Cersha's POV
The first few days of school were always the worst. Listening to the sound of people scream like a couple of animals annoyed me. I hated seeing people that I never thought I would see again. I prayed for long holidays even if it's one week. Being around such a noisy, dirty and judgmental environment was never for me. Every had someone and it was hard for them to let new people in.
My style and personality were so different from the people at my school, sometimes it felt like I was a caged up bird and there was no way out of my misery. I was too weird to be around marvelous people like them. As a child I was always considered boring and weird ,and I was never given a chance to explain myself.
But I was not so lonely I hang around one person 'Lynda' but it seemed like she was only around me because she was doing me a favor, she had multiple friends and I was always left out of all the nice things she did with them. Lynda is a beautiful coloured girl with straight hair and a body of a runway model, she had dark drown eyes, pinched lips and thin eyebrows. Lynda and I had been friends since childhood and we were so close. Till we got to high school of course. High School changed her and changed everything for me.
She started drifting away when she got the attention from boys. Boys wanted her and it got to her head. Lynda went from guy to guy like it was nothing. Let's not even get to her grades because ever since these boys got to her head she's been focusing on them instead of her school work. She became the beauty with no brains kind of girl.
Hi, I'm Cersha Rivera and and this year I'm gonna be in the 11th grade. I'm a lonely melanin girl with a big heart. I actually blame myself for being so lonely. I've gotten so used to people leaving me that I avoided being close to anyone.
I'm chubby, I love eating, most of my clothes don't fit and my mother spoils me way too much. I guess that's why I look so big. Welcome to my miserable life.
Most of my school years were spent following Lyn around, being the third wheel, being the laughing stock to her pretty friends and just me being me, WEIRD. Lyn's friends were just like her, pretty, tall, with perfect boobs and big booty kind of girls. They preyed on shy and uncool girls weaknesses. I never knew why they always had to be so cruel.
The first days of school had a different feel. Like you had just landed on another planet or different school, all of a sudden. Well of course it was obvious people had completely changed. Attitudes had worsened and people looked way better than they did the previous year, well all of them except for me. Even Simphiwe the girl that no one paid attention to last year was getting more hugs and kisses than I've ever gotten in a year. Why couldn't anyone give me a hug? It's all a girl wanted.
My school had really pretty girls. I couldn't wait to finish so I could just be away from such people who didn't like people like me and thought I was weird. The only time people didn't find me weird or push me away is when they needed help with school work and shit. Yeah yeah yeah the weird girl in this kind of stories is always the smart girl too.
Back at home I always felt secure and, had the confidence and courage to do things I could never do at school. Like putting on make-up and dressing up like one of the pretty girls. As a child I never really had it all and when Lynda came into my life I was convinced I had it all figured out. That she was gonna be my best friend for life and no one was gonna separate us. But I guess I was wrong and it all collapsed right before me.
My Mom thought it was weird how I never talk about school and how I've never mentioned a boy when I talk to her. I never thought me and my mom were ready for that kind of conversation. She was a little too clingy at times and it made me wonder if she would let me go live my life once I was done with school. When my dad passed, my whole world changed and I was forced to just face it and continue with life cause that's what he would have wanted for me.