'Perhaps, these were signs of an image that was about her but she was not even present during the event, nor little was she aware of it.' Nana thought to himself, as he made his way into Edith's window and slid his way onto the floor from the surface of her nylon curtain fabric.
And he was still just next to Edith and suddenly wondering away into the magnetic attractions and of the images in his head from that reality during that Event. Perhaps, it wasn't even her but a much digitalized representation instead and he didn't know what to do.
He was outside Edith's window, wondering about things now. That the space in Shisa was beginning to get much smaller in the spheres of existence and he felt that there wasn't much left to do here as the equilibrium of consciousness was falling out of it's scales suddenly, and they needed to make their ways into An anytime soon. He began to remember how the visual reality content sprung into the reality like an image that moved into a reality.
'Maybe i should just tell her about what happens to her at the mirror event. Like how she would have died if she had come to that Event on that day. And perhaps that meant that they would have to have sex in order for the portal to An to open because secretly, inside his mind, it was how Shisa may be able to swallow An slowly and that would slowly heal the metaphysics and structures of Shisa with measurements that requires metaphysical design.'
"Would it have been a much better thing to you, if i weren't a cat being? and you'd be able to put your trust on me like you would with another human being." Nana appeared to Edith, in the balcony of their garden
"Wow have you arrived already, i've just fallen into a day dream about a very scripted scenario of obscenity and obscureness, it blinded my sight for a moment as none of the intentions in my soul wanted to see such a dream, but it felt like a revelation that was being lifted to be disclosed onto me, however passing the dream on wasn't like a certificate of achievement or anything, even though i was awarded for my dignity as well as my humility both, you awoke me right after. haha. haha. It was more of a dream of God knows what, revelation to me." She awoke to a joke of an epiphany of sarcasm that she felt around her and she didn't feel the need to express it or experience it, therefore she chose to simply ignore the presence of unholy intrusion from the outside, from people she had no relations with, from people that she would never want to know, ones that degraded the purpose in her. Yet their only intentions were to remain invasive of her privacy in order to pull her down to the bottom of the land when she was ready to take off from Earth and it's gravitational force. This power nap and it's revelations frustrated her immensely, yet she remained centered and rebuked all the need for her to feel dragged by a mockery of a dream.
"Im joking but you seem to always be busy by willing to interrupt my solace." Edith said as though she knew there was a tension inside him about the instincts and visions she has been having about him, that he just isn't willing to express to her and that her intention was to sarcastically indicate to him that he didn't have to refrain too much from concealing such aspects of sexuality and creating unnecessary gap between their friendship and in a way this challenged his knowlege about the ways of understanding such grey areas of living. They were friends atleast for now, perhaps they were going to feel a loving connection of attachment in the future. She wasn't entirely sure about it because, right now, there was nobody else in her life that she accompanied and considered a trustworthy company of hers and the conversations that they have been able to connect to, unlike the others that did not usually understand her nature in which she is able to communicate indepths and to the soul, doesn't usually take just anyone to do that with.
"Well, infact, i was just about to confide to you about what had happened in that Mirror Event, and it wasn't particularly any kind of an event, almost like it went out of order and faltered into polar images of profanity, somehow, with you inside it." Nana paused and rested to take a breath from such perverse explainations, for a certain reason, it took on his distinct chivalrious personality. "I, for one thing also know that you had never gone to that event with me. I was trying to keep it from you, as it may disturb your mind but, i only felt that it would be at my best interest to tell you the truth." He continued and exhaled his charm out at her, the charm of innocence, that which he intended.
"Hah! I knew...You must've hidden something. Nevermind. I don't actually want to know if it was only about me because i pretty much know the truth and i'd never do such a thing, but since you said it was a reality that you could invoke, doesn't it mean that it was derived from your own fragment, like a reality from the figment of your imagination about me..huh huh.." Edith said this and joked in laughter but Nana's cheeks began to redden as he felt embarassed and a little bit challenged with the shocks it sent his abilities to remain platonically oriented with her because that concerned the thoughts and emotions that would be embarassing and way too personal for someone to know.
