Wonder what happened to all the people I knew? Did they make it out? Did they die while trying to escape?
Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I never met Shin.
I probably would still sit in this same room, rotting all day and letting all kind of torture get over me. I was so different than now.
Maybe there is hope in this place, filled with grey and white colors, called earth.
Maybe even I can get lucky some day and find true happiness.