7 years have passed... Karu has finally finished the book of Hero Karu, he has no more journeys to read and now he is starting to reflect on his own...
"Well that was disappointing, but now I know the Demon King is truly stronger than I thought.".
Karu has retained his childish personality since he was a child, but now his way of speaking is much calmer. The reason for that was simple, he was not a cute kid anymore.
Karu finished reading the book while he was at school, he started on trying to figure out a way to defeat the Demon Kung that would be better than what the hero was able to achieve.
"Hmmm, Heri Karu lost... I guess there are two things behind it-".
A man walked in the room he was in and he said. "What are you pondering deeply about again, Karu."
It was Arlan, his master. For the past seven years, Karu has still not made a single friend. This was of course all intentional, absolutely intentional. As Karu always just read books and trained every day he had no need for any personal affections.
"I am ending my school year this year.". Arlan then questioned "Are you sure, with your achievements, you could go to the 'Magus Academy'.".
Karu, ignored all of Arlan's words and just changed the topic on his own. "Arlan, what do you think of a way to remove emotions?".
"Remove emotions? Well... when someone gets traumatized, I guess he can lose emotions...?". Arlan had no answer, and everything that came out of his mouth was just empty words.
'I knew you would be useless-"But is that all you have?". Karu was still not looking at him, Karu's eyes were fixated on his book.
"Yes..." Arlan couldn't answer properly as he just noticed something. Karu has always read that book, that in Arlan's eyes, were absolutely empty, but was just a single blank page. But there was something odd today.
"Stop staring at my book like you want to burn it.". Karu finally looked at Arlan, then Arlan replied, "Is it just me, or am I seeing the other end part of your book.". Karu looked up and down from Arlan and the book. "Duh, cause I finished it. I know i'm the only one who can see this book, but understand, every story has its end.".
Karu stood up and walked to the door and left while saying "Well I have to go, the next time you'll see me is probably in the after life, see ya old man.". Like it was just a normal occasion, Arlan just stood there and did nothing. But he understood it, that was the actual last time he would see Karu. "Ahhh, I can die now..."
Karu went outside of the academy building and jumped to its roof. Karu stared at the bright sky and even the shining sun. "Losing emotion...". With magic covering his eyes, even the sun can't pierce it.
Karu stood up immediately and wandered off far from the academy.
***
For 12 years, i've lived a long life. To be a hero I need to be perfect. And to be a hero, I need to truly be perfect.
Walking through the forest is one of my favorite things to do. As I circulate my magic while walking, and talk to the different parts of mother nature.
"Do you know a way to lose emotions, tree?". Hero Karu lost to the Demon King. Well, he killed him, but as he lost a lot and even his own soul, everyone can agree who wins. It's the Demon King.
"Do you know a way to lose emotions, flower.". Hero Karu lost because he was too weak, and he couldn't handle losing his friends. To lose emotions...
"Do you know a way to lose emotions, little rabbit.". I mean... I could always use what Hero Karu did. After losing his parents at the age of twelve, when he came home after his last day at school.
"Did you know, I'm done with my school term, tree stem.". Hero Karu, closed his heart and hated his own self for being weak and unable to reach the village faster, which gave him the infuriating idea to always repent for those he failed to save, because he arrived late.
"Do you know how to lose my emotions, leaf.". Which, he just made a fake heroic personality so the trauma he experienced at those moments will just pass him. I mean, it's a good way to remove emotions, but well, it's more of escaping the sadness, other than removing it.
"Did you know trauma can remove emotions, dead rabbit." I mean that just means, I need to get a big enough trauma to remove my emotions completely. But traumas just make you run away from things. Then, what if you can't?
"Can you kill someone, big bear?". By just creating a trauma and making the trauma as close as possible. The two will overlap so much, you can never run away, you have to face it, which will destroy your emotions. Well at least that's what I think.
"Did you know murder is fun, dead bear.". You can always just remove the important things by yourself, and magic, you can never run unless you kill yourself. "Right, burning forest?".
***
"334... 335.... 336... 337..."
