But her mother went mad after hearing the words that came out of her mouth.
"How can this be? Who wants to marry a girl that is already old for marriage?" her mother looked at her in disbelief.
"It happened anyway, and I can't back down from this anymore. Prince Yun Shu will personally come with betrothal gifts to propose to me," she said emotionlessly.
"But isn't he two years younger than you? How can he propose marriage to you?" She felt as if the world had turned 180 degrees.
"Besides… you, you are a man. How can you get married to another man? This doesn't make any sense!" she almost cried out loud, but held herself back.
"This can't be done. Yun'er, find a way to break off this marriage in any way!" she looked at the beautiful boy in front of her who was sitting there, dressed in a beautiful girl's dress.
Yes, that's right. Bai Yunxian was actually a man, not a woman. But he has been hiding his true gender flawlessly for years.
So he became pretty skilled in disguising himself. But even so, he was not able to escape from the cruel future that awaits him.
'If it's like this, then be it. I can endure everything no matter what it takes.' He looked at the sick mother in front of him.
'All I need to do is to get my mother well, I can endure everything for her.'
He smiled at his mother as he assured her, "It's alright, mother. After everything is settled and you get well, I'll think of a way to break off the marriage."
"So you don't need to think about anything, just focus on your medication and get well as soon as you can." he smiled like an innocent flower in its bud.
But Mother Sun Ling was feeling extremely guilty and helpless towards Bai Yunxian. All these years, she made him dress and act like a female although he was a male.
She can't help him in anything, nor can she protect him from all these vicious people.
She has been bedridden for years, this made her feel extremely painful as a mother.
Bai Yunxian already sacrificed so much, but there was even more suffering written in his luck.
"Just let me be, Yun'er. You escape from this place and start a new life." She proposed to her son with tearful eyes.
"Mother! Don't say such unlucky words! I Don't have anyone in this world but you, please don't say something like this ever again." He said as teardrops fell from both his eyes like a stream of rivers.
'I will never abandon you, Mother. Not even in my next life!'
He could still remember how she died in Bai Qin's hands in his last life, when they made an attempt to escape from Bai Mansion.
He couldn't let her suffer like this for the next life.
***
Bai Yunxian has died many times before, but everytime he died, somehow he came back to life again.
No matter how much he tried, he wasn't able to escape this cruel life circle. He was just like a dead person whose life essence was taken away.
He tried to escape from those horrible men so many times, but he didn't have any chance for this.
Before he died the last time, His only salvation was Yun Shu. His only hope, only light in the darkness.
Everytime he regressed, Yun Shu was the only man he met that never tortured him. Whenever he was tortured by these horrible jerks, Yun Shu always helped him just by staying by his side in silence.
But all his hope was gone when he saw these cold, indifferent eyes. He knew from that moment that there was no escape from this.
'If so, then just be it. I don't care anymore,' was what he thought for the last time before he died.
But this time, something has definitely changed. He can feel the change of events somehow.
'I don't care about myself, just let my mother have a happy and safe life.'
He prayed sincerely. But there was a commotion outside.
Bai Yunxian's eyes grew cold when he heard the female voices that were coming from outside.
'Oh! Looks like they are already here.'
He stood up and stepped outside to greet the uninvited guests.
***
"Where did Elder sister go? Let us in! We came here to congratulate her!" A little girl said who was dressed like a doll. Bai Xun was the most youngest of them all and also the favorite daughter of the General.
"Yeah! Just now, my father told us that the Elder sister got a marriage proposal, and she will get married soon." The second sister, Bai Qing, said with a smiling face as if she was very happy.
"It's a good thing that the Elder sister is finally getting married before the Fourth sister. This was what we all were expecting. Ah! There you are, Elder sister!" Bai Lu, the third daughter of the general, exclaimed happily as she saw Bai Yunxian.
Bai Yunxian smiled coldly at them. The smile didn't have any life in it. He can still remember how they treated him like trash and tortured him before he was reborn.
"Yes, sisters. It's good to see you, I'm really getting married." He smiled pretending like a shy maiden.
"Prince Yun Shu was the one to propose this marriage, I didn't think that someone as good as him would actually propose to me!" He cupped his face as he acted like he was very excited.
This made the other girls boil in rage and jealousy as they looked at him in rage.
'How can this old boned girl have such a good marriage proposal?'
Bai Xun was the one who felt the most jealous from all of them. She was 13 this year, and still unmarried.
Before she saw Yun Shu in a banquet, not only her, almost the whole Imperial City was aware of the reputation of Yun Shu.