Even after shutting down all the windows, and keeping myself in the closest room I still can hear the sound of thunderstorms. I can feel the water dripping down from the glass window kissing the ground so harshly.
It's been years but I can not seem to forget how this rain and thunder have witnessed my misery, the way it's pouring has wiped my all desire to be loved. The greyness in my life is getting one shade darker than I thought I would forget those memories, although I knew more than anyone that I never wanted to get over this feeling no matter how I was just left to suffer and watch the shower of love for one and thunderbolt for heart.
I wiped my tears away and got off the bed as soon soon I heard the faint footsteps outside my room and I sighed.
"do you think you can barge in like it's your apartment?" I growled while leaning against the door frame and folding my hand in front, not that I wanted to just intimidate but also keep my shaking hand from his Eagle eyes.
"Obviously, everything that belongs to your is automatically mine", He said as he is saying the most natural thing in the world and ruffled his hair as he approached me.
I narrowed my eyes as i knew what is coming next
"don't you dare hug me without changing your clothes and washing your hands", He stopped his hand in midair luckily, and grumbled back
"ALRIGHT".
"why are you here?" I asked already knowing the answer, he would leave all his meetings for me to make sure I'm not alone while it's raining.
"I thought my sister would be missing me, and here she is scowling like a thirsty crow, well i was bored in hospital, not many patients to attend today". He said casually as those patients who are now in the care of other doctors were not his responsibility while moving towards the room he claimed his the day I bought this apparent.
"Okay I am not missing you either I'm here to entertain your bordem, so dear brother take your sweet feet away from my apartment towards your not-so-many-patient", He dramatically took a 180-degree turn as he said "Ouch, you can't be so cruel to make me drive back 150km again in this nasty weather, will you?".
Shaking my head I stopped making any more effort, It's always like this without exception that he would come and stay with me all the time after that incident whenever this weather wrenched open all the memories I have buried in the deep corner of my head.
while closing the gate he smirked and said "We are not alone sis, get him back inside and set the table for the night", Bang! I instinctively closed my eyes moved towards the door and picked up the bottles of wine left by him. I knew by heart that my ear would get no rest tonight.
he made his way towards the couch shuffling the wet hairs. i put the ice in my glass not caring about the cold I will get tomorrow if not that then surely a sore throat. i didn't put wine in his glass or else it would've been so strange for him that he would throw another million questions of caring to know if I'm good.
"So, why can't you move out with me? what is so special about this apartment?" Kevin said with the same caring and soothing voice I have been listening to this question ever since....
"keep showing up without notice like this and I will think of going back to America ALONE" I took a sip of my wine and looked out at the rain begging the closed window to let in, but it goes unanswered as it slide down to nothing like me.
"why? why are you doing this to yourself?"
"Have you seen a flower? It stays alive even after being plucked from the plant and slowly starts to wilt and eventually die when everything squeeze out it, I am just plucked, Kevin, you can have many surgeries in peace my brother", my eyes felt heavy, last I saw was Kevin draping the blanket carefully over me while patting my hair.
I need to stop being vulnerable like this but I hate I just can't help in front of him. he can just fucking see through me. i wish i could slap the conscience in him to get his own life than caring for a sister-who-can't-be-fixed all the time.