Chapter 13 - Shades Of Complexity

Ray and Cecilia approached the place where their class representative was. Ray was shocked and quickly covered Cecilia's view. It was because their class representative's current condition was very unpleasant to look at.

The class representative was hanging by a rope, completely unclothed. Ray thought of not showing Cecilia what he saw.

The frightened face with wrinkles that were unpleasant to look at was clearly visible on Ray's face.

"Ray, take your hand off my face! I can't see."

After saying that, Cecilia felt the vibration of Ray's body trying to cover his sight. She felt Ray's hand vibration very clearly. After realizing that, Cecilia finally understood why Ray acted like that. Especially with a slight gap between Ray's fingers that was slightly open, allowing Cecilia to see a little of what had happened.

Cecilia didn't understand how she should react after seeing that disgusting thing. She chose to play the role of a clueless person confused about the situation in that place.

"Lia, we should just run away. This is my fault for not stopping you when you ran earlier."

"But..." Before Cecilia could answer, Ray immediately grabbed Cecilia's hand and ran as fast as he could.

Cecilia couldn't resist Ray. She couldn't resist not because she couldn't physically resist Ray. But because deep down in her heart, she also felt scared.

"Ray, why did you choose to run?" Cecilia shouted, blaming her brother. Her face wrinkled, and tears flowed down her cheeks.

Cecilia blamed Ray for the choices Ray made. But she didn't fight back, she chose to agree with her brother's choice to run. But deep down in her heart, she didn't want that. That's why she made Ray look guilty for their current actions. She did it to lessen her guilt about the situation that was happening.

Cecilia wanted to believe that she couldn't resist Ray. She wanted to use that as an excuse so that she wouldn't feel guilty for leaving her other friends. But deep down in her heart, she knew that she had also given up, just like Ray did now.

Cecilia had lost the spirit to save her still alive friends.

Ray and Cecilia met again with the black-robed person who had previously left the room where the class representative met a tragic end.

Ray took the initiative to sneak up from behind towards that person, while Cecilia was left standing still, looking at the floor.

Ray slowly approached and successfully surprised the robed person from behind. He hit him directly on the side of the head near the neck using his elbow. Making the person fall and immediately lose his breathing rhythm due to shock.

Ray saw that person trying to stand up, he was scared and panicked. Instinctively, he hit the person again until he fell back down, then he climbed onto the person's body.

With anger over the death of the class representative, Ray beat the person with the motive of revenge. Feeling unsatisfied with what he had done, Ray threw the person towards one of the windows. The window shattered from the impact of the body, and the robed person's body was thrown from a height.

Fortunately, right below where the person fell, there was a plant fence, and the person got impaled and couldn't rise again. Ray smiled when he saw that.

But his smile disappeared in an instant. Suddenly, an unbearable nausea attacked him. Making him vomit right then and there.

I just realized... This is the first time I have killed someone with my own hands...

If I were still in my world, maybe I would be in a panic. But this is a different world, I won't be judged for killing someone else.

In my old world, I would still be punished even if it was in self-defense. But this is a different world...

Ray smiled after realizing that.

I knew it... This different world isn't as bad as I thought...

The feeling of nausea still bothered him now. Even though he felt relieved and also happy. But still, he realized that he had killed another human being for his own interests and with full awareness.

Oh shit, what a mixed feeling. I did the right thing! I didn't do anything wrong!

Ray suddenly remembered Cecilia's presence there. He realized that he had been doing all of this in front of his little sister. He finally turned to Cecilia.

But Cecilia had been looking down the whole time. Seeing that made Ray sad.

Ray immediately went to Cecilia and hugged her tightly and lovingly, like a family.

Cecilia at this moment reminded Ray of himself when he was first called to this world. Just silent like an lifeless statue, as if tired of everything around her.

Remembering that made Ray rethink the terrible memories with Anderson. He began to wonder what really happened to him at that time. But this time, Ray chose to focus on what was happening around him.

Seeing Cecilia being silent, Ray took the initiative to carry Cecilia on his back. Ray finally ran towards the exit while carrying Cecilia on his back.

Why didn't I stop Cecilia at that time? I should have stopped her...

I should have known that going back only brings disaster. If only I had chosen to stop her, maybe Cecilia wouldn't end up like this.

Ray gritted his teeth.

I know... At that time, I still hoped that I could do something.

Ray realized that the real reason he didn't stop Cecilia from running away was that he wanted to save his friends and look cool in front of them. He wanted to show off his cool side to others, which was actually just his own fantasy.

Realizing that made him ashamed of himself. Especially since his actions also affected his little sister.

No one would doubt it if people said that Cecilia and I are truly family. Even our mentality is equally weak and cowardly.

I'm such a bad brother... I feel relieved because of my little sister's suffering.

Ray smiled stiffly, what a ridiculous person I am, embarrassing...

In the deepest part of his heart, Ray felt relieved because he realized that he wasn't the only human who had a weak mentality.