**TRIGGER WARNING**
**PHYSICAL ABUSE**
**SEXUAL ABUSE **
Lydda's POVMy eyes jolt open as I felt something heavy over my body and my mouth was quickly covered with a hand, also blocking my breathing.Panic rose within me and I noticed Mike staring at me with a hateful lustful look in his eyes.I bit down on his hand so hard I felt a metallic taste in my mouth which I then spat in his face pushing him off of me standing on my feet."Fucking whore!!" He wiped his face charging at me, I attempted to run but he quickly caught me wrapping his hand around my neck."He is not here to save now is he?" He spat venomously and we both knew who he was talking about.I coughed struggling for air and attempted to knee him in the groin but he quickly predicted my move."Nice try sweetheart." He grinned turning my body around slamming my face into the wall and before I could collapse onto the ground due to the force, his body was right against mine.Hot tears lined at my eyes but I wouldn't let them fall, I refused to let them fall, I refused to cry any longer than I've cried in the presence of this soulless fuckers, as much as my heart hurt I would not cry.He lowered the shorts I was wearing making sure I felt his hard against me.'I will not cry' I kept repeating to myself as Mike proceed with his assault, shoving his manhood into me, slamming my body more into the wall.'I will not cry' I repeated as the tears began falling freely.'I will not cry' I repeated as he wrapped his hand around my neck, his hot breath running down the back of my neck as he licked my ear.'I will not cry.' I repeated trying to block out his moans.I shut my eyes tight trying to muffle my own cries, hoping for this moment to be over already."Fuck you're good.""So fucking tight" he moaned against my ear, resting his head on my shoulder as his body started shaking."Mm" he mumbled pulling himself out, his seamen spilling on to the floor.My body snaked to the ground, my mind completely empty, heart beating heavy against my chest, sweat trickled down my face and suddenly the room felt smaller and there was less and less air.Air, where is the air?I clutched my chest for some reason hoping that would help me but it didn't, more tears fled my eyes as I struggled for relief.Breathe Lydda breathe, I tried to calm myself but it wasn't working."He....hel...help..." I said between breaths, every attempt at speaking feeling like I was wasting breath."What the fuck Mike!" Oscar walked in tackling Mike to the ground."Fuck you do to her you son of a bitch?" Oscar asked halting a punch he was about throw."Fucking hit me! I dare you, touch me and My brother will put a bullet in both yours and Cinderella 's head faster than you can spell w-h-o-r-e" Mike spat glaring at me.Oscar let him go."Second in command my ass."Mike spat kicking me in the ankle before walking out."Fuck." Oscar punched the wall, running his fingers through his hair in frustration."Hey look at me." He said holding my shoulders but I flinched and pushed him back in response."Don't touch me" I cried, still struggling for breath.He seemed helpless for a moment but then did the unexpected.He sat beside me, placing me on him so that my head was buried in his chest.I struggled against his hold, trying to fight him off but he only cooed and tried to calm me.And Alas I did calm down.We sat like that in silence, my head rested on his chest, listening to his uneven heartbeat.Then I broke down, holding on tightly to him, he tightened his hold on me also making me feel for a moment that everything was okay, except everything was not okay, it would never be okay, I was shattered and there was no way the pieces would ever come together again.My life was taken away from me, my freedom, my choice, my will, my dignity, all of them taken leaving nothing but a shell, all my hopes and dreams, all of them, Sold by my own father.I cried burying my head deeper in Oscar's chest."I will kill them myself." He spoke lowly and I lifted my head to look at him, he held my gaze, his eyes filled with murderous fury."I will kill them" he repeated and for some reason I believed him, I believed that promise it made me feel safe, and I held on to it.He got up to leave, but I held on to him with pleading eyes, scared that after he leaves someone else will come in to continue where Mike left off."Don't worry, I won't let them hurt you anymore." He said reassuringly.After he left, I took my blanket planted myself in furthest corner, if was possible for me to dissappear into the wall, I'm certain I would have.I pulled at my hair trying to feel anything except the pain I was feeling.