Are you trying to embarrass me again?

You deranged child...GET AWAY FROM ME

Every mother's duty is to take care of their child and love them. Cause every mother would think that having a child is a blessing. But my mother was somehow different. She always hurt me physically and always shouts at me. She throw words at me without a care that if it would hurt me or not. It was always been like this ever since. I know deep inside me that I can no longer take this anymore. If I end myself here will mother look at me even for a second?

KRINGG~~

The school bell suddenly rang while I'm in the middle of thinking. How can I forgot that I'm in school. The bell has rung which means break was over. I stand over the bench I'm sitting in and head to class immediately. While walking into the hallways I heard murmurs behind me.

Girl A: That monster is here again. Of all the people to bump into why him?

Girl B: He also didn't have a bento box with him again.

Girl C: Stupid don't you know that his mother never made him a bento lunch box ever since?

Girl A&B: Really?!

Girl C: He and his mother don't get a long you know...

Girl A: Pipe it down he might hear us!

I'll just pretend that I didn't hear all of that. And it's not like I care about what they say. I keep on walking in the hallway without any care about what the people are saying. I reached my classroom and I wait for my teacher. Classes are just so boring. My mind keep on wandering over things that I shouldn't be thinking right now.

Yamaichi....Yamaichi Shuji can you stand up?

Reality suddenly hit me when the teacher suddenly called me. I stand up in panic. Damn, how can I zone out while the teacher is discussing? I stand up in panic.

Shuji: Yes, sir? I said while panicking.

Read lesson 7 page 14 out loud the teacher disappointedly said while his hand is on his forehead.

Shuji: People who falls into despair can never go back. Only the people who have mustered the courage inside them can break through despair. Only them can believe such thing as 'Hope'. I said out loud awkwardly.

That's pretty weird sentence that I read out loud. I kinda feel embarrassed.

Good job, Yamaichi. Now we will proceed to our discussion.

I sat down while being embarrassed. Of all the sentences I can read, why does it have to be hope and despair? It sounds weird. I decided to listen to the teacher so that my embarrassment will go away. Without noticing, time passed by and the bell has rung.

I put my bag on my shoulder and I walked away to the classroom. I was about to go home when I suddenly had the urge to go to the rooftop. Deep inside I know I wanted to end myself someday. Maybe this time I will have the courage to end myself on the rooftop. I opened the door of the rooftop and I felt the wind touch my face. It's so good to be here in the rooftop. This is the place I always stay when my problems slaps me so hard. My comfort zone, the rooftop. I wish to die here , in my comfort zone. I dropped my bag in the floor. And mustered up all the courage I have to step on the edge of the rooftop. This is the time, I bet! The time my problems and my life will end.

Without a doubt, I step forward and embraced myself and smile independently. Finally! My problems will end and I will be freed from this living hell. I was supposed to jump when a guy's voice suddenly broked the silence in the rooftop.

Are you really eager to die, Shuji Yamaichi?

I was so shocked that I turn around quickly and saw a guy with a red hair in the right side of the rooftop's door. I didn't even notice that there was another student here in the rooftop.

Shuji: Who are you? How long have you been here? What are you even doing here? I said while being rattled about what's happening.

I didn't came here to answer all your questions you know? The red haired said.

The way he talks....I know that I won't get along with this guy. But who is this guy for real? I don't see him in school at all. He wears an ID and he also has a school uniform so that means he's not an outsider. So who is this red haired guy?

If only looks could kill, then you might already killed me... The red haired said.

Damn, was I staring at him too much? Such an embarrassment.

AKA is the name. And I am in here since the bell rings. Does that satisfy you in any way? He said.

Shuji: That doesn't sound like a real name..

AKA: It's such a waste of time to tell someone who likes to suicide my real name.

He pisses me off. He don't know what I have been through so he don't have the right to say that.

Shuji: Fine then. It's not like I care about your real name at all.

AKA: You don't even realize how significant your life is.

My life? Significant? What is he saying? Was my life ever been useful? Even my mother called me useless so how can he say my life was significant? My life was never been useful to anyone.

Shuji: You don't know anything about me so don't say anything like that. I was born useless and I will die useless!

AKA: Do you ever have faith on yourself?

You keep pretending you don't care about how people judge you but in the end you do. You forgot your worth just because everyone despise you. You always see your mistakes and you never saw your worth. I don't know why a person like you is fit in SJA.

Shuji: I.....Y-you....I said while trembling. My eyes started to water.

Without realizing my tears started dropping. He was right. How did he know? How did he know the real me I have buried in my heart for years? I can't control my tears. I started sobbing like a child in front of him.

AKA: If you value your life even just a little bit, then come to SJA.

Shuji: SJA? Isn't that the skilled assassin's base? Why would I go there? I said while wiping my tears.

AKA: You'll know soon enough.

Will I meet him again? Now that I think of it he is the first person to know who I truly am. I....I want to meet him again someday.

AKA: Don't worry we will meet again.

So we will. Then I should go. I was curious of him about how he knows me well.

Shuji: Then I will go tomorrow.

AKA: Not yet. Go to SJA next month. There will be recruitment for assassins. Practice how to make your powers strong. I'll be waiting.

I was about to say something when he suddenly disappeared. AKA...just who are you? Will my life change if I head to SJA? What powers are you even saying?I wiped again my tears before heading home.