Y/n! all he said was. It take me a second to understand the situation and I just shut the door without any thoughts , knowing that I actually want to listen to him. I actually need him , he is all I have. I also don't know why I try to close the door. As I was closing the door a hand come on it's way. I applied all my force to push back the door but it's all in vain infront of that muscular man. When I was fighting against him I saw his veiny hand and then my eyes got a veiw of his pinki finger. His hands are still cute just like his smile. He is grown into a muscular man but his hands are still tiny. And here I lost again in my own world, the world of overthinking . As I lost my concentration all I know was I was behind the close door and he was breathing heavily infront of my face. He was too close that make me loose focus. My heart was beating fast I want to kiss him but more than that I want to cry , I want to cry a lot and want to shed all tears that I was holding till the day I saw him last time. I just stood there in his grip all shocked while he was breathing heavily right infront of my face that I felt his warm breathe properly . After gaining a normal breath he let me free from his grip. Now I was looking at him with questioning eyes , I was all quiet but my eyes are asking too many questions from him and he understand exactly what that all questions are . I , I was just trying to open the door.
Why ?why are you even here? Aren't you suppose to be in your welcome party? What you want From me ? I asked all these questions in one breath. I just want to see you and gave you your gift that's all but all you do is ! he said while tears were visible in his eyes but I care nothing. I was hurt , I was hurt badly all because of him. He left me telling nothing but a letter for all , in which he mention that he was leaving just because of shitty family business and he don't want to marry me and now suddenly he came back and told me that he want to see me? Why! Why is he doing all this to me. This all hurt.
I don't need your gift. Who you're to me that I accept your gift ? I don't even remember who you're. I said this knowing that I was wrong he is everything to me. We are cousins y/n he replied in one sentence and his this sentence break me more. Cousins ? I sarcastically laugh. I don't even remember I have any male cousin. y/n ! he said my name while taking one step close to me. I unconsciously step back, it's not like I was afraid of him but it was all unconscious.I know my this action hurt him but the one who was hurt the most is me not him. Is anything burning he said coming close to me while continuously smelling and coming close to me in his favourite flirty way. At first I thought he was pointing towards my jealousy but it was actually a burning smell. Fuck... I ran toward kitchen and quickly turn off the stove thank god it was not completely burned and still able to eat. I know I'm bad at cooking but I've to cook. My mother always teaches me new things about cooking but all I know is only how to make ramens and noodles. I came to lounge hopping that he already left but also in my heart I was hoping that he stay , stay with me forever. When I entered in lounge I was welcomed by his beautiful giggle , I stand in my toe to look at thing he was giggling without him noticing. It was our childhood picture. We look too much cute there. When he noticed me he said you're still same , you haven't changed a little even and all I did as a reply was ignoring him as much as I can. He asked for ramens and I furrow my brows as a question. He giggled and said I know you are bad at cooking but I can still eat what you made let's eat together. When he used the word together I want to ask him when was all this shit together when I was crying for him and now he is behaving like nothing had happened why he is doing all this shit to me. Okay !okay no need I was just there to gave you a gift please open it when you feel comfortable. I don't need your gift I said heartlessly. He than come close to me while looking into my eyes, staring deep into my soul. At that time I think of nothing but the closeness between us , I just wanted to gave up and hug him tightly but there exists a egoistic person inside me who don't want me to show my soft side. He grab my left hand and handed that gift box to me and move toward main door after bidding a bye to me. I just stand there doing nothing pretended to not even bothered by his any action. When he was closing the door I throw his gift at table near sofa with the voice of tha! he looked at me with sad eyes and then move out of house left me alone in my thoughts. Why he was there? What is he up to now ? What is in the gift? The main question is why he returned after many years? These all questions hurt me but what hurts the most is his last glance while heading out of the house. He is behaving all like this but something in his eyes are telling me he did nothing wrong I just misunderstood him. But I read that letter with my own eyes and he was missing all these years just because of me. I was looking at the door still in my thoughts , eyes were full of tears but I didn't cry , all I do is just staring at the door and thinking about him. He is not there with me. He just appeared after five years and left after five minutes making me cry out loud. Why he did that to me. I sit on the sofa staring at his gift , tears rolled down my face I didn't bother them and let myself cry silently.