"Er..well. It never occurred to me in that way but no, if you were not present or if you have never participated in a public sexual activity, i think it should have never appeared in that event. Perhaps, my magic diffused into something much scattered and particulate and it must have become a glitch because most participants of the event saw it too, i suppose they were all very in an emotionless state of consciousness and perhaps it didn't matter much because they were not given the temporary ability to experience the perceptions from the existence of an animal reality. It felt like a gift bestowed for very less time." Nana sweated a little and sighed right after...he didn't know what else to express to her.
"What? what kind of a visual representation are you talking about, does it have very intense sexual rendition about me." Edith said, as she chuckled from a mental affection from an already crass exploitation of her understanding of sexual freedom. Perhaps, she was always wrong because she could never be either one of the way people would percieve the nature of a goddess with two opposite attributes, and only because the people arund her made her that way.
"Um yeah i was hoping to tell you that is what happened but i didn't know how to construct it in words to explain to you and now you've opened a new aspect about what it could have been instead, that the reality may have appeared in the form of a fragment from my imagination of you but i refuse to agree with you as that would appear so lowly of me, do you really take me for such a person. Someone that would have such impactful desires of fantasy or lust that i would want the others to see into, maybe you have slightly misjudged my character but mostly, i would not want to realize that i have jeopardized your image or stature, as your impression of me. But why, its almost like you read my mind." Nana walked towards Edith from the back and spoke to her these words while doing so.
"So does it take alot of inhibited skills to resist how to repell thoughts of sexual fantasies about somebody and more importantly, the ability to tell me about it right now according to a man. I have a plan, maybe we could go erase that reality and so An portal fragments return back to you. It sort of solves things inside my mind." Edith chuckled and praised him for such honesty and most often, it comes with bravery to do so.
"That doesn't actually solve anything much because, I've now made corrections in that reality spheres and how it was percieved by the spectators and i just think that it would never make any difference even if i erased it. Because it would not have returned to me my fragments to acquire your portal with mine. Perhaps, i do already know of my portal but, i cannot disclose to you the conditions of what i'm facing currently because i have got pressures from my higher consultancies and guardians to be by your side until you ascend to An." Nana sulked and displayed slight frustration about how he wasn't in control of this situation, something that doesn't happen to him often.
"Wait! so does that mean that you need a weird fantasy about me in order to open such a portal, this is hilarious because that was what came into my mind as soon as you said something like that but i personally believe such a thing to be much too vulgar and obscure of reality that doesn't exist. I think that nothing in this world needs anything to associate with lust and the sensations that come with it, because they're irrelevant and always immoral and devoid of purity." She said as she sipped her cup of tea and passed her opinion about the most fucking ridiculous misadventure she was going to have inside this make belief portal that which needed her intimacy and self-love.
"Perhaps, you have a point but i can't seem to comprehend the aspects of it unless that includes my involvement in such an intimate activity." he said as a dominant figure in the recognition for understanding the process of how and where such a conversation would lead but it didn't bother him if it didn't lead to any intimate activity either.
"Haha that's so adorable and funny. But, we were first trying to solve something about my image surfacing lewdness into other people spectral thought frames, and perhaps later we could maybe try to figure out that portal from my sexuality." she said vainly about what she looked like and how people would percieve the face and body of a sexual image and it's sarcasm that lay bare on the mud ridden ground.
"Perhaps, later i would have to recall the memories of this entire incident with you and you'd probably freak out because, it sort of escalated into a very obscence state of consciousness with the image of the projection of you, i have to admit. I think that, whats more important is our willingness to reach out to our portal being together with each other, and this portal sort of includes our reality together." Nana pleaded and now he was definite that he wanted to convince her that bringing her into An only with him was his truest task.
