"Squeak ~" a sound, piercing brakes, the driver stretched out his head, angrily cursed: "Sick of it, want to die Huangpu River is in front!"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry ..." Jane Tong hurriedly greeted, while somewhat grateful, fortunately this driver braked quickly, only suffered some trauma.
Xiao Heng coldly glared at the driver, "Can you speak? There's still a reason for hitting someone?"
Xiao Heng was fierce, the driver was a bit scared of him, cursing and swearing, "Small couples quarrel, go home and quarrel, run on the road to make trouble, fault." While saying this, he drove the car away.
Although Xiao Heng had a ferocious attitude, he also knew that this was and could not be blamed on the driver. He took another look at Jane Tong, she didn't fall too hard, but the skin trauma is for sure.
He hurriedly went to run towards Jane Tong, "Jane Tong, don't move, I'll send you to the hospital."
"Don't you come over!"
Jane Tong dropped to the ground, her expression became calm and
In the pouring rain, on the muddy ground, she tilted her head back to look through the rain curtain, her coarse rattling voice, slowly sounded:
"Mr. Xiao, I don't need any happiness. I don't need redemption either. Right now, my life, it's fine. Please stop disturbing my life." And stop intruding into my life at will.
When everything was immersed in darkness, that beam of light was not salvation, but mistake and sin.
Xiao Heng's face changed again and again, he lowered his eyes and swept towards the person in the mud in the rain, the heavy rain also hit his body, wetting his brow, he ignored the woman, lifted his foot and walked towards her.
Jane Tong's complexion changed drastically, "Don't you come over!" Her rough voice, roared!
Rejecting this man with practical actions, barging into her world to come.
"Mr. Xiao, do you know what I am?" In the rain, she laughed softly a little, the rain curtain covered the hurt under her eyes, her smile, however, was even brighter, "Mr. Xiao, do you have money? You have money, you are the master. I only recognize money. You come to East Emperor with money, I won't let you down."
She said, "Mr. Xiao, I'll be waiting for you in East Emperor."
Xiao Heng looked at the woman in the mud in shock, getting up from the ground on her hands and knees, limping far away with her back in the rain.
Her words were still echoing in his ears: are you rich? You have money is the master, I only recognize money. I will not let you down if you bring money to Donghuang.
Qin Mu Mu said to him that Jane Tong loves money and is capable of doing anything for money.
He didn't say anything at that time, and understood Jane Tong's difficulties.
However, when he confessed to her today, and put his heart in front of this woman today, how could he have not thought that even so, this woman also chose to love money more.
Xiao Heng does not blame Jane Tong for loving money ... Is there anyone in this world who does not love money?
However, there is some loss of the choice that Jane Tong made today.
In front of her, one is his Xiao Heng decades for the first time moved to decide to take seriously the feelings, the other is the vulgar money ... but this woman, seems to love money more.
Xiao Heng stunned in place, until the distance can no longer see Jane Tong's back, he snapped, and then wanted to chase over the time, no trace of her.
Reaching out, he knocked on his head, "Thinking of a fork in the road ... This woman really loves money, if she really loves money, what is more appropriate is to hold on to yourself, right?"
Instead of pushing him outward, grasping him is grasping money, isn't it?
Immediately afterward, Xiao Heng was puzzled ... why? Is it because of the surname Shen?
The more you think about it, the more you feel right, Xiao Heng's face reveals confidence: "surnamed Shen, Jane Tong will accept me sooner or later."
...
Jane Tong hurriedly returned to the dormitory, as soon as she entered the house, immediately closed the door, as if there was a beast behind her chasing her.
The clothes on her body, when she fell just now, rubbed, but fortunately the driver stepped on the brakes in time, fortunately she long clothes and long pants, and did not suffer a very serious fall injury, the palm of her hand in the heart of the rubbed through the skin, is not a big deal.
Hastily dealt with the palm wound, picked up the cell phone on the side, hesitated, and called Su Meng: "I ... want to take a leave of absence today."
