The lifeless air blows past my face as I take one conscious step after another towards my mother's tombstone.
"Oh mom…" I say, crouching in front of it and placing the fresh flowers I bought for her, "I still can't believe you're gone. You left me all alone."
I sniff back the tears, even though I want to cry until there are no more tears left in my teary gland.
"You don't wanna know how crazy it has been ever since you left. Yeah, you witnessed some of my crazy life, but it's still a whole lot more."
"Sometimes, I want to end it all. I want to come join you. Maybe then, my soul can find the rest it needs. Maybe then everyone who hates me and has hurt me will finally let me be and be happy."
A soft wind blows and the scent of the fresh roses fills up my nostrils. I inhale the lovely fragrance, but it does nothing to dilute the bitterness still filled in my heart.