"Maybe i'm not as calm as i appear and inside my mind there is an ocean of devoid thoughts and its disruption sparks everytime i realize the fitting piece belonged there and much of lewdity and obscure obscenity in lust wants to be a distant memory that i cannot remember any longer, but it is because of lust that most often my life was destroyed in such big aspects of unravling knowledge that isn't for just anybody. I've recently been apprehended by the repurcussions of the state of my living and, and i hate to step back into the parallelity of my much incorporal world of adversities in the exosphere of a material world, but that includes this whole Treasury of Wealth and this means it brought the people, sirian bankers and moderators to distrust me and my departure to An because they see some kinds of threats that sceptics say that a very mortally oriented set of mind consciousness, maybe threats are more of a sin they are repenting deep inside and are unable to confide in their forgiveness, although it is almost as the same reality as im living in Shisa, except in a much evolved state when i finally have retrieved my inheritence in the correct measures of much strict designs. I just do not know what to do because, now all of them know of it my state of living becomes a cause for vitality and sanity, because sanity is rarely present around me, i am forcefully formidded to do anything that can help me fulfill my purpose in this world, as all of them know that my passion for the work i desire to fulfill costs their opportunities and the measures beyond the reasons for money and perhaps, in a way that challenges certain people but they're from Shisa and do the support the cause of togetherness and the causes for praising to root for one another in order to capture the similar goals." She sighed and fell back into the previous thought sphere again.
"And the apathetic environment of their ability to be exposed to an envious conciousness of thoughts when it makes them realize that the reasons now included my personal survival sanctum, which treats me like a convinience for money. And they were sort of violating larger reasons of spheres and i could not tell if they were fully conscious about it or not but perhaps it can unoccasionaly be their sub-consciousness instead. There certainly is an absence of the happy spheres and that sort of destructs the environment bringing other toxic reactions." and continued as she turned towards nana and looked at him with intensity when she said this to him as though she knew he would not be able to process every single thing she said to him.
"Hm. beginning to wonder where you felt and experienced such things in life, did you go through this in reality and that you're being considered delusional for believing so.." He looked at her and remained fixated in the conversation whereas Edith was just on the verge of shifting the focus of concern to a different topic. "I suppose that right now, there is an inaccessibility into An because of the monetary connundrum in this human realm Shisa seems to be trapped inside a very complex structure of fears but anyway, and i think that i will find a way to open the portal anyway, it's not something extremely crucial but i've actually tried something, and i wanted to try to open the portal before us, again." and he continued to provide more inflicted memory into her for what they were supposed to do together.
"Yeahh. I suppose that there's nothing much to do for the both of us right now because, i don't belive that the people of Shisa are normal and there is a certain degradation of life and the way it needs to be lived, an apocalypse would surely be dreadful but i think that it is already happening right now. I've spoken as a mediator of a messenger of a God from the Sun and perhaps, the Sun is sort of exhausted of the energy that earth and its humans waste away the energy of the Sun and the climatic changes that has affected living beings were being laid infront of me and spoken to me about these truths of such a nature of God's." Edith said to Nana and wanted him to react in a relatable manner but, Nana wasn't too concerned about the Sun and it's energy and what kind of beings used it to the maximum, and his cultivation in his life probably makes him already more knowledgeable of such information.
"Thing is we still can't identify the problems with Shisa and the minor details that changed the structure of An and right now, that's all i want to find out when we go back in there. Venturing outside to explore the current scramble of disorder would bring us exhaustion and deprived of benevolent energy. Besides, everyone here knws me and of my misadventures now, perhaps there's not even anything left to hide anymore. Yet, i can't understand why all they do is talk according to a mannerism about me and my life, it always feels like the inability to have control over your own life and i think why does it concern them, it's an individual life with an individual soul, my life and my soul." Nana remained more focused than ever in trying to convince Edith that, without going to An, they would never successfully achieve their destined purpose together.
"People from your realm have access to some kind of a lowly vibrating sorcery and have somehow closed the mechanism of the portal to An. We don't really know for sure yet but once we do find a passage into Shisa from An i think things would impact much heavily on the shift of scales and much interestingly, that even includes the scales of Astrology and constellations." and arrogantly continued to throw a distinct tantrum about Edith's current reality.
"Um..There's something that i need to tell you but i just wish beforehand that you're not angry at me about it. So, promise me that you won't feel disheartened or betrayed by it." Edith said and there was a sudden silence in the atmosphere that captivated both of them and Edith's cheeks began to redden from the secret that she was keeping from Nana, she didn't want it to distract him immensely yet Nana appeared alarmed by Edith's sudden mode of confession.
