During the night, she dreamed again.
Somehow, she always had dreams when she spent the night outside and couldn't sleep well.
But fortunately, this time, the dream was not a gruesome scene before her death, but when she was a child.
It seemed to be the same early fall, she and her little friends were playing under the big locust tree, and at the intersection, her grandmother, dressed in an old-fashioned pair of long coats and embroidered cloth shoes, shouted from afar, "ZiZi, come home for dinner--"
She ran and jumped home, and in the yard there was a wooden table with two simple dishes, plus a plate of Grandma's pickled crispy cucumbers.
While eating, she threw the rice grains that had fallen on her clothes to the ground to feed the ants, and in her ears was her grandmother's fine exhortation, "ZiZi, you have to study hard, study a lot to be smart, and smart people won't go hungry no matter where they go ...."
Grandma was a woman of the old times, did not study, and always thought it was very good for girls to be able to study.
Perhaps it is because of growing up with such expectations, Su Zi grew up with extremely high demands on herself.
To get the best grades, to go to the best school, to do the most beautiful career, even love, she is also quite picky, and aspire to the famous books depicted in the soul and the heart of the melding.
In layman's terms, it's platonic love that values spiritual companionship.
She has never fallen in love with anyone, but because of her own excellence, there has never been a lack of suitors around her, and Mu Zenin is the longest-loving one.
After a long time, everyone slowly acquiesced to Mu Zenin and she is a pair, other suitors have been interested in the withdrawal.
Looking at the age of marriage, grandmother often broken thoughts, the old man's health is not good, always worried about the death of the granddaughter in the world alone, if you can get married, at least there is a dependence.
She did not want to tell the old man to leave regrets.
If you get married, Mu Zenin is undoubtedly the best choice in front of you.
--Can't find the person I love, then find a person who loves me, this is not a kind of happiness.
The wedding date was quickly set, people sent their blessings, the Mu family's young and talented third young man, and Qingjiang's most outstanding female prosecutor, looked like a perfect match.
However, just a week before the wedding date, grandmother suddenly passed away, the old man did not see his granddaughter put on the wedding dress.
Grandmother's death hit her very hard, the loss of the world's only family, she was grief-stricken, if not for the consideration of Mu Zenin's love, she could not even survive a simple wedding ceremony.
In the old country, there is the tradition of mourning, mourning period taboo dress food, more taboo sex.
Now times are different, this kind of thing if raised, I'm afraid to call people laugh, but she immersed in mourning, really not in the mood for that thing, and Mu Zenin happened to be very sick a, so this matter was the two temporarily put down ...
Despite being married for a year, the two have always kept their distance and kissed each other very little.
Could it be that because of this, that's why he was with Qiao Jingjia?
Now that I think about it, she really wasn't a qualified wife and didn't go all out to run the marriage.
... Even so, he shouldn't have lied to her.
In marriage, love is just the icing on the cake, the most important thing, really, is loyalty.
...
Mu Zi quietly lying in bed, she has woken up, but feel so tired, so tired do not want to open their eyes.
A dream through the entire first half of her life, the scenery dazzling, failure and wretched, and now, she is physically and mentally exhausted.
The sound of fluttering wings was heard in her ears.
Mu Zi opened her eyes and found that the little crow had flown to the bed at some point and was stepping on the quilt, looking at her with a crooked head.
Its appearance looked radiant, its feathers were black and oily, and there was a cluster of short, thin white hairs in front of its forehead that looked like eyes at first glance.
It could already flutter several meters away, in a short while, it would probably fly away.
Mu Zi thought this in her heart and couldn't help but feel a little melancholy.
She didn't love keeping pets because she couldn't bear to part with them.