My mistake as a teenager

Chepter 1

Taking away my smile and happiness without replacing it is d least u can do when u know u re happy with her u wouldn't have let me into ur life now my life is a mess when this was not the actual plan getting into my life u noticed u can't leave now m hurting in silence I didn't find happiness with my parents nor do I with the person I called my lover

I have always known u will leave and you acted according to my expectations and sometimes I got to ask myself am I really dating a man or an onion cause sometimes when the pain became unbearable I had to let it come out in tears I taught I found a safe heaven I could trust I didn't know u couldn't be rely on nd I smell used and felt stupid for believing your lies

When you know you wouldn't stay you should have just let me walk out of your life during the first abortion when I was still okay buh u promised it won't happen again and I believe you buh it wasn't up to Three month I had to go through another abortion pain again which later turned out to be d last pregnancy and abortion I would have even when I know my chances of having another child are very very slim

Even though you didn't feel what am feeling do u not even have any sympathy left in you the fact that you have a son doesn't mean you should destroy me buh does destroying me fix you and her

Eventually it turns out you made me your sex tool you used in passing time and you think I would forgive you after all

the pain you have made me pass through even when I know the heartache am going through is hell bent I will forever always hate you I didn't have that in the picture from the start buh have drew it in my plan book and it noted already u re nothing but a dick

It the beginning of the year when everyone look for a firm plan to keep themselves busy I fortunately found one buh I had to learn I was an art student before my parents asked me to switch into science after having my o level results as an art student and I did it wasn't an easy task buh I started attending classes and do some readings to back it up so I can make my papers I obtained the jamb form and waec form and did some lessons too cause my aim was to get to the top have prayed for

One sunny afternoon I met this guy who kept asking for my contact but I kept refusing at first I wasn't willing to give it out but later did we didn't talk with each other the day we shared contact buh later did the day after and we started chatting since then and ask some questions about me nd I also do the same and he further asking maybe I am into any relationship buh I said no cause am not into any and he told me he happen to be single which I find very difficult to believe

I mean how can a full grown man tell me he his single he said he just broke up with his girlfriend few months ago and he asked me why am single and I told him my previous relationship doesn't end well

Week later he end up asking me out and my reply was yes we started getting along he asked me out few weeks to my birthday we started getting addicted to each other

A day to my birthday he told me he would love to host me buh how will I tell this guy I have a strict parents but I have to quickly cook up some stories and tell him I like staying indoors on my birthday he asked if we could see each other d day after my birthday I said yes I would branch at his place on my way coming back from lesson in the afternoon

I sent him my picture to post of course I am your girlfriend I expect you to post me with words under it cause it my birthday even if you don't do it all the time buh at least I own that day buh I couldn't find myself around his status he said the makeup I did look horrible I feel bad buh didn't cause he wasn't d only person who said that I didn't get angry cause I taught he was right

The next day we talked and he asked if have gotten to lesson and I told him I just want to leave and am coming to his place soon me getting to his entrance he asked me to leave and I was like why would you say that ?he said his neighbors are around and I was like is there anything you re hiding from me ? I mean how can a full grown man like you be scared of your neighbor not seeing your girlfriend he said he would love to tell me the truth about himself

At this point I get really really scared his he a criminal?

His he a cultist?

Have he killed someone?

I don't know

He said he have a wife and a child they are not legally married and he his not in love with her anymore he only allowed her to stay all because he couldn't leave his child he said ladies leave him when they find out he had a son and a woman under his roof after he had spent on them then I told him if he wants me to stay I didn't just want to get into a relationship whereby I will leave so soon he promised he won't do so he later asked me where we can see and he picked his friends place which we later did

The first time I went there nothing happened we talked and I didn't stay long and when I was leaving we kissed I sat on his legs buh mu legs we shaking OMG he noticed I replied with a faint smile

I got home that day he asked me why my legs were shaking I told him I wasn't comfortable and he asked me if I was still a virgin to him he didn't believe since I knew his friends place he will always ask us to meet over there and I think am happy with him