"Hm. Okay if it's not about you selling out a word about An to anyone with the inability to understand that in An, trust is a prestige and loyalty is inert to our benevolence." Nana's tone changed immediately and reassured to Edith his supreme responsibilities and his loyalty to An.
"Well, ever since that day we teleported to An through the portal, i was able to find channel into the fragments that were left here and with it, i don't know how, but i could walk into the vision of An with it's fragments and until now, most of it just included a place of an abysmal that temporarily brought relief to my need for solace, especially from a wretched place like Shisa. It has now become a place where i write about lovers and their romances, a cage in a labyrinth where i see their fragments in my visions. I didn't know how to tell you because i thought that it may put self-doubts in your trust upon me and because these works of literature and knowledge of classical, proto-divine romance between people. It includes passionate love making and the fragments of inscriptions from the internal fire that burns in their souls when making love, the stories of love that can be embedded within you and sometimes, this can last forever in your soul. I thought it would be rather awkward and i'd probably falter to disbeliefs if i had told anybody about it." She held both his hands tightly in hers and said this to him as her eyes turned slightly teary from the emotional burdens that she had buried all this while even when they were together often.
Nana closed her palms together as he lowered his head to kiss it and, both of them lived in a momentarily embrace but Nana more, even though sudden synchronity of butterflies tingling Edith's tummy from this affection grew louder in this brand new attraction she felt towards him....maybe there was a sparkle as her eyes now sparkled when she looked into his eyes at the instance, she began to shed teardrops yet withheld her need to weep loudly.. "Wow. This has come to me as quite a surprise, i must say Edith, something like this has probably never happened before. Hmm. I'm sure there must be something greater you seek. And that it cannot be your conscious mind alone but the very sub-conscious one which can sometimes fall into the spheres of unconsciousness. And if it is love and romance you find interest in, it is possible that it's something you seek and that, you are yearning the meaning of a love you want to become much closer to. What kind of fores are you being composed into, is it love stories and memoires among the divine people that are locked up in heaven." Nana added as he put her palms down and bent to look at her now starry eyes and smiled to say "Don't fret like a child, i feel very content now for how you chose to tell me this truth and since you did, you don't even have to be alone to face An complexities, i'll always be here watching your back, to give to you the comfort and the company that you deserve and you must know this by now, that it is only because i do love you and care for you.
"And tell me this though, are you also able to relive and speculate the moments of romance between people?" and continued to question her in an array of speculations for his curiousity and sudden hints of lamentation for what this could mean for him.
"It's not really something that i'm able to be physically present to understand the elements of romance and the depths of love and the war that intertwined one another but maybe i'm just able to find true meaning of what was lived and sort of cherished as the fragment in some sort of carnal memories that are stored there. It's really interesting right now I've been able to channel into a love story between two soulmates that were seperated into two different worlds and the remnent of their story was inscribed into two different stars that were much close to one another, one faded in light and darker, the other bright and shining. It's quite hilarious how at the very end of a sacramental verdict, it all meant that the art of making love to yourself became a cherubian literature. There were such different kinds of romance between diffrernt types of angels." she said and realized somehow that such a disclosure would somehow make Nana be more inclined towards her and be involved in the things she would otherwise do privately.
"Whose reality scripts are you writing about, is it something that has already been foretold or an experience that you are able to relive when you feel rendered to such a reverie in a vision you see. Or, is it something that you are capable of foreseeing and controlling in the series of their reality of love." he paused "hehe" and chuckled to the possibility of her abilities.
"Um. Right now, I am only able to see spectral moments of a cherub angel that is most inevitably succumbed by the laws of lust in love and almost descended in sudden patterns of misguidance but was lifted back up by a celestial maiden, right from the hands of hell, like one that was so close to the heavens. Hmm. However, there is another one that i tend to have clear cut visions of, as though i had to have a part in it, it felt so different the first time it happened in my experience of it. Like my body taking its form from the centers of my soul into the formation and shape of my soul to finally be able to touch the lover of the main character's soul, in the story. It wasn't a truly remarkable story as envy takes over and degrades their romance into a much smaller aspect of a selfishly inflicted love. I wasn't quite impressed by it." She paused to recall her sentence and felt the need to complete her explaination.
