Loki returned to the sleeping chamber Thor had prepared for him. As soon as he got back to the room, he threw himself onto the soft big bed, covered his eyes with his hands, and lay there silently.
Helen ran over with a "thump, thump, thump", bounced onto the bed, grabbed Loki's arm, and began to shake it: "You're not crying, are you? Don't cry! Don't be angry with her, let's go play in the backyard!"
Loki's arm was pulled away by Helen, he actually wasn't crying, but the expression on his face was very complex, he suddenly sat up by the bed, Helen stared at him. After a while, Loki turned to Helen and said, "Don't tell anyone what I'm about to say."
Helen immediately patted her chest and said, "Don't worry, my mouth is as tight as Doctor Shiller's!"
"Just because I know you're like him, I'm asking you not to say anything," Loki rolled his eyes and said, "I know your reactor can record sound, turn it off."
A little downcast, Helen lowered her hand and coughed twice, the light from the reactor in her chest faded, she muttered resentfully, "Damn, the trick Pikachu taught me, it doesn't work anymore."
Loki reached out to hug her, it was simply a gesture of closeness and persuasion, but when he felt Helen's warmth, he retracted his hand as if startled.
Helen also sat on the edge of the bed, her legs dangling and swaying. She propped herself up with both hands on the bed, looked up at Loki and said, "What do you want to talk about? Don't worry, I'll keep it secret. We can pinky promise!"
"It's nothing." Loki shook his head gently, his expression became complicated as he frowned slightly, "It seems Her Majesty the Queen has met more than one Loki. But perhaps that's normal…"
"The Loki she has, Sylvie, is quite special. Perhaps other Lokis who have entered the Time Management Bureau also want to find her as revenge against the Bureau's director."
"But it seems they didn't get any benefit from Her Majesty the Queen, but that's also normal..." Loki sighed lightly, "She has achieved even more startling accomplishments than Odin, and those Lokis that only know how to yell and shout certainly couldn't be her match."
"Then what are you upset about?" Helen asked in her crisp voice, "You're stronger than them, what are you worried about?"
Loki took a deep breath, rubbing his cheek with one hand, "Before I was taken away by the Time Management Bureau, I felt very anxious. At the time, I didn't know where this strange unrest came from, but gradually, I figured it out…"
"I thought I was eager to save Asgard, anxious about the twilight of the gods that could come at any time, but maybe that's not the case."
"Thor already has everything he wants, the throne, honor, the respect of the Asgardians. But what about me?"
"What do you want?" Helen asked.
"Because I don't know, I feel irritable," Loki said with a tight mouth, "I think I want power. Only by getting power can I save the twilight of the gods, but I don't know how to get the power… Challenge Thor? Challenge Odin?"
"Or just stand in place, waiting for them to give me what I want?" Loki shook his head gently, "How long should I wait? Until the day before the twilight of the gods?"
"But if I have to fight for it, I shouldn't tell Odin, 'you should divide your son's rights to me', nor should I tell Thor, 'what you give me is not enough, you must let everyone respect me'…"
"But now, I have discovered…" When Loki said this, he paused for a moment, as if he was reluctant to say the next words.
Nevertheless, he soon resumed, "What this Thor said was correct. Asgardian society influences both Thor and I equally. Thor has become arrogant and reckless due to their praise and adoration, and what about me?"
"Why is it that when I desire something, the only thing that comes to mind is to stand still and wait. The mere thought of pursuing it immediately turns into a plea to others?"
After listening to him, Helen blinked and said, "Or what? Do you plan to overthrow them by force?"
Helen slowly leaned back, showing a "don't drag me into your suicide mission" expression. Loki gently tapped her on the back of the head, Helen giggled, and Loki also smiled.
"Her Majesty the Queen taught me a very important lesson." Loki said with his eyes down, "I don't need to wait for anything, and I don't need to strive for anything."
"I am the prince of Asgard, the brother of the Divine King, this is my inherent status, and the royal family should by nature possess power."
"The reason why I feel I have nothing might be because of what Thor said, I am constantly seeking the approval of the Asgardians."
"I feel that I must have a bargaining chip that makes them respect me. Be it an ability on par with Thor or Odin's approval, only then would they respect me, treat me as they do Thor..."