"Mom! Where are you?!"
'Why is Karu home already?'. I was practicing my sword everyday as usual. Though my age would be considered old by now, the sword has now become a part of me. A day without training would make my day feel so empty.
I entered the house, as I was training behind the house, the place we used to always spar. 'My son, has become so powerful that I can't even handle him anymore.'. I saw my son holding his sword and just standing in the middle of the great chamber of our house. 'It was a good choice to remodel the house.'. I looked at Karu and said, "What do
you need Karu? You're a little early today.".
"Mom, how do you lose your emotions?". Karu asked me a very weird question. The tone and the topic was very much like him, but why would he ask me that? Me, and why that? "I don't know... But I do know someone who lost all her emotions after an incident.".
Karu looked at me and replied "What happened?". I answered the question as brazen as I can. "She was raped intensely until she lost all her reason from the pain and exhaustion."
Karu then remarked "Well I can't use that.". I was curious and asked. "Why, do you need help with anything? I'll help you with everything you need, just te-". Eh, why does my arm feel pain... "Well, thank you Mom, i'll use everything you have.". What? What? Did Karu just slice my arms, what? Is Karu going to kill me? Why? I raised him my whole life, so why? I loved him very much, so why? I trained every day to help him, I never took a rest when he was a baby, I always helped whenever I could, even if it was as little as my capabilities can do, so why?
"Why... Karu... are you ok... Did you just cut my arm.". The feeling of my arm was definitely painful, but years of intense training has made me able to handle the pain, but why? Why is my own son trying to kill me?
"Who are you? You're not my son!".
"Don't worry, i'll make it as painful as possible, I need it.". What? What do you mean painful. Painful? Who are you and what have you done to my Karu. "Who are you!"
"Mom it's me Karu, I know it's hard to accept, but I know you know me so just accept it, I need your life mom."
I fell down to the ground, losing so much blood my head can't... even...
My legs... they are gone... my son... Karu... Is it true... have I just been avoiding it... the truth of your true personality... No! You are a nice boy, Karu...
"Bye mom, thank you. My heart aches so much. Now unlike Hero Karu, I can't just kill or avoid the ones who took my mothers life, cause I did it."
My days go and repeat and now... if I show my current self to my past, she would be shocked. She probably won't even be able to move for days 'Haha'. I am not a murderer in an endless field of war. My hands are not full of blood and death. My hands are now full of my sweat and his life.
"The pain in my heart hurts so much. As I was swinging my sword I could definitely feel the hesitation. But now my heart hurts so much I can barely breathe, I can feel like throwing up and even fainting. Are you still awake mom?"
As I got older, I placed all my life into taking care of you, that will be my mission and only mission. I have escaped a wretched past and entered a wonderful motherly phase of my life. Even if you were not my own, I am thankful that I found you, my son, Karu.
"Oh but before that, I have to burn the village and take everyone too."
That is all, my son...
***
Well, now that I have burned everything, kt seems like it's time for me to go now. This village was my childhood, even if I had no friends at school the people here were my closest companions.
My heart aches so much I actually feel numb now "I think it's working.". I can't even move my body any longer. Tears pour from my eyes and my body had little to no more blood vessels because of my tight chest.
'I never knew my body would even hurt... Is this why Hero Karu lost, well now it makes more sense why I should get rid of this nuisance.'.
Well it's time to go no-
'Oh the demons... almost forgot about them, well now I have a story.'.
I'll go and fight them and rest afterwards. "Aghh". Did I just get stabbed from behind, where did he even come from. I sliced his head off, but that was unexpected. It seems even my senses have become duller.
I sliced and sliced the demons, but soon the effects of the pain and even lack of blood started to catch up. 'Hero Karu took care of them so easily, yet here I am, emotions truly are heavy.'
I ran after sometime, I needed to replenish some blood through my veins as even my body moved like I was a stone statue.
While running I face them back and forth till all are killed. 'Ahh, I can't move anymore... as for what I know... scouts will come here the next day later... I'll just wait then.'.