"I am but a spirt and a soul and not a human, but it takes many a soul of love to experience intimacy with a lover even if it means, it is another body. I took it to my interests so i could make something out of it. Maybe now, I simply like to dwell in the reasons for a thing such as love, to begin with, yet now, it somehow feels like a temple of my own, one that i must attend to with care. Quite interestingly, Daegyne the main character wasn't a human being, their names seem like a vague memory from a dream, even though the visions of them appear to me in certain bright resonant light particles that move around in transcendance. She was the goddess of love, only she was able to give blessings to others in the matters of a phenomena as twisted as love, which was what happened to her, in the conjunction of an encounter with the Divine Comedy. Even so, such a representation of an image of somebody so holy and contained of divine love would have too many a devotee that would result into a scramble of an anonymous conspiracy in the connundrums of her love life and it's loyalty towards her only lover. Men did not believe they weren't worthy of her physical body nor her soul because her body was her soul but instead, those who loved her and weren't loved back as much, impregnated her atomic structures as she gave birth to different types of universes in return, some where born of destruction and hatred because they committed an act of love from pure envy and lust, and they still could not help but tear her apart for not remaining loyal to her one God, which all of them thought they were but, in the history of such a figure, there was only one God she was fated to, and he to her. As light years came to pass with all her offsprings, time seemed like just a moment away for her. It eased her pain but in the fragment of my visions the truth appeared like a dream, it was in my eyes, and because she was quite an interesting character, i found abilities to go back there again, to break into the fragments of her every little emotion and i felt pain and weeped because, a sense of empathy captivated my soul as though it almost locked me to her, something like how i would have felt if i were her but in this frame of time and the mysterious labyrinth in An, but i am not her, i am able to return to Shisa and live my own reality and time. I will narrate to you more but first i must attempt to return to the Labyrinth by the stream, my portal straight into the An realm, just to recollect some more experience fragments from my vision manifestation." Edith briefly explained to Nana about her current area of interests in An and wallowed around the thought of being inflicted with much more inclination and attraction towards this portal in An.
"A Cherub Angel? How could he have fallen into the realm of An, perhaps he was dwelling in An for another heavenly purpose, like recorrecting his lustful ways as an angel. Unlike me, i happen to remain loyal to the one faithful consciousness of love. Whereas Daegyne, was she from a different story reality or the same one as the Cherub Angel? Were you acquiring two different types of love story realities from two separate paradigms?" Nana added as he wanted to know much more about the Cherub Angel that seemingly lost his way in the path of his journey to discover resolutions in the ways of love and compassion, and even though cherubs are recognized as sexual figures and representation of intimacy which most often results in lust, but they are also, usually ones that desire love the most.
"Well, i am not one with a bad eye and therefore i am not able to see deeper into the darker matters and the density of how disparity and sadness inflicted darker demons of lust and wraith that didn't belong in the story of such a reality, even though, if a goddess is to love beings that appear before her for their devotion and their acquisition for blessings from her, it does not make her wrong of her natural attribute to give to them the love they desire and the inequities of their inner world they seek from her although, this does bring consequences that may not be anticipated by the laws of different sciences that usually explain the reasoning for the ideal imagination of their own meaning of love, and each one can have different ways of consciousness for it. Most of all it destructs the one single thing that causes the only reason for the existence and the purpose of love, faithfulness and loyalty to your one and only. I only thought for sometime and it confused me... how could mortals come in the way of two divine entities that are meant for one another and break divide them apart so brutally, that even the 12 different planetary revolutions was able to create polar synchronicity and repel one another. The celestial attacks came in large waves of constellation impacts, first, like how the stars lied to astrology, moon disfigured the physical image of love and told people how it should be, and sun, how it began to nurture plants from bad seeds." Edith told to Nana
"Oh well, i would love to hear much more about such an interesting endeavor. Do enlighten me with the revelations of such divine and soul shaking centers of love and it's symbiosys." Nana said as he began to wonder inside his thought contemplation while oogling his eyes in revolving manner,perhaps he needed more time to process everything that was happening around with him and Edith.