Bai Yu Xing and Xi Chen have no idea what kind of feelings Jane Tong is harboring during this time alone.
When the door opened again, it was another rescue by Shen Xiujin.
The footsteps in the corridor were hurried, and the crowd was on edge with each rescue.
Jane Tong was like being forgotten, everyone's mind was on the man who was being resuscitated.
No one said anything, until the tossing and turning until the evening time, the doctor announced that the crisis was temporarily lifted.
But it didn't end there; in the five days and five nights since she arrived at his side, near-death crises such as this one had loomed over his head.
Five days and five nights, eleven times.
She had counted, mentally counting down the number with each resuscitation.
She didn't know why she did it.
She didn't even know if she had the strength to continue, in her mind, to resent him.
She couldn't even understand herself, so how could she figure out Shen Xiujin.
It was an early morning, an early morning with a glimmer of hope.
She guarded his hospital bedside, has been accustomed to staring at his blood loss and thinning cheeks all night long, quietly watching, until even she could not carry her own exhaustion, still do not dare to sleep deeply.
At the end of the night, she sat in front of his hospital bed, looking at the face so familiar that she would never forget it in her life, and sometimes she would be so obsessed with it that she would have a vague evil thought in her heart - that she would be free if she died.
But whenever she thought that the man would die and leave this world, the pain that rolled through her heart almost prevented her from breathing.
It wasn't even clear to her whether she was looking forward to him being alive, or if she was looking forward to him just never waking up again.
"Don't you look forward to him waking up?" Bai Yu Xing asked her through gritted teeth.
She couldn't give an answer.
"If he doesn't wake up, you here, won't it hurt!" Bai Yu Xing agitatedly used his finger, pointing fiercely at his left atrium, questioning the woman who didn't have a single tear in her eyes.
Will! It will hurt! Almost without thinking about it, her soul had already cried out deeply: it will! It will hurt! It hurt and hurt!
"I've tried many kinds of pain before." She just said this, not knowing if Bai Yuxing could hear her or not, and not caring if she was saying it to Bai Yuxing or to herself.
I've tried many kinds of pain before, and have already eaten through many kinds of pain. You ask me if it will hurt if he doesn't wake up. Yes, it will hurt, but that's all it will hurt. Anyway, the pain and all that has long since been numbed.
Yes, numb. She said to herself over and over again. As if that won't hurt, but how she felt the air was heavy and oxygen-deprived breathlessness: "I'll go out to blow the wind."
Bai Yuxing clenched his fists behind her, he, who had no right to blame her, had a grudge against her indifference.
However, if she was cold and uncaring, for several nights in a row, she refused to leave the hospital bedside, guarding the person in the hospital bed.
Bai Yu Xing silently turned his head to look at Shen Xiujin lying on the hospital bed.
...
It's night.
This was the only night that she slept through exhausted.
That tired, lying on the side of his hospital bed, she just slept through it.
In the early morning, she was woken up by a noise.
Opened her eyes, around the bed, surrounded by people.
She first saw Bai Yuxing and Xi Chen on the opposite side of the bed, only that both of them had an agitated expression on their faces, and they seemed to be looking at ... She followed their gazes and looked at the hospital bed ... violently!
The pupils suddenly contracted!
She just froze with her mouth open, stupidly without blinking a glance, looking at the man on the hospital bed, blinking at her.
Winking???
Suddenly waking up, all the sleepy worms in her head ran away at once!
Shen Xiujin, woke up!
Her heart was filled with joy, but the next moment she realized the endless joy in her heart, and a wave of self-loathing spread to her heart.... Why did she rejoice for him?
And why should he be happy for him?
She took this self-loathing and vented it on him, turning it into words and attacking it:
"I have not shed a single tear for you. I will not cry for you."
At that moment, everyone snapped at her in anger, and Xi Chen pressed his anger and droned, "You're overdoing it!"
"Ah Xiu just woke up, and you're irritating his words like this? Do you really want to piss him off?" Bai Yu Xing followed closely behind.
Jane Tong immediately regretted her words when she finished speaking, but refused to show weakness, not saying a single word of apology, stubbornly pursing her lips tightly without saying a word.
Suddenly a voice:
"Big sister, do you hate me a lot?" A big man's voice, but aggrieved and sad, like an aggrieved child.
Jane Tong stared dumbfounded at the man on the bed who was full of aggrieved and sad: "You ..."