When I Met You And When I Lost You

It all started when you first looked at me with those eyes. And since that moment I knew that I had fallen in love with you. Though it wasn't the right moment. At the time we didn't know anything about each other. We didn't know each other's name's, or the past that dragged us both down. But even though I didn't know anything about you it didn't stop me from falling uncontrollably in love with you. The only thing that was holding me back was me. I was a lost cause who had nothing to lose, someone no one really cared about. So I never asked you out or even try talking to you. Until one day you emailed me off of the school computer. At the time I was dating you're best freind. She had a breakdown during class, and you told me to go check on her. Though I never did. I didn't know what love was, so I didn't know what to do. After minute's past in Mr. Wittenberg's class, we kept emailing each other. You told me I could trust you, but I had a hard time trusting anyone. You also said that I could open up to you, and that's when you seen the true side of me. The lost cause that I was. The mess my life had been. Then you told me to keep moving forward. And hearing that from someone I knew I can now trust, it comforted me. You made me feel comfortable. Though I never told you that. Days had passed, and we got to know each other. I had no idea that we would become close, and comfortable with each other... but we did. The only thing that was wrong was we never spoke to each other in person. I was scared. I was scared that I would say or do something wrong, and mess everything up. And each time you'd try to talk to me... I'd walk away. I didn't want to make you feel like you were bothering me, but I feel like I did. Then we spoke about it on Gmail, but I couldn't bring myself to tell you the truth. Instead I just told you that I didn't like to speak to people, and that I liked being left alone. But truly I wanted to be alone with you. I just couldn't bring myself to say it. So I stayed quiet. Weeks passed, and you knew what was bothering me, and the things that made me how I was. You never judged me for it, or even leave me. You stayed and comforted me.