Su Meng was surprised for a moment, and purposely took the phone away, looked at the cell phone screen, determined that it was Jane Tong who called, she was still a little surprised: "Little Tong, what happened?"
"... No, a little tired, want to rest for a day."
Su Meng "Well" a sound, some relief: "That's fine," she very boldly agreed: "You ah, finally know to rest. Success, take a good rest today, don't worry about the things here."
Hanging up the phone.
Jane Tong stood up, walked to the small wooden table by the bedroom window and sat down, pulling open the drawer with sluggish movements and taking out a notebook from it.
After her release from prison, she didn't have any hobbies, no spare time activities, this notebook, then became her only pastime, accompanying her tedious life after her release from prison.
She has not kept a diary for a long time, the latest diary, the content is: three years apart, I saw him again.
There were no unnecessary descriptions, no moody descriptions, just a statement of this one thing.
Spreading out the notebook, with a ballpoint pen clipped inside, Jane Tong picked it up and slowly wrote:
Xiao Heng suddenly appeared, he asked me again, willing to be his girlfriend.
I have always thought that the initial inquiry was just this big boy's whim, a sudden whim.
I really didn't see him again.
But today he appeared in front of me again and asked me the same question.
I was tempted to take it as a joke.
But Xiao Heng doesn't, and I saw how serious and persistent his eyes were.
He said he was serious, and the look in his eyes, told me that he wasn't telling a lie.
He said that you do not need to make efforts to get close to me, in exchange for me to get close to you, he said that he will make me happy and will not let me shed tears.
Happiness ah ... who does not want it?
There was a moment, I was heart, right, otherwise, I think I would not have suddenly asked him: what does Jane Tong look like in your eyes. ... If I didn't have a slight heartbeat at that time, I wouldn't have asked this question. What I'm interested in is not Xiao Heng as a person, but what Xiao Heng calls "happiness".
I want to see how much difference there is between the me in his eyes and the me in reality.
He said that I am strong, brave, bold and courageous ... This is not me.
I'm really selfish, I can face to face to break their own humble their woes, the most embarrassing side, show in front of him. I could have told him to his face: no, I am not the wonderful look you said.
I can let him see with his own eyes now I: humble, weak, incompetent, indifferent ... and selfish!
When I want to tell the truth of the moment, I saw the sincerity of this big boy's eyes, he looked at my eyes are very persistent, very serious, very sure, but also very ... focused.
At that moment, I had selfishness, I suddenly did not want him to know my ugly appearance.
I know that I will not fall in love with him ... because the heart that has long been withered and dead, with the installation of a pacemaker, can only mechanically beat, without the ability to love people. I can not respond to a sincere feelings?
But this world is now one of the few willing to not with color gaze, seriously focused and sincere look at my gaze ... I suddenly very afraid, such a gaze into and all the other people the same contempt and disdain.
He added: Try it, how do you know you won't be happy if you don't try it?
I just know - never be happy!
What qualifications do people like me, burdened with a debt of human life, have to live under the sun to enjoy happiness?
To be happy with the life that A Deer exchanged for mine?
Ridiculous!
But I was even more disgusted with my own nastiness!
Though I refused to admit it countless times, it was the truth--
I fled ... not simply because I owed A Deer not daring to hope for happiness, I knew I was dirty, and in the end, I had to use a person who had passed away to escape Xiao Heng s feelings.
Do not contact it again. He should also not appear in front of me again.
In that case, it's fine.
Life can't make waves in a puddle of stagnant water, that's what I need most right now.
I can't stand the storm, I've raised enough money, and when the man gets tired of it all, it's time for me to leave.
Closing her notebook, the woman stood up and pushed open the window, letting the rain hit the house from time to time.
The rain was cold, freezing to the bone, and she cringed a little, clutching her arms, but her mind was clearer than ever.
She was wide awake, wide awake to what she was doing right now, wide awake to everything she was doing.